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I feel the thoughts rushing
Is there another way?
I feel like I'm not trying enough
Waiting for another day

They wont let me go tonight
Trying to find my way in the dark

And suddenly there's a door (again)
Should I stay or should I go?
And suddenly theres a war (inside my head)
Do I have to make a choice?

I see myself dancing
With the night and pretty lies
I see faded, shallow faces
Inside there's noone left

And suddenly I feel the sun on my face
And I rise from the ground where I've been hiding myself
And suddenly there's a fire burning
Then I rise from the pieces I've been hiding from myself

Fading memories
Let go of the past
Distant enemies
Invading myself

Ready to end it all
So that I can move on
Instead of running
Im standing on my own

Ready to end it all
So that I can move on
Instead of running
Im standing alone

Rise

Rise (feat. Azuma)

Someday

BeaT ThE BeaT

Credit: Petra Acker for the amazing voice.

I'll be gone

I know you’re hurting somewhere out there
Are you lonely?
Like me
The distance came out of nowhere
Drowning slowly
Forgot how to breathe
Never thought we’d grow apart
You’d never break my stupid heart
You took it all from me
Looked so different at the start
But now i’m searching in the dark
For what we used to be

In my head i still remember it all, oh 
Lost again, catch me don’t let me fall, no

Just hold me like you do
Just hold me like you do, oh
Hold me like you do
Just hold me like you do, like you used to
Hold me like you do 

I stay awake to find the reasons
Is there someone else
On the scene
Cause now i’m empty and uneven
Still alive
But incomplete
Never thought we’d grow apart
You’d never break my stupid heart
You took it all from me
Looked so different at the start
But now i’m searching in the dark
For what we used to be

In my head i still remember it all, oh
Lost again, catch me don’t let me fall, no

Just hold me like you do 
Just hold  me like you do, oh 
Hold me like you do 
Just hold me like you do, like you used to 
Hold me like you do

Just hold me like you do 
Just hold  me like you do, oh 
Hold me like you do 
Just hold me like you do, like you used to 
Hold me like you do

Hold Me

We knew the world would not be the same
A few people laughed, a few people cried, most people were silent
I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad-Gita 
Vishnu is trying to persuade the prince that he should do his duty 
And to impress him takes on his multi-armed form and says
“Now, I am become death, the destroyer of worlds.”
I suppose we all thought that one way or another

Oppenheimer

I walk away, I walk away, I walk away with empty hands
Oh don't you say, Oh don't you say, please don't you say, it's not that bad

I know I need to stop with all the grief and all this sorrow
Drowning my pain with liquor bottles, bury them like fossils
Waking up feeling awful, my life is in a spiral
I know it's hard to swallow, but my heart is going hallow, so
Look at me, look at me, what a waste
I walked away, I just can't battle bullshit face to face
I think is safe to say, that I might need little aid
To help me break out of this cage and escape
My mental health is real, but most my friends fake
I'm angry at the world, and always need a thing to blame
I lost both of my parents, that was at an early age
You see the mess that I became, I'm better off inside a grave, ok.
Yea I'm a bit under the weather
And there's nothing you can say to make it better
Not a single word, number or letter, I'm mad forever
We didn't even last together, that's tough like leather
And yet, I open up my eyes like
Why am I still alive when all I wish for is to die?
I want it all to end, fuck her, fuck him, fuck love and friends
I won't pretend, bitch I'm not content
Man I'm so anti-social, I can't even have thoughts, I live in a box
Just hope to end my sentence like a dot
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
Of not getting inspired, and then the universe keep changing the plot I am fucking hot yeah

I walk away, I walk away, I walk away with empty hands
Oh don't you say, Oh don't you say, please don't you say, it's not that bad
I guess you'll never understand, what I preach and truly am
Sometimes you got a vision but God got another plan
My back against the wall
My life is all a flaw
But I'll sacrifice it all just to be back with the FAM
To hear my momma laugh, maybe hold my daddy hand
God damn he sad, yes I am, this how rock bottom look
Got it? Good, got to do it, I'm so misunderstood

Monsters in my closet none as pretty as James Sullivan
I don't know what I'm up against, but God o my I'm struggling
I'm fighting with a demon and it's ugly
Bitch this ain't McDonalds, how the fuck am supposed to love this shit? I'm fucking sick
I need help yes I admit it, but I'm kind of iffy
Cuz once I start to open up, they going to say I'm tripping
But I promise you that I'm different than what I exhibit
And it's better off if we dismiss it, leave me broken
Hopeless, oh it's so atrocious 
Everybody tell me you just need to focus
Like they really fucking care about my diagnosis
I come to notice it's all bogus, everybody on that hoe shit
I walk away, I walk away, I walk away with empty hands
Oh don't you say, Oh don't you say, please don't you say, it's not that bad
I guess you'll never understand, what I preach and truly am
Sometimes you got a vision but God got another plan
My back against the wall
My life is all a flaw
But I'll sacrifice it all just to be back with the FAM
To hear my momma laugh, maybe hold my daddy hand
God damn he sad, yes I am, this how rock bottom look
Got it? Good, got to do it, I'm so misunderstood

Misunderstood

Lyrics

Dreaming

You’re on my mind again
I start to wonder to myself if this will ever end.
Cause I’ve been losing to the demons
That I’ve always known
They take the part that hurts the most
And then I lose control
I lose control
Then the night it comes around, I can’t escape the thought of you
And the feeling of your body on my hands I hold onto
I close my eyes and picture a world with us both two
I can’t go back to you
No

I’ll keep on dreaming
Ya I’ll keep on, I'll keep on dreaming of you
I’ll keep on dreaming
Ya I'll keep on dreaming of you

Maybe there’s a way
To send us back in time when we had better days
We ended way too quick I never had the chance to say
No one makes me feel this way
Makes me feel this way
Then the night it comes around, I can’t escape the thought of you
And the feeling of your body on my hands I hold onto
I close my eyes and picture a world with us both two
I can’t go back to you
No

I’ll keep on dreaming
Ya I’ll keep on, I'll keep on dreaming of you
I’ll keep on dreaming
I'll keep on dreaming of you

I’ll keep on dreaming
Ya I’ll keep on, I'll keep on dreaming of you
I’ll keep on dreaming
Ya I'll keep on dreaming of you

I'll keep on dreaming
I'll keep on dreaming

Dreaming

Exosphere

We all have our free will
But we alway tends to kill

Cause, we are human  
We are human
We are human
We are human

We are trying to get cash
Hides them in secret stash

Cause we are human
We are human
We are human
We are human

No one can tell who you should be
This is our future, not just a story

No one can tell who you should be
This is our future, not just a story

Cause, we are human  
We are human
We are human
We are human

We have a knack for choosing
The things there are most worst for us

We always long for more power
Climbing up the highest tower

We are human
We are human
We are human
We are human

We all have our free will
But we alway tends to kill

We all have our free will
But we alway tends to kill

We are human
We are human
We are human
We are human

Human

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