this songs about my room flooding lol

written, mixed & mastered by: @kobayami
prod. by: @drip-133

flood (prod. @drip-133)

love u @seem_bng
Mixed, Mastered & Produced by: @areyoumatthias
Vocals Mixed by: @kayostarri

lyrics:

im starting to think im worthless
cause my lifes a fucking mess
im just going through these curses
please know im trying my best

you're saying its not as bad as it seems
but i know you'll learn to regret me
i wanna learn to love myself
but im just so fucking ugly, yeah

dropping out, disappointing everyone
try my best to make it up to my mom
do my best, that's what you use to always say
now im falling apart on the brightest day

now im bitchin' 'bout how life ain't fair
got me doubled-down, on my knees, tearing out my hair
got one big, happy family, but im never there
cause no one ever gave a shit, no one ever cared

x2

i want to love myself, but im sO F*CKING UGLY DUDE

(kobayami)
yeah i hate my life,
but thats ok
cause i didnt want to
talk to you anyways

yeah, the fear i keep inside of me
i wont show,
but as long as your beside me
imma go tonight

imma show you all 
the reasons im hurting
its all deserving,
you can see me falling through,

you can see me
fall apart when im outside,
too many prying eyes,
making me feel like imma

go to hell,
i remember how you felt,
that was last summer
and i know i never helped

($EEM BNG)
i never told you
how i felt,
imma ghost now
imma soul that's void,
cause i got everything
that i ever wanted,
i hope you go to hell

my time, im fine,
you're crying,
im dying inside,
cause i was lying to you,
i was dying for you

i know i said that
i was sorry
but i swear that its true
and i tell everybody
i was sober
outta the blue but im not,

im locked inside my own walls,
im confused as to where i belong

it's too much w/ $EEM BNG [prod. wetmall x sorrowbringer]

(kobayami)
so this is it, my final days,
imma lay my little head down
rest for all eternity

wait for you, in that crypt,
imma do my best by you,
promise i wont waste it

i don't even know if 
i wanna die young,
or if i need someone
i can call my own

i've been chillin'
at my place wasting away,
i've been too love sick,
and i've been so alone

wait girl, please come back, i'm
sorry that i said that, you know
i don't have the best mental health,
imma mess, i'm depressed,
i don't even know who i am

with time you'll learn to regret
ever running away,
but i'll wait for you here

i know it's not the same 
but that's ok
it doesn't matter to me,
its never really fucking mattered

(Lxst Boy <3)
i’m never sober just stuck in my head
i wanna talk but i’m better off dead
you just jealous i’m making the bread
deleting all ur texts from outta my head

and now it’s over
i don’t wanna lie now
told her
i would never cry

over my dead body
i was fine until u called me
can’t believe i called u shawty
now i sing like kobayami

and now it’s over
i don’t wanna lie now
told her
i would never cry

(kobayami)
wait girl, please come back, i'm
sorry that i said that, you know
i don't have the best mental health,
imma mess, i'm depressed,
i don't even know who i am

with time you'll learn to regret
ever running away,
but i'll wait for you here

i know it's not the same 
but that's ok
it doesn't matter to me,
its never really fucking mattered

my final days w/ Lxst Boy

shout out to @breckenford, @yungcray & @slashybitch for hopping on this!!

prod. by: @yagirlbunny

soul train w/  yungcray, FøRD & slashy

him <3

lyrics:
telling me that i'm better off dying all alone,
but i wanna be with you, we can finally grow
old together, me and you in cold weather,
i'ma keep my shit with me, i'ma keep my shit together for you

do you hear me? do you think i'm dead?
could you heal me? can i rest my head
on your chest? i'll wake up on your bed,
i wanna tell you 'bout how things were never meant to be

hold me close dear, i don't wanna lose you here,
dropping you, it's the only thing i'm really scared of,
got me full of fear, baby i'm here,
i know that you're worth it cause you act like you're sent from above

canopy

i posted this a year ago, but i wanted to put it on the ep because i love it. <3

lyrics:
oh please
could u wait here
hold on
ill let go now

for me
will u die here?
for me
i will wait here

please
just stay right there
too much
for me to handle

drop u
made of glass
hold me
its all i ask

grime (interlude)

my gf <3 - https://soundcloud.com/seem_bng

Hate Me w/ $EEM BNG

witch hut gang <3

let me down, let me down,
let me down slowly
it don't matter at,
it gets hard to breathe

place a couple of cuts
to prove i can bleed
wrap my arms around you,
last thing that's real to me

astral projecting straight through my walls,
make a couple of calls,
plug gon' meet me in the summer

i can feel your heartbeat,
girl, you're barely breathing,
do you need some blood to feed?

