Artwork by: TheDinkMaster 
Written by: Kurama SD, AkiraDoves, JoshIguess, l y p i, Kezadadarkbringer & JustANPC
Produced by: Nevrfall, Rizi, Fantom, afterlife, Idealism, spalshgvng, emptychest, irby, Boyfifty, Kndey, Starbeats, AMPROD, Riddickxbeats,& Eric Godlow
Mixed & Mastered by: AkiraDoves, JoshIguess, Darth Rose, & TheDinkMaster

This is My 1st Official Album/actually mixed and mastered album set to release Early 2022

It has had so many setbacks from my laziness, to personal issues, and losing Motivation

I described this album as “A journey from a broken self hating kid to a self confident focused man” but I feel like it’s more of an album about
“Becoming an adult and learning about what it means to be one and learning that you have to be yourself and learn to accept you will lose people on that journey but You will be fine take the time to become better as a person you will make it just stay strong and don’t give up”

For The Better

Written by: Kurama SD 
Chorus lyrics by: 9tails
Prod by: Idealism 
Mixed by: Darth Rose 
Mastered by: Bandlab
Artwork from: sword art online

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
December Christmas party 
Last year dont get me started 
New year was so inviting 
Compred to the one before it 
2x

[Verse]
Its been years since I felt connected to family 
Nobody agrees with the person I want to be
Flaunt it all but you'll never escape your wrong deeds 
Plenty offered me weed 
But I would never concede 
Cause I never wanted it to change me
I was never a big spender 
Was always the type to stay inside with a sweater 
Always liked the cold weather 
Gave me a reason to get better 
Even though it never lasted forever
Losing all self composer 
All my monsters are getting closer 
I'll never get closure 
Don't know if this is nature or nurture
On the keyboard with the cursor 
Feeling cold on these late December nights 
Tryna get everything right 
Even in the dark of night there's always light 

[Pre-Chorus]
There's always light 
Always light
Just know there's always light 

[Chorus]
December Christmas party 
Last year dont get me started 
New year was so inviting 
Compred to the one before it

[Outro] 
It really was but 
Now it's faded away I guess

December (prod. idealism) [9TAILS - Christmas Party Remix]

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Afterlife 
Mixed by: JoshIguess 
Mastered by: JoshIguess 
Artwork by: Archibald White 

[Intro: Sample from Tokyo Ghoul]
Rize:
Learn the lesson that your mother couldn't seem to grasp
That sometimes to protect one thing you have to have the resolve to let go of another 
But you are not weak like she was You have the power to break this chain of grief 

Kaneki:
Anyone who tries to take them from me will get no mercy 

Rize: 
But what if your decision ends up being the wrong one in the end 

kaneki:
That won't happen because I'm not wrong what's wrong is this messed up world 

[Chorus]
Break me 
Take me 
Tell me that you hate me
(repeats 4 times)

[Verse]
Losing my grip as you come near 
Try to overcome my fear
But it’s always near
I see the glare of your scope 
I’ll pay a ticket to the fair just tryna cope 
Losing hope 
Ain’t no smoking no dope 
Thinking of my choices 
Hearing all these voices 
From this hell 
Cast me away ain’t no spell

[Verse]
Losing my grip as you come near 
Try to overcome my fear
But it’s always near
I see the glare of your scope 
I’ll pay a ticket to the fair just tryna cope 
Losing hope 
Ain’t no smoking no dope 
Thinking of my choices 
Hearing all these voices 
From this hell 

[Chorus]
Break me 
Take me 
Tell me that you hate me
I’m so sorry 
Woke up feeling groggy 
You don’t know me
(repeats 3 times)

[Post-Chorus]
You don't know me
You don't know me
You don't know me do you?

