Terms and Conditions (2018)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbykdfKfb7A
Visuals thanks to @shallowview (twitter)
shoutout 4 my superstar model @ktng 

catch me drifting on the soma
i wanna lapse back
to when we're young
still its nothing 
why i feel numb
have all ur letters 
with my heart strung

still theres something
got my mind fucked
I'm searching for
anything to stand on
I' constantly
fighting to stay over
i think my life's already over
I'm constantly fighting
to stay sober

fighting 2 stay sober

i'm sorry, i'm trying. (acoustic)

Cemetery Weather (4evr)

i spoke to the demon that lives in my nightmares
he told me that life wasnt fair

he taught me how to hate myself and hide it
he showed me how to die behind my eyelids

im pretty sure he doesnt have the best intentions
and i think i really need an intervention

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

i spoke to an angel that blesses my conscience
she told me i shouldnt have fear

she taught me how to love myself
but i didnt listen
now ive become too self aware

ill go out
all alone
with a smile on my face
and i promise
im not scared of you
im not scared of you

say bye to all my friends
waiting for the end
this is the path ive chosen
i cant pretend
that everything is fine
my lifes a fucking lie
the demon on my shoulder
has one this time

i spoke to the demon
he murdered the angel
and now ive got blood on my hands

demons & angels

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

*STARZ* (acoustic)

Belle Delphine - Bite Down

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

I never felt as powerless as i did in the hospital room
every second and hour spent saying how much i love you
and I’m so sorry that I fucking lied
said I’ll protect you but I couldn’t this time
it doesn’t matter how hard I tried
how the hell do I say goodbye
i wanna be the way we were
but it just keeps getting worse
keep screaming at the nurse I’m sorry
watch them take away your body

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me
scream until you comeback
I need you please don’t go yet
give me one more day
why would they take you away from me
I’m staring at the sky 
and wonder if you’re behind with
a thousand eyes on you
sitting inside the blue it still doesn’t feel real yet
kneeling next to your bed and seeing you so damn cold
just tell me its all a fucking lie

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

keep screaming (prod. neek)

wish you would just call back
i dont know what happened
were moving so fast
and ive been feeling absent
all the time
when you're here im happy 
lately ive been having 
the worst days of my life
wishing you would call back
ive been saying too bad
maybe get a notepad read my mind
i wanna be happy
you know ive been having the worst days of my life

like misery and me when the wind shifts
put me in a grave with your lipstick
on my cheek when you drop me 6 feet
do you feel anything as you leave

and i guess this is how you wanted it
see the mess you could make with my heart against
the floor and your form takes shape of the rain when it pours
now i wish i never started
and ive reached the farthest point from you
why did i do all this when i know
you sit in your apartment crying on your phone

wish you would just call back
i dont know what happened
were moving so fast
and ive been feeling absent
all the time
when you're here im happy 
lately ive been having 
the worst days of my life
wishing you would call back
ive been saying too bad
maybe get a notepad read my mind
i wanna be happy
you know ive been having the worst days of my life

if i die first - where needles and lovers collide

kiss shot