giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

Featuring: @joshiguess & @auby4rc
Written by: Kurama SD, JoshIGuess, & auby
Produced by: moneo 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & auby
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: Kurama SD

Lyrics:

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Farewell to u 
Goodbye to me 
All the things I couldn't be
(I couldn't be)
Passing by in spring 
Strings cut to easy
(Too easy) 
u never needed me
I need time to breathe 
Lost my mind instead 
But I still miss the time we had 

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I'll miss you
I'm waiting for you still
(Still)
Remember last year
I was crying tears 
So farewell to you
And everyone around here 
Your eyes were beautiful
Like fireworks

[Verse 2: JoshIGuess]
(On the 4th of July)
You had stayed home
We were making out on the couch
Nowadays I just wish you're in the ground
But I found a way to live life 
So I guess it's farewell
They say they don't care 
Well fuck yeah I can tell
Don't got much left to look forward to 
It's just another day 
Where the homies are ignoring you
I'm done with all this drama talk
And everyone Drifting away
(Fuck it I just might move out too)

[Chorus: auby]
I made the bed that i lay in
Please take my hand and say you're staying
If you're gone, I won't get over it
Say farewell to my innocence

I take back the words i said that night
I'm sorry
I'll miss you
don't leave me
I love you
Please hold me

Farewell w/ JoshIGuess & auby (Prod. Moneo)

Inspired by Desmond and The Tutus's Pretoria Girls, here's my tongue-in-cheek  Cape Town Girls ;) pop punk takeover

Cape Town Girls

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

she dont love me anymore
at least thats what i think
cuz i'm not the same anymore
idk if she's okay with this

you say what i did is atrocious i don't remember a thing
i wonder if one day we can start it all over again

oh girl u know i'd like it if you could give me a chance
but i don't care
i'm good on my own
i need me some time to work on myself

gimme the face
or gimme a hug
i just need a fix i don't really need u
i don't got no feels
i'll jump down the hill
but before i'll see if you can get back with me

J'ressens pas grand chose mais c'est sympa d'être à tes côtés
(I don't feel much but its good being by your side)
Me demande pas c'que j'pense certaines questions seront sautées
(don't ask me what i think, some questions won't get answers)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

give me a chance ft. noxiousnights (mackk)

Featuring by: @l_y_p_i
Written by: Kurama SD & l y p i 
Produced by: @jolst
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & l y p i
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Horimiya 

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Where to go
But I'm trying
But I'm trying  
To make my way out
Of this hell 
I know I will fail 
But I know I can prevail 
If I try 
If I try my hardest 
My hardest
If I try

[Post-Chorus: l y p i]
Don't waste my time 
Don't waste my time 
I waited 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I lost it all 
And its so easy to see 
Easy to see 
All the problems 
All the problems
Everything is so temporary 
Nothing is always easy
Always easy 
Always easy
I have so much uncertainty 
In my head 
In my head

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Why I'm still here 
I don't know 
Why you even care

[Verse 2: l y p i]
Why you care
Double it up
I got 2 pills to take and I can't get enough
Got this pain in my brain and I don't want to let it
Take what I am
Cause I know I'm misfit

Fine I said I'm sorry
That shit was just so low
Only in my head though 
Don't think I can do it
I think I'll go through it
I knew that you blew it
I don't want to do it

I don't want to do it but I guess that I will
That's the only story of my life that I know
Waiting for the day just to do all the things I want to do
Oh it's just a shame I know 

And how I've felt so alone 
It has been enough just to tear me apart
Waiting for the day that I got through it all
A have been alone

[Outro: l y p i]
oh oh oh 
x6

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

I can’t trust these bitches no
Stack the bag it digivolve 

Touching road 
I’m sippin slow
Careful who
You call ya bro
That’s you main
But she a hoe

Love is dead but now you know

Imma die in a Montclair coat
MOB till the day I go

Sad songs while I count this dough 
Hit a lick that’s a grab and go

I don’t need new friends
Day ones till the end they screaming
Curaga when I pull up in a Benz

Can I get a feature I said maybe that
Depends imma need a couple hundred bands
I’m just trynna hit up France

hit my stizzy let’s get busy in my city
Soda fizzy quit why you hating
Slide no kizzy water drip that’s new balenci

I’m the plug for the Melodie’s
slept on for a century
close my eyes I can’t rest in P

live and die won’t remember me

When the going gets tough 
Gotta stand back up 
I know they pray on my downfall 

Stay the course had to fight
For the dream
Live and die keep
My sights like a beam
From the dirt yeah I came from
Poverty real life hit you quick
Like an artery 

Love and hate but I guess
That’s a part of me

Tell myself just take a breath 
And take some time
got my reasons if I had to leave it 
All behind
She said that she love me 
I’m one of a kind

She said my love
Is the kind you find
in a lifetime in a lifeline
Oh my my

I call her mon Cheri
We got slow steady 

Shout out my brother Zach 
We getting to them racks
I ain’t gon stop till
I get fendi
And some brand new Ralph’s

Struggle taught me who the real is
That’s a fendi fact
If she want it imma give it
Imma break her back


I got nothing to prove 
And everything to lose

I’ll see you at the top don’t
Quote me 
I’ll be living proof

It goes on and on and on
All the days I spent and the pain I felt

We are not the same max Payne heartbreak
Triple 9 9 9 that’s forever always

Hope I meet em when I die
He the reason I’m alive
Blowing smoke to ease my mind
That’s the cure to pass the time.

Mon Cherie [prod. warheart]

u look tired, is everything okay?
𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕠𝕟𝕖,
(lyrics)
had enough,
this isnt fun anymore
you dont talk to me at all
-
had enough
youre leaving more
words dont last
im feeling horrible

repeating words
all ive ever heard
its in my veins
never doing great

i find myself
drifting to the end
of all ive ever known
lonely is a word when used to describe my home
but love is such a waste when they are not the one
and im easy to replace, lets face the facts im nothing special
this game of life, is just an unbeatable level
i always think about whats called "have i lost you?"
well i have,
we'll never get it back again

back again
ive lost you
and now youre gone
gone
i miss you
i am nothing,
i never was

made 11/16/22

Ephemeral

epic song ft. @lxstboymusic
prod. judah B

LYRICCCC!!
Slide on the city yeah you know its time
Yeah shes pretty, mighty fine
Got myself locked in her eyes, a carousel right through my spine
She got me spinning round, round circles in my brain
I wish i could go back, and make my past not so plain

Cant change the past, but the future's yours to mold
So take your hand, ace up your sleeve, dont you fold, youll see
Youll make your name, across these plains, across these empty streets
Follow me, but i aint got a fkn clue
We gon bluff, we gon make it through the rough, 
losing all my confidence but fuck it ima run it up, 
look into her eyes n don't pass that up

[lxst boy]
yeah
slide through the city we gon make it fly
got so lost in her deep brown eyes
never could dance but she took my hand
got me hyped for what she got next
and i don’t wanna tell her now
that she’s all in my head
i wish i could just let her go
but i’m still here instead

imma lost boy
never found
but i’m always
underground
i don’t really
fall in love
but this girl is
all i want

slide on the city ft. lxst boy [prod. Judah B]

kippin hard @prettypain! @NEXXO @YoungWave

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Бeзotvetnaя Lюbov

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)