[Outro]
My life feels like a game
Now it's fallen into your hands
I don't know what to do with it
But you control me 
I'm so sorry
But I hate it too
Hate it too

Tell Me That You Hate Me (Prod. afterlife)

Featuring: @akiradoves
Written by: Kurama SD & AkiraDoves
Produced by: Fantom 
Mixed & Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork by: TheDinkMaster

Lyrics:
[Intro: Kurama SD]
Why do I think like this
Crying about having no bliss
Sighing after every miss
Finding the pieces but they never fit
Seeing the damage we never fixed
Asking myself the same shit
What the fuck is wrong with me?

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Everytime I think of the things I do
I realize how much I hurt you
I don’t deserve you
I just want to stick like glue
But my plans never fall through 
I'ma call you
why people gotta doubt you
 
[Chorus: Kurama SD & AkiraDoves] 
Why do I think like this
(Why do I think like this)
Crying about having no bliss
(No bliss)
Sighing after every miss
(Miss)
Finding the pieces but they never fit
(Fit)
Seeing the damage we never fixed
Asking myself the same shit
What the fuck is wrong with me?

[Verse 2: AkiraDoves]
What the fuck is wrong with me
You did this oh I can't believe 
Everyday feels just the same 
Walk around
Crying on my on my bed does it matter
Hitting on my phone what's your after 
No way  to call me 
No one calls me cause I'm lonely 
Said what I said 
Enough what I said 
You tell me to my face 
Why you despise me 
Losing time 
oh oh why 

[Chorus: AkiraDoves]
Why do I think like this 
Having no bliss 
It can't be fixed 
Why do I think like this 
Having no bliss 
I can't be fixed

[Post-Chorus: AkiraDoves]
Why do you think all the time 
Spend time with me 
We're losing time time

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Why do I think like this
Crying about having no bliss
Sighing after every miss
Finding the pieces but they never fit
Seeing the damage we never fixed
Asking myself the same shit
What the fuck is wrong with me?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

Whats Wrong With Me w/ AkiraDoves (Prod. Fantom)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Rizi
Mixed & Mastered by: AkiraDoves 
Artwork by: Me

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Losing all my sanity
Because no one could’ve handled me

[Verse 1]
I never saw the light and that why I could never fly
I think I aimed to high
Why did I even try to scream
My voice never seems to reach anyone
I can’t have any fun when I’m not sane
But, I’m the one to blame

[Chorus]
I’m the one to blame
I’m the One To Blame
I’M THE ONE TO BLAME

[Verse 2]
Did you even see what we could be
I’ve never felt free
I’m not about to fall to my knees
Cause you never needed me
You tried to plead with me
But, the other side is all that I could see
So don’t even bother
You were just another robber
That I place in that roster
No matter what it cost ya
All the sadness that you could foster
And I’m still the one to blame

[Chorus]
I’m the one to blame
I’m the One To Blame
I’M THE ONE TO BLAME

[Verse 3]
I’m sorry but, I’m leaving
You behind
Because I’m done receiving
All this damage
It has left me bleeding
I don’t want to shout
So all I can say is bye to you cause I’m out
Hope you have a good life
But, I’m done so bye

The One To Blame (Prod. Rizi)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Afterlife 
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: TheDinkMaster

Lyrics:
[Intro]
You know I cared about you
Would always say it to you
Now that your gone don’t know what to do
What to do 

[Verse 1] 
Give me a sign 
To say I’m fine 
Give me life 
I’ll never get it right 
Just give me something 
That makes me feel alive 
it’s so easy to cry
So easy to cry

[Pre-Chorus]
Wish you gave me a reason
Why you left
Cause I feel so lost 
Now that you're gone 
Now that you're gone 
Now that you're gone
Wish you gave me a reason
Why you left
Cause I feel so lost 
Now that your gone 
Now that you’re gone
I feel so lost (lost)

[Chorus]
Give me a reason 
To live this life 
Give me a reason  
To survive 
Give me a reason 
To live my best life   
x2

[Verse 2]
Feels like a ship wreck  
keeping emotions in check 
They might notice it
The world slowly turns to grey 
I slowly fade away
Losing faith 
Fade away
Losing faith
Faith 

[Chorus]
Give me a reason
Give me a reason 
To live this life 
Give me a reason
Give me a reason
To survive 
Give me a reason
Give me a reason 
To live my best life
Give me a reason
Give me a reason
Give me a reason

