“im trying to be better now” i really am

Alright update got a new girl for about 2 months then she said “need to work on myself” fucking gg am i right

feel the coldness in the ground. face down in the dirt

MrDenisoyd - COCAINE (prod. sadface)

Producer: https://www.instagram.com/disbl1nd/


Lyrics:


Each step I take I feel the Interference
As time is passing I see all the people disappearing
You know what the issue is but you're never going near it
Spent my entire life but I still can't find a cure.

This is where it all ends,
Caught between a tall fence
In the midst of violence and silence I guess it just all depends

had to just find the occasion again,
There was no use for erasing the past
Let it go through there's no taking it back

I let myself fade into black.


MOTHERFUCKER DON'T YOU EVER ATTEMPT ME
TURNED TO THE DEVIL WHEN EVERYONE LEFT ME

NOBODY GETS ME
GIVE IT A REST ALREADY

END EVERYBODY NO MATTER HOW MANY

YOU CALL ME A VILLAIN, BUT AM I?
IT'S EASY TO SEE WHO'S THE BAD GUY

 HOPE THAT YOU DIE IN THE PLACE YOU RESIDE
CHAOS IN SILENCE, COMMIT TO VIOLENCE.

YES, NOW I FEEL A LITTLE TENSE
DEMONS ONLY GET ASCENSION
TWISTED WITH EVERYTHING
FUCK YOUR PERCEPTION

SHOW YOU MY HATRED
NOT MY AFFECTION

I MOVE ALONG WITH THE COFFIN
HEAR THE NOISE OF THE TALKING
STEP ASIDE THEY'RE WATCHING
HOWS IT FEEL TO BE STARVING?




I'm out of ideas, blanket expression
Head is a mess, I cant pay attention

Are you talking to me or are you talking to them?
Neither? Just leave us a message

Every negative ideas feeding the vessel
Leaving my body i feel the distress

If only you feel what I feel in my chest, it's as real as it gets
I need to get checked up just from my neck up so they can see what's inside of my head

I feel like I'm dead it's been too many times that I've said it
It's coming to greet me if it wants to eat me I'll let it


my childhood is gone
I'm living life wrong
I can't see tomorrow
now i feel the starving


MY HEAD IS FULL, IT'S ALL PARASITES
THINK ABOUT IT ALMOST ALL THE TIME
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
I SEE NO SURPRISE

GETTING CLOSER TO MY OWN DEMISE


THERE IS NOTHING THAT WILL LAST FOREVER
I ALWAYS TRY TO PUT IT BACK TOGETHER
BUT I KNOW I CAN'T
ALWAYS HOLDING BACK


EVERY EMOTION, MY WOUNDS ARE ALL OPEN.

I WANNA FEEL, WHAT IS REAL
LET MY HEART, JUST HEAL

I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST, I'M LIFELESS

THINKING OF HOW, I CAN GET OUT THIS CRISIS?

NOW MY HEADS IN THE CLOUDS, CANT COME BACK DOWN
FEELING THE CHANGE OF CLIMATE

THROWING THE DICE, I CAN'T DO THIS TWICE
NOW ALL I CAN HEAR IS SILENCE.

Paranoid Love and Demons (prod. DISBL1ND)

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

Release Date 9 Février 2015

Mr.Vandal
Information Soon 🧐

Mr.Vandal - Make Your Own Path

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ke84PZSt6_c




Shout out to everyone involved my lazy ass took forever
https://soundcloud.com/kamaara
https://soundcloud.com/rottingroots
https://soundcloud.com/jonlemonsucks
https://soundcloud.com/trashgawd
https://soundcloud.com/renob
https://soundcloud.com/endoindigo
https://soundcloud.com/freshtwofresh

DEAD LIKE THE REST FEAT. KAMAARA AND JON LEMON PROD. INDIGOENDO

R.I.P

PROD. DVRKLXGHT
https://soundcloud.com/dvrklxght

LEGENDS NEVER DIE//SAVE ME (PROD. DVRKLXGHT)

Cheers to my mans 
https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey

Lyrics:

Rivilin
--
there’s something creeping down my bones
I think it’s you cus you’re the only who makes this your home
I don’t wanna know where you are
your drowning at my thoughts, but I think that I know I’m alone

I know I’m something that you discard
just like my father I was never fucking worth it in the end
my skins peeling off my fingertips
I think I’ve had I enough, I know that you wish I was dead
 
twinkle little star
how could I ever reach this far
wont you cut me up
break me down and say I’m all yours

manic depressed in the brain I’m fucked anyway can’t live a day without thinking I’m insane
these walls are breathing all again I see these faces laugh in the end
at me and I think it’s all pretend but deep down they know there alive inside me
breathing, changing, morphing me into something I hate

I can’t take it anymore man I wanna say that I’m ok but I’m not
I’m breaking down on the daily, shaking everyday I feel like I’ve lost
its ok, its ok, I never mattered anyway, just a fucked up in high school
lost where I wanted to be, lost what I wanted to see cause of you

family petitions to get admission into mental hospitals I hate
cause they don’t wanna see me anymore they can’t deal with this manic state
waking up in my bed alone, waking up all again its shown
that I have no faith in you, I don’t have faith in my own soul

where I do go in this journey, where do I turn when the path just always ends
with you and me facing each other turning pages I can’t mend
all these scars there shown deep down in my skin
I feel like, I’ve lost again

SEPHA.
--

Another 9 to the 5 
Another break to the bottle 
Break my pride and throttled
From the dust
Of the drab 

I’m Living for someone else
Im living someone else’s struggle 
Head gains weight and strains 
I’ll take a flight 
From my brain
Medicate - Play ur game

Well
Talk buys time in murder
Escape u then I’ll serve ya
Night sky beats like a war drum
It beats my ears 
In demon hums 
It treats my deer
To forest scum 
Consumed by willing forces
Participate In Clauses 

alarm beats 20 times
Out of speak out of rhyme 
Wake up 
Get to fuck
Another day 
Another grind X2
Fuck.

Bad taste (Ft. SEPHA.)

☆ with @slothboipapi
☆ artwork by Aidan Netley - instagram.com/aidannetley
☆ produced and mixed by me. 

☆ lyrics:

Video<3

☆ Lie To Me w/ $LOTHBOI ☆

only feet apart (prod. kiraw)

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/sethbest-sb
Lyrics & Vocals: https://soundcloud.com/yamissin & https://soundcloud.com/sshvdow
Mixing & Mastering: hyu
Sample by: https://soundcloud.com/yamissin


the thoughts in your mind
the feeling of death
it's coming and closing

the knife in your back
i'll severe your head
cause you are not chosen

don't think that i'm forced
I do what I want
you'll end in that moment

I feel like i'm dead
I just want my bed
I think I am broken


All night
fuck life
feel like i'm dead in the night time

shot in the head
but i'm alright

saw as he bled in the sunlight
god wants him dead from the spotlight
he'll write his song in the midnight
he did it all for the limelight
uh
he did it all for the limelight


I sold my soul to feel alright
i'm so alone

I sold my soul for the limelight
I can't let go


TELL ME
WHY I FUCKING HATE IT IN THE NIGHT TIME
I JUST WANNA FEEL GOOD SO I'M ALRIGHT


your falling
i'm falling
and i'm toxic
no loving
i'm loving
yet no crying
i'm crying

[SSHVDOW]

Slen - Sleepseason (feat. Idstayawaytoo)

Kuragari

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