giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

Inspired by Desmond and The Tutus's Pretoria Girls, here's my tongue-in-cheek  Cape Town Girls ;) pop punk takeover

Cape Town Girls

first single off my upcoming project "Jewel City"

featuring @wethher

produced by pilotkid

thanks for listening <3

I Know it's Hard (ft. Wethher) [prod. pilotkid]

Featuring by: @l_y_p_i
Written by: Kurama SD & l y p i 
Produced by: @jolst
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & l y p i
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Horimiya 

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Where to go
But I'm trying
But I'm trying  
To make my way out
Of this hell 
I know I will fail 
But I know I can prevail 
If I try 
If I try my hardest 
My hardest
If I try

[Post-Chorus: l y p i]
Don't waste my time 
Don't waste my time 
I waited 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I lost it all 
And its so easy to see 
Easy to see 
All the problems 
All the problems
Everything is so temporary 
Nothing is always easy
Always easy 
Always easy
I have so much uncertainty 
In my head 
In my head

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Why I'm still here 
I don't know 
Why you even care

[Verse 2: l y p i]
Why you care
Double it up
I got 2 pills to take and I can't get enough
Got this pain in my brain and I don't want to let it
Take what I am
Cause I know I'm misfit

Fine I said I'm sorry
That shit was just so low
Only in my head though 
Don't think I can do it
I think I'll go through it
I knew that you blew it
I don't want to do it

I don't want to do it but I guess that I will
That's the only story of my life that I know
Waiting for the day just to do all the things I want to do
Oh it's just a shame I know 

And how I've felt so alone 
It has been enough just to tear me apart
Waiting for the day that I got through it all
A have been alone

[Outro: l y p i]
oh oh oh 
x6

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domesticscars

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

I felt too lost in the moment
I'm sorry my expression never shows it
Love I gave you in the past yeah you own it
My love is buried in the ground my condolence 
I swear I thought you were perfect
But it's just another instance occurring
Another memory I made that is blurry
I still remorse and from the fact that you hurt me

And here we go our separate ways
I guess it wasn't just a waste
But I've been trapped inside this cage
I may need some help from you mage

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

Guess I had to take a life lesson
Didn't know it would make my life lessen
It's not always worth the connections
And it's not always worth second guessing 
I just got to go with my instincts
Gotta figure out whatever else is missing
But if you come back that's way too risky
You might go ahead attempt again to trick me

fever dream

music video

fever dream (domesticsoul)

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

u look tired, is everything okay?
𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕠𝕟𝕖,
(lyrics)
had enough,
this isnt fun anymore
you dont talk to me at all
-
had enough
youre leaving more
words dont last
im feeling horrible

repeating words
all ive ever heard
its in my veins
never doing great

i find myself
drifting to the end
of all ive ever known
lonely is a word when used to describe my home
but love is such a waste when they are not the one
and im easy to replace, lets face the facts im nothing special
this game of life, is just an unbeatable level
i always think about whats called "have i lost you?"
well i have,
we'll never get it back again

back again
ive lost you
and now youre gone
gone
i miss you
i am nothing,
i never was

made 11/16/22

Ephemeral

Prod. by TaylorJ

https://open.spotify.com/track/5kwQtIXe2sYp8FveGcwDwM?si=2f1e499ca63f4ccb

Lyrics:

Tell me what you thinking
I ain't gonna do that
Lying all around
I am always acting stupid
Waterfall and it feels like it's a fall down
Losing purpose not on purpose
Wanna blow up
Scarecrow i'm scaring crows out
For no reason keeping me alive
Where is my phone at

Cowardly, i am crawling thru the mud
My brain splat, it is outside
Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

Hate me
Blame me
What a shame that i'm being so worthless
What a shame that you're being so ruthless
4am i'm feeling so clueless
Blood drips down
I'm so high
I can't even see the light
See the red slights
I can't even see my mind
Seeing red dust
I can't even see my mind

Fall to the floor
Breaking bones
What you gonna do then
It's too late
What you wanna say to me
I said but before and before

What you wanna say to me
I heard it all in past
Would you wanna be with me
Until we all die
Till we all dead
I smoked too much
Everything is so dead
Am i not right?

Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

I heard it all

I Heard It All(Prod. TaylorJ)

WHY ME (prod. luffysome)

LAST CHANCE

tana - chances (prod. sxprano)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)