half the time you ain't even there,
just a ghost in the walls,
scratch marks through my hair

you're a soul that's void,
i know that shit ain't fair,
i've had enough of this,
let's get outta here

astral

i can't save u w/ FØRD, yungcray, WINTERZ $ORROW

the baby: @gangstervin

(kobayami)
tell me what you want me to do,
i could leave this town
imma do it for you
never see me again
never talk to my friends
just another fucking kid kicked out once again

i be out on my own
just a bag and some clothes
i could use a little help
have mercy on my soul
see faces in the rain
no its never the same
my whole family hate me
put a gun to my brain girl

suicide, imma end my life here
off the bridge, maybe everything comes clear
funeral, baby would you wait right here?
other side, imma wait for you here

(VINN¥)
The only thing you gotta do is, tell me why, (is tell me why)
All you gotta say is just to wait awhile (wait a while)
Baby I’ve been laying down the coffin just to make you smile-
And I can’t stay the same without you

So tell me why 4x

Why you gotta break my heart, why we gotta break apart, noo,

First time, that I ever felt a-mazing
Last time, I’ll ever get embraced in,
Your arms, a place that I can’t break-in
Black and blue I’m breaking, sins that you were faking

So tell me why 4x

Why you gotta break my heart, why we gotta break apart, noo

Tell Me w/ VINN¥

big THANK YOU to pano for the heavenly beat <3 @brxydenk

lyrics:
cast a sigil when i'm with you up in the coop
you ain't gotta worry about me girl, ill be here for you
smoking on that loud, pass that shit to you
imma do it for you,
imma keep my cool

could you wait here?
promise that i'll be back
i know that you love me
but i'll hold you down
i ain't got that much
but i got some love
stare into your eyes,
girl be sent from above

i be getting high on my death day,
hoping you'll be right there when i pass away
wanna give so much, but there's not much left
cause the world is dead,
could you take my head?

say you really cared
it wouldn't matter at all,
say you really cared
girl, what happened to you?
say you really care
but nothing remains
cause it's all the same,
people treat me the same

RMS Lusitania w/ Panotune

Produced by: @beruthiel-music
Vocals Mixed/Mastered by: @kobayami & @seem_bng

mercy w/ $EEM BNG

Produced by: @xie9sj3rsmwy
Vocals Mixed by: @gangstervin & @kayostarri
Vocals Mastered by: @kayostarri

>w<

(grey era clique <3)

VINN¥:

(Hook)

Why you never tried, never think you’d ever did it
I’ve been thinking it’s alright, but I think you never listen
Didn’t, Didin’t think you cried, when you’re telling me it’s different
I was different for a while
I was different for a while

kayo starri:

(Verse)

what you wanna do?
met you in the coop
saw you in a bad place
eyes stuck on you
tell me is it true
everything they say
wanna kill yourself?
suisside out in the bay?

(woo!)

dont wanna stay here
run off with you dear
call you my true love
imma see shit clear
you sent from above
wings spread full of fear
but knowing my luck
imma drop you here

ay

🎵🎵🎵

(Verse 2)

miss you
lost you
girl i miss you
kiss you
baby girl
can i kiss you
hold you
to my chest
feel my heartbeat
my lungs
collapse
making me weak

VINN¥:

(Hook)

Why you never tried, never think you’d ever did it
I’ve been thinking it’s alright, but I think you never listen
Didn’t, Didin’t think you cried, when you’re telling me it’s different
I was different for a while
I was different for a while

suisside w/ VINN¥ (prod. wixxy)

Produced by: @brxydenk
Mix/Mastered by: @kayostarri

im sorry i ate your chips on the way home from maccas pls dont leave me at hurstville

LYRICS:

Do you wanna go there?
Do you really, really, really wanna go there?
Shot my heart, so bare
Out in the open, but I didn't care

Lay my head on your chest
Closest I'll ever get to your heart
Tell you I love you but you know the rest
So I'll tell you that I've loved you since the very start

What is this?
What is this?
What are these tears in your eyes?