[Bridge]
The reasons are unknown 
Wish I could call home 
Cause I’m all alone
The reasons are unknown 
Wish I could call home 
Cause I’m all alone
All alone without you here
Without you here

[Chorus]
the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad
X2

[Outro]
I’m sorry If you hate me 
I worry that everybody hates me
But I got to find a way to be happy eventually 
One dayI’ll be happy
But for now I’m not without you
Without you

Give Me A Reason (Prod. afterlife)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Nevrfall
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: TheDinkmaster 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
No one holds hope
cause the future is static
I had heard love is like magic
But love couldn't fix
Something like it's so tragic

[Chorus]
Everytime you see yourself you frown
You never come around
It’s sad cause you never make a sound
I know you wanna break down
I know you wanna break down
I know you wanna break down
Every time you frown

[Verse 1]
Saw the puddle on the ground
All this rain got me feelin down
I don’t care if they come around
Cause I found that Life is like a puddle
Here today and gone tomorrow
Here today and gone tomorrow
It's all like a puddle

[Chorus: Anti SD]
When you see yourself you frown
You never come around
you never make a sound
you wanna break down
you never make a sound
you wanna break down
you wanna break down

[Verse 2]
The way you try to convince yourself
You realize you need help
These are the cards you’re dealt
All these emotions that you’ve felt
Say you need me there
I got's you
Let me know if you need me
I’m here and that’s true

Breaking Down (Prod. Nevrfall)

(prod. mackk)

i tried to focus on myself
left my troubles in the past
place and leave to dust on my shelf
is it onesided is ur love real now
took you to the side said im falling down

and i couldnt cope
knew you wouldnt know 
is it all my fault </3
left you alone
knew you wouldnt call
the worst thing about this
is i was vulnerable 
so vulnerable
i gave you my all
split me in two
when i need u  most
gave you the space u need
couldnt call 
then got the text
that u werent coming home :(
you will never find another like me
i really wasted my time on all the wrong things
and i just knew i lost myself when i fell in
wasnt for you, guess you werent then 

but i tried to focus on myself
left my troubles in the past
place and leave to dust on my shelf
is it onesided is ur love real now
took you to the side said im falling down

i tried to focus on myself
left my troubles in the past
place and leave to dust on my shelf
is it onesided is ur love real now
took you to the side said im falling down

i tried to focus on myself (mackk)

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3
now im smoking out the window
oh you dont like me well ig ill let ur bitch know
i can see right through your lies just like i got a crystal
how am i meant to live like this the love is superficial

i swear im not meant to feel like this
baby they arent really real like this
would've gave you everything you wanted now my heads a mess
break me down just like ur rolling up the cannabis
x2
i swear you cant even rock like this or follow this
i swear give me couple years n they will all be tryna talk like this
even if you try just know that you could never copy this
did it by myself i swear theres nobody thats topping this

did it by myself i swear theres nobody thats topping this x4

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3

now i switch it up
flow be coming vigorous
he rlly think im scared bc i know he keep a flicky tucked?
he aint gon fuck with us
if i say it then i do it
he a snake i shouldve knew it
(yeah, woah)
had ur chance n then u blew it

had ur chance n then u blew it x4

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3

i swear (jolst, death classic, irby, speed)

i survived another night in tears and blood
say your piece before im lost and found

ive been missing every single part of you
drinking all the time what can i do
i dont want this to be true
i just wish you knew

im feeling down
all the nightmares stick around
not doing well wont make a sound
im not the bad one you set the bound

now im doing all i can but its not enough
2 shots in the head im so sick of love
maybe one day ill be gone
im so sorry let me go

(ive been missing every single part of you
drinking all the time what can i do
i dont want this to be true
i just wish you knew)

let go (pico)

Take your time 
Time
While you run ur blade down my spine 
Spine 

February to march 
You took a blade and ran it down my heart 
It’s getting scary 
In ur arms 
I don’t care 
Rip me apart 


