p. @blurxy

https://open.spotify.com/album/19HHGaAHNEIVt9P7xqWuEL?si=fwftpZ-GRUavti1VkzCO1w

all these memories they fade, oh everyday i just wait
yet id rather be dead than live another instead
thought i found myself cause he brought life in my lungs
now ur smoking away, but all this pain it still stays 
fucked up? i fucked up, yeah i just poured out my love
detach, i still latch
oh where’d you go with my heart?
(but u always told me and said that u will  stay
now it just hurts to know, without me ur still ok)

wish i could find your old love letter (og)

this is the same beat from the bingo bingo baby shit shout out lucy
my favorite number is 268

@imsg
im such a fuck baby im a fuck up baby im a fuck up
perfect girl, better than the world.
i would hurl, ...
i think i like you but were nothing alike 
sleeping together til the middle of nights
why do we argue whats the point of a fight?
i wish you were honest you would say ur alright
i cant feel, too high nothings real
like whats your deal? my heart what you steal
i needa heal, so much layers peeled

@aeter
think i... like you... dont know :/
sometimes... i wanna gooooo
away from you u still say
u hate me, try 2 replace me
i think i like you

@kidmoon
the way you go, i cant go without you again
i feel at home when im in your arms dont want this to end
come and say it to me, come and say it to my face
cause baby i really like you but i dont even know your name

spotify

i like you w aeter * kid moon

my legs are giving out
what’s left is nothing now
i still pretend my clothes smell like you
can’t help what’s not around
i know i’d let you down
i wish you didn’t feel the same too
and she wont respond to anything
and she wont come back to you
i’ve tried oh trust i have
i gave myself the task
if not with me then shes for who

if i had anything left to offer u know it'd be yours

spiraling, back again
into the loop, that self sustains
to fix my body, 
i must fix my head
but to fix my mind
i must fix my spine
how do i arrange my feelings
in this story full of lies
what hurts is not one thing
its the weight of everything
i cannot control
i can’t control the vast majority of my surroundings,
but i can control how i react to the things around me
everything me, what do i see, what does it mean to me
im like if you got a bipolar person and sped up the rate of their episodes by like 10x speed,
i keep wondering to my self is there something wrong with me, 
how much longer do i have, whats really left for me
no matter how hard i try nothing really adds up, 
no one can really get to the bottom of all of this stuff
lookin at the way things are, was it really made for us
how on earth did we all manage to fuck everything up
what hurts is not the pain
its the fact that i felt so good just a moment ago
what went wrong
how did i manage to mess it all up
like i always do
what have i done to myself

what hurts is not one thing, it's the weight of every thing

ik u think u had enough
dont wanna run out of love
im runnin out of my luck girl

everyday i imagine a future where i can be with u
in my hand is a pen that will right a poem of me n u
ohh hey

im so lost in my head
uon love me dont fake it
ik u ik it
ik i can make me worth it

im lowk feelin like sayori ah rn

AUGHG GHG FUCKCKEEE
EEEEEEEEprod me
@yuliaband

horrible yulia demo i fucking hate this song dude i cant make music literally end me

@menthol100s

the wind makes me want to jump
i will show you the view if you promise to
remember everything we did wrong
told you its done
found you hanging off the branch
nothing came 1st nothing came after
you were the one that cared
the most 
but ill make you choke
no one better to trust
apart from yourself
we could be one
throw away your lunch
dont make the mistake
you have got no one else to lose
apart from your self
no one cares enough about it
dont make the mistake

theres time to kill
your eyes were so peeled
yet nothing felt real
you did what you could
but how could he do it
my idiot friend
who thought forever was a girl
you kept your sadness shouldve kept your glasses
maybe then youd see that youd amount to more than ashes
im too pessimistic talking is traumatic
at least he has the memory of you

hanging off a branch with skeleton

i been wonderin i been wonderin
is u done wimme is u done wimme
u had ya fun wimme no way

oh baby no girl im at a loss
why u think im dumb like im js not smart
i js want ur love and ur doin me wrong
i miss when u said those things on ur own

i been wonderin i been wonderin
is u done wimme is u done wimme
u had ya fun wimme
oh girl u had ya fun wimme

oh naw
been missin u all night long
baby js come on home
fck bout the distance
oou girl

losing streak

MINIBONSAI - SAMANBAIA

This song was sparked by a childhood memory. A memory from so long ago, that it’s brittle, fragmented. My dad took me out exploring in the woods and fields one day when I was maybe five or six. We ended up following a sandy track, spotting various animals and plants as we walked. From this memory the lyrics sprung and the song evolved.

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Howling - Orchid Mix

Upbeat instrumental piece influenced by the late great Brian Wilson's work on Pet Sounds

wish i could find your old love letter (og)

kuja