“I Still Play” is a personal piece from me, Krazy Krissie. I used to perform with a sax in my hands and a dream in my chest... until life took a bite out of both. Illness changed everything,  but it didn’t end my journey, it just forced me to take a different road.

This song is for anyone who's had their plans shattered and their voice shaken. You don’t have to quit, just pivot.
Your path may shift, but the music?
It can still be yours. 🎷🖤✨

****Lyrics****

It started with a sax and a secondhand smile
Ten years deep in a dream we made worthwhile
Just friends and songs under birthday lights
No fame, just fire on those Saturday nights
I had a voice behind the sound
Helping others rise while I held the ground

But life don’t ask, it just arrives
A whisper first, then it rewrites lives
I woke up one day, and my body said no
To every rhythm I used to know
Now I create from a different place
And write through pain I can’t erase

But I still play, just in a different way
I build the world where someone else can sway
I lost the notes, but not the sound
The stories still find their way around
It’s not the path I thought I’d take
But it’s still a song I get to make

It’s still a song I get to make…

There’s grief in knowing some doors stay closed
In the weight of what your body never chose
But I won’t fold, I won’t erase
The fire that time can’t displace
I am more than what I’ve lost
I’ve paid the price, but not the cost

So if you’re out there, stuck in pause
If the world don’t clap, just take applause
From the words you write, the tracks you send
Your voice can echo without end

you’re not broken… just renamed…

There was a time I thought it ended here,
When I couldn’t lift the sax I held for years.
No more melodies, no more sound,
Just silence where my life was found.
But silence taught me something new,
That music never leaves, it just finds a different view.

I still play, through every beat I build
Every lyric traced from something I’ve felt
The stage has changed, the lights are new
But the soul of the song is still true
We bend, we burn, but we don’t break
We still make music, for our own sake

We still make music…
For our own sake…

So here’s my solo, made of light
From quiet studios and sleepless nights
No Saxophone in hand, but still I stay,
Because I still play.

I Still Play

Shelley

'An Epoch Of Insanity' inspired by the current plethora of ego manaics in charge of our world. I'm joined by my good friend, composer, arranger and master musician, Georg Boehme. All wind arrangements and sax solos are by Georg. Main composition and everything else by myself, including production.

Dont Smudge The Ink

An Epoch Of Insanity

An Epoch Of Insanity (Feat. Georg Boehme)

Emergence [orchestral/soundtrack]

This original orchestral piece sounds a little like orchestral/soundtrack film music but that was not the original intent. Although i do love film music too. As they always say, music is the flower of feeling and I hope that came across. Maybe I was just so appreciative to know that spring was coming after a very cold winter? A new beginning.

Hope you enjoy listening to this as much as I did making it!

Emergence [Orchestral/Film music]

Angels are often close to us, helping and protecting us. The main thing is to learn to notice the protection they give with their wings.

Wings

Sometimes the strongest people are the quietest.
This song is a voice for the ones you don’t always see, the survivors behind the smile, the ones still standing after everything tried to break them.
It’s not just a song... it’s a reminder to look closer, care deeper, and never underestimate quiet strength. 💔🫶🌙
If you know someone like this, let them know.
They're still here. And that means everything. 💜

****Lyrics****

I’ve met them.
I’m one of them.
The quiet survivors.
The ones who walk through life like nothing’s wrong,
but they’re holding themselves together with threads.
This song is for them.
And for you, so you don’t miss what they carry.

They hide the worst of it behind a tired smile
Say, “It’s nothing,” when it’s everything, but that’s their style
They walk through fires no one sees, and still they care
They’re breaking in a room full of people unaware

And you don’t know
The weight they carry as they go
But I’ve seen the nights
They lose the fight
And still, they breathe

Their scars tell a story
They’re the pages that pain couldn’t burn
Every line a war they survived
Every mark a truth they earned
You might think they’re shattered
But there’s strength in every piece
They’re not weak, they’re not broken
They’re just, healing, underneath

They whisper cries so no one else will hear
Hold the world together, even drowning in their fear
They give their love, even when none comes back their way
And still they show up, still they hope, every day

And you don’t see
How hard it is just to be
But I’ve watched them stand
With shaking hands
And still, they give

Their scars tell a story
They’re the pages that pain couldn’t burn
Every line a war they survived
Every mark a truth they earned
You might think they’re shattered
But there’s strength in every piece
They’re not weak, they’re not broken
They’re just, healing, underneath

You don’t see the nights they cry into their sleeve
Or how brave it is to simply, still believe
You pass them in the street, at work, at home, each day
Smiling, helping, laughing, while their heart slips away

You might think you’d recognize someone who’s barely hanging on
But survivors don’t always look broken
They look like parents, friends, coworkers, kids
They look like people you love

So pay attention
Ask gently
Listen longer

Because some people are fighting for their lives
Behind quiet eyes and steady hands

And if you see someone like that, really see them,
Remind them,
They are a survivor
And that, is something to be proud of

Behind Quiet Eyes

Sixty, six-O was written by our lead guitarist as three of the band members have hit this milestone in the last couple of years. It was recorded at the Con Club in Lewes using a TASCAM DR-05X on 19th April 25.

60 (Live) 250419

Written and Created by: J J Samuels

#Tropical #Asia #EDM #FeelGood #Happy #Memories #FeelGood #SongWriter

“Eastbury Road” celebrates where I grew up—Eastbury Road, filled with the joy of Canbury Gardens, memories of Mr. Jay’s shop, and the community that shaped my youth. A nostalgic, high-energy tribute to those days. Genres: EDM. Mood: euphoric, festive, high-energy.

Eastbury Road

Music, lyrics, vocal & ac. guitar : Grave
Other instruments & mix : PJ Project

Time waits for no one

Special collaboration with Say Everything — electronic music producer.
Track composed and produced by Say Everything.
Wind instrument arrangement and performance by Ni! (Leon Sukhodolskii),

Say Everything - Sphinx (feat Ni!)

Hot Lips and Honest Dreams

Singer, Songwriter, Composer

About Me
I am a Songwriter, Musician, Singer  and Composer who has been writing original Songs since the Age of 14. Over the Years, I have developed my own Sound and now produce my Music independently. For me, Music is a powerful Force — A Way to express, connect, and create something that resonates beyond Words.

All Songs written and composed by Kurt Arndt 
All Cover-Artworks by Kurt Arndt 

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