Struggling,
Stumbling,
Struggling to see you, I'm blind

Wondering,
Wandering,
Wondering if you'll be mine

But it's hard,
But it's hard,
But it's hard, where do we draw the line?

I just wanna see you again
I just miss you pretty face
I'm just stuck, caught out in the mist
It just sucks how much I've cried

We both know you don't want this body
No one'll judge so let it out
Some will just hate you regardless
So rip that cord and weed them out

x2

u wanna hang out? sure, i know a spot! w/ Panotune

this track's hella inspired by “Thinking bout you” by peep and BOYFROOT, just for fun mostly <3

lyrics:

tell me what it is you want me to be
imma give you more than you’ll ever need
sitting here waiting for your final breath

(grey era clique <3)

could you please fly away from my grave?
do it slow, it’ll numb the pain
watch me blow up, gonna happen one day
people switch up, it don’t matter ok

careful what you ask for
lining off my dashboard
is this what you wished for?
need you close, my paramour

guess some things were never meant
bleeding out slow on the pavement
took a couple xannies just to reconnect 
pop a bottle with it, let my body hit the bed

cutting real deep, thinking bout you
everything i shouldve done for you
hurt so bad so i blamed you
but we know its not true, never shouldve blamed you

if i end my life
do you honestly think she’ll love me then?
i could pull up in my ghost
i’ll be haunting her till the very end
when i hit it big
i just wanna be surrounded by all my friends
you could call me lxst boy
cause i cant wait for december to end

careful what you ask for
lining off my dashboard
is this what you wished for?
need you close, my paramour

haunting her (prod. skinwalker)

remake of an old song :3

lyrics:
[kobayami]
pushing all of my friends far away
i don't really care what they have to say
i've been fucking up
they be rotting my brain
and i just wish i could stay
man, what you gonna say?

i've been stuck inside my head 
for a couple of nights now,
i don't know how
i could keep going on like this
i've been feeling like shit
i don't wanna do this no more

for you, i'd bleed myself dry
but i'm still stuck here
done it a thousand times
maybe a thousand more
maybe i'll be just fine
maybe i'll be alright
maybe i'll end my life for you

every time i get to drinking
i get to overthinking
i don't wanna talk about it
but you get my heart beating
and i will not regret you
i just wanna be a part of you
you're the love of my life
and i'll always be right here for you

[$EEM BNG]
all up in my life now
i don't wanna let you down
drown in those open texts
saw nobody else around

i was texting you 'til 
the end of the world tonight
yeah, knew that it was
so i'll say that it's love
at first sight

go ahead and cut off that act
no, you want me in the back
we might lose what we had had
but i don't ever want that
so i brought you from the class
to see if i could surpass

in love with you from the start
cause i know that for a fact

these feelings they're waking 
another side of me (skrrt!)
and i'll wait for you, baby
no it's not a dream

i was up until the sunrise
is that the light it gleams?
i get completely sober for you
maybe it is what it seems... (BNG :3)

love of my life pt. 2 w/ $EEM BNG [prod. beruthial x flower x 5head]

lyrics:
too late
you're far too late for me
you'll stay
far away from me

break away
break away from me
'til then
do good for me

far too late [prod. skinwalker]

wanted to do a remake of an old song of mine, plus change/add some more verses. hope u enjoy!! :3

lyrics:

[verse 1]
ya'll ain't never seen me at my worst
throw me down in the dirt
and cast me out to the worms
cause there's too much going on with me
it's getting so hard to breath
everyday i'm drowning
h2o in my lungs

i'm never showing up
don't ever wanna grow up
with all this food on my plate
i think i'm throwing up
so cast me out to the gallows
water has never been shallow
people be wanting more and more
from me and i cannot handle

[verse 2]
blood dripping slow off the handle
it all comes from my wrist
forgot how my mom
she hates me
she don't care about the risks
went out, bought myself a handle
drink 'til i'm numb to this

