Songs that use Idealism beats

Kurama's most emotional songs

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: emptychest 
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: TheDinkMaster

[Verse] 
Are you standing there? 
I wanna know if you still care 
I wish I still had them 
I feel fear 
Everytime they stare 
Lost and aware
Life was never fair 
Missing the point 
Losing the fight 
Feelings are useless 
This shit leaves me clueless 
I’m feeling betrayed 
Why not put me away 
I feel like a toy 
Please just destroy me 
Cause nothing makes any sense in my life 
Nothing in my life makes sense

[Chorus] 
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
Take away everything till 
I feel nothing 
Nothing makes sense
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
(Might meet my fate)

[Verse 2] 
I wanna beat myself till I bleed 
Maybe music all I need 
Or it’s an addiction I always feed 
If I give it my all I might succeed 
But nothing is guaranteed 
As people leave I plead for them to come back 
But they tossed me into a stampede 
Now I realize that I mislead me 
Cause my music addiction is the reason they leave me

[Chorus] 
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
Take away everything till 
I feel nothing

Nothing Makes Sense (Prod. emptychest)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess
Mastered by: AkiraDoves 
Beats Cuts: AkiraDoves 
Artwork from: Akame ga Kill
Lyrics:
[Verse]
Broken environments 
Fucked up and crying tears 
Why I wanna die
Can't find my own betterment 
This is just a sentiment 
I lose it 

Give me my divine creation 
I'm never the one hating 
All the love their faking 
Got me raging 
I was fading out 
Now I'm away in an early grave

[Bridge]
Losing track of my mind
(in an early grave)
Losing track of my time
I don't know why I'm on the grind still
Cause I'm losing my appeal 
To the people that I wanna be with

[Chorus]
I can't even find a grip
Of you still here
Wish I could be there for you
Even though I'm lost
I'm so lost
Without you here

[Outro]
With no one by your side 
You fall down and die
I'm sorry
But that's just how I feel 
Right now
Right now

Lost (Prod. Idealism)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork from: Clannad After Story(Anime)

[Verse]
Broken and alone 
Without no one to call home
Try to call my phone 
But I know you've lost hope
Holding back tears try not to choke
Fuck I can't even hit a note 
Feels like I fell off a boat
Now I'm Drowning in the sea 
I won't be okay if u leave 
Look In my eyes 
You'll see who I am inside 
The more I think about it
The more I begin to sink
I'm confused about everything 
Consumed with the fact I might lose you
If only u could see how much we need u
How much we need u

[Chorus]
Broken and alone 
(If only you could see)
(How much I fucking need you bro)
Without no one to call home
(how much I'm hurting, Knowing your considering it)
Try to call my phone 
But I know you've lost hope
(Take time but please don't end your life)
Holding back tears try not to choke
Fuck I can't even hit a note 
(I can't bare the thought of you not being here no more)
Fells like I fell off a boat
(I feel like a terrible friend)
Now I'm Drowning in the sea 
Look In my eyes 
I won't be okay if u leave
(I'm sorry) 

[Outro]
Holding back tears on a better day
I don't know what you need from me
I don't understand why I'm still here
Even if you leave I won't forget you

I Won't Be Okay, If You Leave (Prod. Idealism)

AMV link: https://youtu.be/7zqgsXxin-4
Featuring: @maesk337
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty & Pizzle
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & maesk 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: bungo stray dogs

Lyrics:
[Intro: Kurama SD]
It's such loneliness 
In this empty space 
I can't escape 
I'm sorry

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
You stabbed me in the eye
I think about your lies
Tell myself to let it go I sigh 
I just can't you should know this 
You didn't notice 
That I was lonely 
I was lonely 

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 2: maesk] 
just leave me 
i think i need a break 
would u miss me if the copper wasn’t misplaced
and i been thinking that i need my brain inspected 
absorbing all substances think its leaving me infected
wanna move out of this town, but i got no goals
so baby fill me up with something warm for my damn soul
uh, yeah coz this cycle taking its toll
yeah its lonely in these nights 
but even waking up feels so cold