Take your time
While you try to save my life 

Never met a bitch like you 
Spent lean on brand new shoes 
Kush green like fresh bamboo
Downtown Utica I’m rude 
Bad little bitch when I pour up 
Never really know what’s important 
Bad bitch sucks dick in the forgein
Been sick since 14, can’t grow up 

Baby said “why you cold”
Wipe blow off ur nose
White hoe got good throat 
Still feel mad alone 

Stomach pains got me throwing up 
Just take your time I’ll pour up
Just take your time I’ll roll up
I’ll feel it in the morning

2002 (Prod.antisxcial)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised

baby don't leave
you own me 
you own me

i keep seeing shapes in the corner of my room now
i don't feel okay, im not a bitch so i won't back down
girl we're young
girl we're young
yeah i know 
but im fucked
in the head
my vision slowed
when i walk in, no one ever fucking knows
day n night
everynight 
im dying slow
i don't mind
smoke a blunt
watch me choke 
alright,rewind
i need you home
blue eyes
my arms
tight rope

bitch im never going back
i can't even smoke a pack
anxiety fucks my head
keep thinking i'll have a heart attack

i can't even drink so im dying with no comfort 
she don't wanna link so im dying in my converse 
pick me up, let me in, take me home
i hate this view i call my own

baby don't leave
you own me
you own me
me me

i don't even know whats fucking real
i can't even tell whats fuckin real
shell of who i once was
im just a shell of who i once was
i won't sip it till i see the seal
i will pop that pill if it's real
i am just a shell of who i once was
i don't even know who i once was 


when will this feeling fucking end?
they don't even notice what i said
if you point the gun i won't run
if you point the gun i won't run
i don't even care anymore
i just throw up on the rug then i sleep on the floor so
bed sweats every night when i wake up 
im soaking in the sheets with my own blood

baby 
don't leave
you own me
you own me
me me

You own me :( (Prod.stillvanishing)

Connections v2 w/ HeyLee Manzeron (prod teddyboi)

produced by cxrter & twoyearoldbear

lyrics:
(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I’m not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

(BH MALICE)
Let myself down that cannot happen
What I’m going for it is not average
I've been going hard like a bad habit
When I fuck up I say DAGNABBIT!
Then I’m right back up in the saddle
I might’ve lost the fight but not the battle
I’m staring at stars and I’m trying to grab em
If we got beef I’ll grind it and bag it
I’ll shoot for the moon lets see what happens
I might be nervous but I’m acting savage

(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I'm not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

(JUT)
Yeah I’m locked up in a coffin in all black
Like some coffee
I hear voices in my head 
Yeah I’m haunted 
Why’d you leave me out for dead
With no warning
Why’d you go and do me like that bae
You know I stay with the pack bae
I just spent a couple racks
Put in work I make it back
Yeah I spend it on you I don’t care
All I want is to be your man
But you don't fucking need me
You’re the reason my hearts bleeding yeah yeah

(treez)
I got blood on my cold hands
Baby you can tell me how you feel
See me counting up blue bands
Treat me as a ghost like I’m not real
I’m not acting like myself no more
I’ve been stuck inside my ways again
You can leave my body cold on the floor 
It’s getting ugly yeah my life’s a mess

not real (feat. BH MALICE) (cxrter x twoyearoldbear)

Lyrics:

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

Why not take me out
Have a little look into the sky
Give me little something to remind
Having me feel the way i should
Let’s sneak out into the cove
Little paradise, our treasure trove
I don’t wanna lose the way we are
I don’t wanna lose out who are are
When i look back 
I miss you so bad
The way the heart feels 
Don’t wanna lose that
When it rains down, 
I feel under weather
The way you walk away,
Never made me feel better
Feeling so lovelorn
I can’t take it
Feeling so torn up
I can’t feel it
Weaving these webs
That had me clinging
But even my heart
Can’t fix the mending

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

painful memories

painful memories [+ Cobalt]

right here!

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Give Me A Reason (Prod. afterlife)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)

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