[bridge]
stab a pin in my eyes
sacrifice my life for you

[verse 3]
switch up my flow
don't wanna go
come fuck with me baby
and i'm gonna show
hit up your phone
hit up your home
ask me a lot
but i do not know

how the fuck do i escape this?
how the fuck do i make it?
play this shit in your spot
i'll take it
hate me a whole lot
okay bitch

[breakdown]
pop an addy
cause it help me forget
i love you hard
now i'm ghosting
can't help but regret it

you said it one too many times
you only contributing
disbuting all your lies
i'll be dead by nightfall

[outro]
leave me alone with my dark thoughts please
too many people, they be watching me
if i fuck with you, please don't leave
i love you too much, give you what you need

soul train (chloe's version) [prod. skinwalker]

play this at my funeral

lyrics:

[chorus]
i dont want nobody around
when im finally dead
and they bury me underground

am i still inside your head?

when im skin and bones
will you leave me alone?
will i finally find peace
inside my tomb?

or will you dig me up
what the fuck you gonna do
when im no longer there
and im flying over you

[verse]
people call me lil peep
i dont really see it, b
the music's the same
but he is not me
call me lil kennedy
i'll beat it with amphetamines
they wanna see me die
so i let em bleed

[chorus]
i dont want nobody around
when im finally dead
and they bury me underground

am i still inside your head?

when im skin and bones
will you leave me alone?
will i finally find peace
inside my tomb?

or will you dig me up
what the fuck you gonna do
when im no longer there
and im flying over you

skin and bones [prod. skinwalker]

i cant wait to say ily <3
shoutout @prodbysyreeni

lyrics:

[chorus]
i miss seeing your face out the window
everytime it rains
i feel your afterglow
i can still hear your heart beat
through the sound
miss your red hair
i miss what i found

things unsaid
never spoke a word
wouldn’t even matter though
cause i never heard
craving your touch
even though it hurts
yeah, i thought too much
so it never worked

[verse 1]
i never meant to lie to you
but i guess i did
and i can't take it back
drinking too much to forget
i had a brush with death
so please cut me some slack

got a little problem
drinking empty bottles
its the only way i can catch some sleep
still thinking about you
but i'm so doubtful
so i guess i'll see you in my dreams

[verse 2]
is this really what you want?
hit me up now and then
or every couple of months
i just really wanna see you
but you're blowing me off
i'm just waiting for the day
you fall asleep in my arms

can't wait to meet you again
you were my only friend
should've held you close to me
and never let it end
but then i broke your heart
so i'll start again
i loved you from the start
i see you in the stars

[chorus]
i miss seeing your face out the window
everytime it rains
i feel your afterglow
i can still hear your heart beat
through the sound
miss your red hair
i miss what i found

things unsaid
never spoke a word
wouldn’t even matter though
cause i never heard
craving your touch
even though it hurts
yeah, i thought too much
so it never worked

a song for an uncracked gem [prod. Syreeni]

probably the most personal track on the ep

lyrics:

my mama say she love me
but thats just her intuition
she says that im not a burden
but she goes and treats me different
tell her that im dying slowly
i dont think she ever listens
kill myself the way she said
she wont notice me, whos missing?

i be drinking empty bottles
in hopes that it change my feelings
but my brain aint wired right
i be lacking serotonin
lay awake, too late at night
i could use some melatonin 
screaming at the top of my lungs
“mama, could you please just hold me?”

i can still feel the disappointment in your eyes
never had a chance but i’ll try to rest
finding sick comfort in my isolation 
rotting in my room cause mother knows best

now i don’t wanna stand here and wait too long
you can call me @xxxlacuna as i hit my bong
gave that shit away
i been getting too baked
smokin kk to the face
i’ll be dead by tomorrow

hearts hollow
i’m on my own
i don’t show
won’t leave my room
i’m in my tomb
but i miss you
so i’ll see you soon my dear

oh i don’t think you’ll ever get to see me again
oh i hope you don’t find me in a way you’ll forget
i’ll write a note, catch up on what we said
i’ll see you tomorrow, my only friend

my mama say she love me
but thats just her intuition
she says that im not a burden
but she goes and treats me different
tell her that im dying slowly
i dont think she ever listens
kill myself the way she said
she wont notice me, whos missing?

i be drinking empty bottles
in hopes that it change my feelings
but my brain aint wired right
i be lacking serotonin
lay awake, too late at night
i could use some melatonin 
screaming at the top of my lungs
“mama, could you please just hold me?”

momma [prod. skinwalker]

prod. by: @yagirlbunny

(one at a time, where’s your shine?)
(do you see your baby?)