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: maesk]
its such a lonely paradise 
its so dark at night
feeling like everything 
in my life is so fake 
I'm so anxious I'm so sorry 
its so lonely 
u don't know 
u said u didn't n st leave me 
just leave me

Lonely Paradise W/ maesk (Prod. Boyfifty & Pizzle)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Fruits Basket 2019 (Anime)

[Verse 1]
For once my life was going good 
But it all slipped through my fingers 
Never feel comfortable with myself
I wanna be somebody else
Always belt out emotion 
I still suffocate in the ocean 
Trapped in a body that needs a heal potion 
Losing my emotions

[Bridge]
Days fade so slowly 
Losing myself in the process 

[Verse 2]
Losing progress
Worrying about my health 
Wondering what you felt 
When u saw me 
Sitting at lunch lonely 
Feeling so phony 
This house never feels like home
One day I'll find comfort 
Ran through my mind 
Got myself into a bind 
Sometimes I just wish I could rewind

[Outro]
There's so much I have left to say
I don't wanna say it
Cause I'm scared to
Scared to let's u into my mind
I'm Scared to tell u how I really feel
So bye

I Wanna Be Someone Else (Prod. Idealism)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: domesticsoul
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Your Lie In April (Anime)

[Intro]
Feeling so broke down
I wanna leave my own town 
Cause everybody fucking hates me here
I just wanna disappear 

[Verse]
I just wanna disappear 
Cause everday I feel worthless 
Maybe if I was gone it'd be painless 
Sometimes I wish I remained faceless 
Maybe then I'd be nameless 
I don't wanna be famous 
Everybody cares till it
Comes to this
Comes to this

[Bridge]
Broken too pieces again 
I just wish I could have a friend 
(Friend)
Don't know where I've been lately 
Just miss you everyday lately 

[Verse 2]
Plenty mistakes made 
I don't really know what to say
Just wanna get out my bed today 
Even if I fail just know I'm here for you
I don't really see things clearly 
Nearly jumping off the ledge everyday

[Outro]
Who the fuck am I anymore

Vanish (Prod. domesticsoul)

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

this song is completely non profit

produced by @idealismus

lyrics:

blowing on pack
slept three hours flat
how the fuck that possible
that i cant go to bed

if im smoking more i swear i should be getting rest
its fuck up (for real it is shits crazy)

i dont think its the only thing i feel in my chest
got some old emotions buried deep inside my breathes
i can feel them burn me when i exhale my lungs
id confront them but i cant cause i forget where theyre from

hurt you
i dont mean to hurt you
but i dont treat sympathy as a virtue
im too involved in my own selfish mind
even though i forget who i am half the time

as i grow i tend to grow out of line
making time just so i can keep taking my time

no one really has the time to worry bout relationship
but everyone is doing it and no ones really saying it

tinder picking choosing
then delete it for a little bit
u know u like the ego boost
of people swiping right on it

but i do too
and im like you
i cry too
and friday night
im high like you
christmas break
im drunk like you
bad work day
slumped like you
im scared like you
not fair that you
shit on me when im 
just like you

i feel things too
i just make tunes and
the musics cool but
im just you

we are one of the same i know

im u (prod. idealism)

produced by idealism

lyrics:

man we really out here
damn its chilly out
get ahead of myself
always end up down here

round here
no one give a fuck about your feelings
youre numbers
no one get to know you think about it your nothing

i move forward hard head
its scary any day u could wind up dead
i put my money in the bank
if there was no saving me id save a little change
help the family with the pain
that was before my current angle on my brain
that was before i got too busy for the pain
way before when everyday would feel the same

feel like everybody like me more
real life friends would ask me what im crying for
said they said i need the sadness just to feel the force 
making garbage i dont like so you would like me more

is not the way it works
i put my feelings first
i put em in the words
persuasion never works
opinions rarely hurt
bitch ill die before i spin another persons thought into the works

okok alright alright
blueberry packed in the pipe
rain sounds coming from the night
damn

this track is completely non-profit

side street (prod. idealism)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

draft 001 (prod. idealism)

苦しみ (Prod. Idealism)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

I Won't Be Okay, If You Leave (Prod. Idealism)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)