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The fractal song: love sex death & time travel 

circa April 2021

with artwork shot on location nearby Dickinson, North Dakota

the fractal song

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The fractal song

05

I know you're not alone
Well I know it's all interpretation and correlation
Oh have you seen it
I feel the heat on my skin from the sun
But I can't help but asking

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

Well now I've realised
I can't just walk around with closed eyes
Get a grip of yourself
I know you're scared
Let's look at the semantics
I know I'm so pedantic
It's all perspective, it won't ruin my vision
We've gotta stop with all this indecision

I see it all the time (okay)
I can't believe I didn't notice you
And I won't hesitate anymore
Action over reaction
And I won't play pretend anymore

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

the desert

06

(What are you waiting for?)

The city tasted so good when you were around
You're always caught up when I'm down
I never know when you're around so
The city tasted so good when you were around
You're always caught up when I'm down
I never know when you're around so

You think it's all laid out for you, I know
I told you that I hated love
You said get your head out the sand
Independent agency
Codependent flagrancy like
I can't live my life like that
I can't live my life like that yeah

I think it's clear that you don't know what you want
Well I know I won't focus on the past

The city tasted so good when you were around
You're always caught up when I'm down
I never know when you're around so
The city tasted so good when you were around
You're always caught up when I'm down
I never know when you're around so

Just give it time
I think I hate when we get high
We've gotta stop
The extroversion made it kinda hard to cut the seam

Now I see the inability
To face your own fragility
Consider possibilities that
I can't rely on anybody for this
Built the bridge by myself and got up
Don't be frightened
Let your impulse take the lead

The city tasted so good when you were around
We gon' build this whole new town
And to nothing we'll be bound, oh
The city tasted so good when you were around
We gon' build this whole new town
And to nothing we'll be bound, oh
(And to nothing we'll be bound)
(And to nothing we'll be bound)
(And to nothing we'll be bound)
(And to nothing we'll be bound)

the city taste

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

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made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

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Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

i'll do what it takes
111, my debut album, out now
prod. @st1cksyea @soupandreas and myself
mix/mastered: @soupandreas

official music video directed by @thisissully_ : 
https://youtu.be/uyH7R_G_8JA

free download/acapella for soundcloud remixes<3 : https://hypeddit.com/prodmusa/crashtestdummy

lyrics:
don’t know what to do until i’m face to face with everything that i just couldn’t get over last year  
and maybe it’s the wrong sentiment
can’t admit that i’m scared just to say
that i really missed you

will I ever see you again?
yeah i just do what i think it takes
what would I say to amend?
apologies are my own offense
i saw the stars in your eyes
and in a moment everything was fine
can’t help how you sit surprised
just cause i done found myself now

and everything i say is just whispers in the moment!
something’s telling me that i wont see you again
growing up i realized that i'm just my only opponent 
i could take a train i would walk through every mile

i feel u tuggin’ and pulling 
in my head stumbling footings
i wear these scars on my body like i’m just covered in bullets
lost when i’m winning again
you said you’d change but you couldn’t 
only opposition is my self-demise

front flipping into a concrete wall!
feels real nice, watch the back-drop fall
cause your sorrow’s inviting 
with this i’ll solve it in writing
these days i’m lacking excitement
feel free to call (me up)

will I ever see you again?
yeah i just do what i think it takes
what would i say to amend?
apologies are my own offense
i saw the stars in your eyes
and in a moment everything was fine
can’t help how you sit surprised
just cause i done found myself 

something tells me it’ll be a while
maybe for a minute, i’d pick up if you dialed
i could take a train i would walk through every mile
if you said okay i would fucking reconcile things with you

i’m feeling lost in the moment
quickly forming codependencies it’s all we’ve got
by the time I knew just how to judge your motives
now it’s too late and i’m really scared of growing up

(x2)

(will i ever) see you again?
yeah i just do what i think it takes
what would I say to amend?
apologies are my own offense
i saw the stars in your eyes
and in a moment everything was fine
can’t help how you sit surprised
just cause i done found myself

crash test dummy

music video :)

crash test dummy (prod. st1cks, soupandreas, musa)

co prod gabbyyyyyyyyy

you told me to stay, when i said this town is just another circle of hell
you don’t have to break but you find yourself counting the times you fell
i and was watching all your situations barring the missed occasions with silent regret
when you said you could never love again
too many dark rooms filled with nights to forget

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

you could never be wrong
cause this night will go on
and the dj keeps playing that stupid drake song

and you said
i’m just so tired of these kids going places to do coke in the bathroom and it’s like nobody wants to have fun and everyone just wants to get fucked up so

maybe i could never love again
in all these dark rooms filled with nights to regret

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

i’m tired of this aggression
faking love and self obsession
nobody’s got good intentions
where’s the ending

am i lost to find consistent
when people are persistent
in their own twisted way of living
i guess we call it what we want

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want
call it what you want
call it what you want

Call it what you want (co p. gabby start)

prod @lyn_u
ft @omgisai

visualizer https://youtu.be/Yere7QrbIG0

lyrics:

(@lyn_u)
smile when the camera starts
i never play my cards right
acting so bizarre
i cant see anyone in sight
(x2)

and now i cant go anywhere
cause i know ull be there
and now i cant go anywhere
cause all these people stare

cause everytime i close my eyes
its you again, you again
and everytime i hear ur voice
i dont know what to do with myself
(x2)

(@omgisai)
who am i to blame
i got hella stories that i need to say one day
yeah i got hella choppas that shit put you in some pain
yeah i got hella bodies
who gon help me dig these graves

yeah who am i to blame
i got hella stories that i need to say one day
yeah i got hella choppas that shit put you in some pain
dont even try lil bro we not the same

(@lyn_u)
and now i cant go anywhere
cause i know ull be there
and now i cant go anywhere
cause all these people stare

cause everytime i close my eyes
its you again, you again
and everytime i hear ur voice
i dont know what to do with myself
(x2)

you again +isai

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