(what’s wrong, sunshine? do you grieve?)
(please don’t grieve for-)

verse 1:
thinking about your brown hair
makes me forgot all of my problems
i know it’s been too long
but i’m here so i’ll hold you
i’ma be right here
steady tucked in your pocket (woo!)
gave you my heart
stashed away in a locket for you

verse2:
don’t wanna forget this summer
i don’t wanna forget how you warmed my heart
don’t want nobody else, don’t see no other
person better for me so will you have me?

verse 3:
is it too much to ask
if im pushing my limit
tell me if im going too far
with this love that i’m feeling
cause when im cooling with you
there ain’t no way that i’m losing
we were meant to be together
hold my hand in any weather

(one at a time, where’s your shine?)
(do you see your baby?)

(what’s wrong, sunshine? do you grieve?)
(please don’t grieve for me)

coolin' with u

prod. by: @prodcxrter
mix, mastered by me :3
say hi to mochi (she’s in the cover art)

lyrics:

[verse 1]
talking all the time
but you sound so damn obnoxious
i don’t want that shit in my life
so i’ll move to other options
hearing all your complaining
got me going catatonic
i know that you mean well
but im leaking serotonin

[chrous]
hitting up my phone like
“how’re you doing?”
i know it’s been a couple months
but you’re back like remission
fucking up all my thoughts
like a shot of radiation
never cared about the cost
no, i shouldn’t want it all with you

x2

[verse 2]
but im not gonna lie
and say i didnt like it
kinda fell in love
with how we was always fighting
sorry that i ruined your makeup
with tears running down your cheeks
oh, they were for me

reconnected with my boy
and he better than you
i was never one to gloat
so don’t misconstrue
cause i really do think that
i still love you
but i don’t want you back
no i don’t want you

[bridge]
calm down
you’ll be fine
i know it’s a lot
but you can make up your mind
whether you live like this 
or if you wanna die
cause either way baby
this is your life

(you’re still-)

[chrous]
hitting up my phone like
“how’re you doing?”
i know it’s been a couple months
but you’re back like remission
fucking up all my thoughts
like a shot of radiation
never cared about the cost
no i shouldn’t want it all with you

x2

remission [prod. cxrter x chrismarek]

made with: @breckenford and @yagirlbunny

lyrics:

yung bunn <3

[koba]

and if im being honest
i don’t got nobody to talk to
and if im being honest
i dont want nobody else but you

so what’s your number
tell me, what’s your number?
all my friends saying
“koba, you should call him”
say i love you
im so fucking tired

@miserygxrden baby
we on the moon baby

[FØRD]

lemme be honest i been goin crazy
you gave me a promise and you left me so baby
lemme tell you everything thats goin on
took time out my day and every day you made me walk

honestly im stuck standing in shock still
were we meant to be together girl jus be fr
every night im sitting here and you make me feel
like i dont even matter girl just tell me whats the deal
whats the deal
tell me whats the deal
its so surreal
cause i been skippin meals
its so familiar the way you 

put me in my feels

[koba]

and if im being honest
i don’t got nobody to talk to
and if im being honest
i dont want nobody else but you

so what’s your number
tell me, what’s your number?
all my friends saying
“koba, you should call him”
say i love you
im so fucking tired

@miserygxrden baby
we on the moon baby

if i'm being honest w/ brecken

made with gang: @breckenford and @yagirlbunny
cover art by: @eepysnore on tiktok

lyrics:

yung bunn <3

[koba]

i don’t wanna do this all over again
cause it feels like i’ve been here a thousand times
and you know the past, it catches up quick
so run away
cause you’re slowly running out of time

i don’t wanna feel this way
i don’t feel your love
imma pop another bean
comatose when im drunk
two weeks, two months,
another pill, another blunt
i got smoke in my lungs
tryna hit my phone
say what’s up

(@miserygxrden collective <3)

