A song I wrote to Nujabes "Luv Sic Pt. 6 (Grand Finale)".

Lyrics:
When she up and left, it left me upset

But I digress, I had a lot time to digest

In retrospect, why was I depressed

Cause in the end its for the best, and yet

I can't shake feelings of regret

Like, "Oh you got a new dude", well that's cool, you can just do you

But don't get it confused, this ain't no boo hoo

Got a glimpse of the real you, now I'm only trying see you in my rear view 

Sorry, know you're sad on the inside, and no lie 

I would cry when thoughts of us cross my mind 

But I've decided to leave them behind

Left it beside my pride cause I don't even mind that you with another guy

But imagine, just how I felt, when you said that "there's no one else"

But don't apologize, think you need help, cause now you stuck with yourself

A girl compelled to dwell on problems like she just turned twelve

Used praise my angel, lay her like a table, get playful and kiss up on her navel

It's thoughts like that that are painful, but I gotta keep it together just like a staple

And remain faithful, I'm not hateful, I'm grateful 

And if I fall from grace, I'm still graceful

Other dudes get plenty poon, but she was my first and I was twenty-two

Is that funny to you? Am I naive? How I wear my heart on my sleeve

And breathe deep, I try to find inner peace

Please, just relieve all this grief with blurry eyes I can't even see

And I'm not even me, they say I'm stuck in disbelief, I don't disagree

Cause I wonder if she's missing me and I resent that, I try to prevent that

They think I'm playing it cool, but I'm bugging

Like a dummy, thinking if she ever loved me

And when she hears this will she find it funny

Or take it to heart and feel crumby

But I should mention, that is not my intention

Because I'm genuinely sorry, don't get it twisted, feel like you need assistance

Or maybe a hitch cause it seems like you drifting 

And I think its fucked up how you living

And I wish this coulda been different

But...




Let me give it to you straight

I can't look you in your eyes without feeling betrayed

Or thinking I was played like a game

And it's a shame, things will never be the same

When I had the notion, I could open my chest

Hand you my heart, you would hold it and treat like a token 

Didn't think you would leave it broken if I remained devoted

If you noticed, I was moping it's cause I thought I had no hope of coping

But fuck emotions, how you like me now? I'm a poet

And I show it every time I'm flowing

And I rather get cancer then have put up with your lack of manners 

Even though I wish we were back in Montana

But god damnit, gotta be strong, even though it feels wrong gotta move on

But you act friendly, are you trying tempt me or just let me down gently

Maybe you know I keep laundry on my bed cause it feels empty 

And that's the issue, I'm just pissed that I miss you

And you can you have leeway, but remember me holding you crying in the breezeway

Saying "please dont leave me"

Can you feel it? All this honesty in my lyrics

What the deal is so just listen and you'll hear it

Used to wreck it, talkin' sex after breakfast

On her neck like a necklace

Couldn't question, our connection, it seemed like a nexus

But guess I'm just jealous while I'm waiting on my next bitch 

She'll be a starlet, smokes Bob Marley, looks like Scarlet

Got her picture in a locket, with a lock of hair, keep it in my pocket

In the pair of pants in the bottom box of my closet

Believe that, cause I know you can't see that

But all my shit you can keep that, I don't need that

And I don't need feedback




I confess I imagined us growing old together

Now there's no chance for romance 

Or for us to hold hands

I think it's funny at one point, I was all like "PLEASE, DON'T LEAVE"

Now I see you were never meant for me

So don't send for me and don't message me

No snapchats, no flexin', don't text me 

Baby, don't test me...


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