[brecken]

but i wont tell you anything its over
U rip me apart made me go sober
made me think that if i did it id grow closer

and now you wont be there when i get older
yea we been running out of time
you jus take my hand and well go across the street
Baby there’s no plan theres no time we gotta meet
i wanted it all to work out
i gave you everything but you just shout
got such a loud mouth

[koba]

i don’t wanna do this all over again
cause it feels like i’ve been here a thousand times
and you know the past, it catches up quick
so run away
cause you’re slowly running out of time

i don’t wanna feel this way
i don’t feel your love
imma pop another bean
comatose when im drunk
two weeks, two months,
another pill, another blunt
i got smoke in my lungs
tryna hit my phone
say what’s up

i got too much love in my heart for you
cant you see im trying to kill you?
i’m just tryna do it slowly
hold my hand in matrimony

running outta time w/ brecken

prod. by: @yagirlbunny
w/: @theraevyn

lyrics:

[koba]

lately ive been spending
all my time inside my room
hit my phone up
baby whatchu wanna do
i know that you’re scared
imma be there real soon
im gonna make it right
staring up at the moon

highschool got me feeling
like a reject
say you care
but you’ve never even seen it
pop a pill
classroom straight fiendin
look around,
they aint never gonna see me

could you ever forgive me?
for all the sins ive done?
cause my heart bleeding
out a hole that you cut

[Raevyn]

Passed out in the back of a benz truck (benz truck)
i dont even give a fuck (give a fuck)
when i wake up
Imma do another line girl
Do another line with me

i think i might die tonight (die tonight)
think im gonna suicide (suicide)
baby, stay by my side (by my side)
Everythings gonna be fine

[koba]

if i call you mine
and i take your life
take your hand in mine
can i free myself?
cause i know you’re right
and i know im wrong
tears leak from my eyes
while i sing this song

cause lately ive been spending
all my time inside my room
hit my phone up
baby whatchu wanna do
i know that you’re scared
imma be there real soon
im gonna make it right
staring up at the moon

highschool got me feeling
like a reject
say you care
but you’ve never even seen it
pop a pill
classroom straight fiendin
look around,
they aint never gonna see me

avenue w/ Raevyn

glaive cover cause i got bored :p

life is pain >.< 
serotonin in my brain :3 
i made a huge mistake >:0 
5G cell towers melt my faaaaaaace >:T

life is pain (prod. yungbunn)

prod by: @yagirlbunny

lyrics:

i don't even know who i really am
am i you or just a man?
i don't even feel safe in my own skin
i know some day i'll die cause

i'm all by myself
nobody answers my calls
damn, i think i need help
but i don't care about y'all
i'm worried about my health
it won't matter when i'm gone
never cared 'bout how i felt
rot in my room 'til the dawn

i do this shit cause i wanna
smoking on my marajuana
i know it's hard to remember
i left us back in the summer
i hold you higher than others
disregard all my intentions
i'm feeling perfect like @breckenford
unfortunate, but unspoken

is this what you thought it'd be?
fall in my arms, feel safe in my company
i'll hold your heart, i won't drop a thing
from the start, see the stars
see everything

i'm all by myself
nobody answers my calls
damn, i think i need help
but i don't care about y'all
i'm worried about my health
it won't matter when i'm gone
never cared 'bout how i felt
rot in my room 'til the dawn

i do this shit cause i wanna
smoking on my marajuana
i know it's hard to remember
i left us back in the summer
i hold you higher than others
disregard all my intentions
i'm feeling perfect like @breckenford
unfortunate, but unspoken

misery calls (prod. yung bunn)

prod. by: @yagirlbunny
shoutout : @theraevyn <3

lyrics:

what'chu know about it
you don't even make sense
roll another blunt
just so i could deal with it
there's something in my bud
but i'll smoke another spliff
laced with fentanyl
this gon' be my last hit

what's up
got bands, bitch, i want it all
die young
bump peep at my funeral
pour a cup
you gon' need it when i leave this world
leave you all behind
except my boys
we with the reaper

(@theraevyn)

i remember after the fall
i don't see you here
i don't see you at all
i miss you, my dear
my knife cuts through it all
blood leaking onto the floor
my body drop and i'm cold

x2

when you forget my face
i'll be in heaven at the gates
on the other side where the angels sing
i hope you come back to me

before i go (prod. yungbunn)

miserygarden collective
“🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈” safe space <3
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