she's been on my mind

Written By: Buppy. 
Produced By: eeryskies, pilotkid, Spencr, & BOIA
Composed By: Joshua Carroll, Jacob Rivera, Spencer Singer, & Cole Boillat
Cover Art By: Offlit

Powered By Level Music
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Lyrics: 
So maybe I’m alone since I moved states
And every time I’m home for like five days
She ain’t never ring my phone coming my way
I guess that's how it goes when your life change
Told her, baby I’ma go for my pipe dream
And you’ll never meet another quite like me
Then she reached for the door and she left me
Floor feeling empty, how could you leave me now?

It’s so complicated,
In conversations,
With myself
I’m often hating,
Who you made me,
And what you dealt
So I get mad
I can’t mask
All the pain you gave to me 
I won’t ask
I retract
All the love I let you keep

So give it all back to me my love
So I can let it go
I remember what it was 
But I don’t wanna know
Yeah I don’t wanna know
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah I don’t wanna know

So maybe I’ma fool since you left me
Hell, I can’t keep my cool when you text me
I miss you next to me, and talking to me sexually
I crave your energy, you always get the best of me still
So I’m back on the pills
Numb the hurt that I feel
Nothing seems to be real
When it’s lonely at night
Baby I’m feeling chills
If you wanted a fight
Maybe I would’ve killed for you

Complicated,
In conversations,
With myself
I’m often hating,
Who you made me,
And what you dealt
So I get mad
I can’t mask
All the pain you gave to me 
I won’t ask
I retract
All the love I let you keep

So give it all back to me my love
So I can let it go
I remember what it was 
But I don’t wanna know
Yeah I don’t wanna know
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah I don’t wanna know

i retract all the love i let you keep.

Caution.. Have fun, but have caution..

I dont own the art

Beat by JBC.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTQMXl0PTCOHNYBdZ44NJkQ
https://twitter.com/jbcbeats_

Lyrics:

Welcome to the party   
Bitches off the molly
All these lil kids gonna follow
Like a trolley
Different points of views
For the trend to get in
Think you got a milly eyes
For a prize at the end
And then you call a friend
Tell em bout the win
Everybody acting nice
While they're sitting with a grin
Know you'll make it or you'll fail
This money make you frail
Any game of fame is balance
If you get it you'll prevail


They dont wanna see you fly
They dont wanna see you fly
When they see you rollin round up in the sky
They gon tug on your mothership
They gon tug on your mothership

Its what they gotta do
Keep you babies hypnotized
Swallowing the lies of youth
Carry on no time to try
More time to die
Show aggression just to fit into
A world thats filled with hate
But disguised as love to feed to you

It's like a business
Crossing you off a check list
Like which is more obedient
Feeding off our depression
Obsession
With having many powers to play
Every asshole with authority
Just wants you pay

With more than money
Give up all your time for the may
Thats a maybe 
At something that just may make you great
It's hazy
I know that I be sounded so crazy
But I see it all the time with my cousins
And lately
It hurts me
We wanna have it all
Make the call
Dont ever wanna pass the ball
Until we fall
It ain't over till its over
I'm thanking God cause he my chauffeur
Cause

They dont wanna see you fly
They dont wanna see you fly
When they see you rollin round up in the sky
They gon tug on your mothership
They gon tug on your mothership

Mothership (Prod. by JBC)

I grew up too fast. I didn't enjoy the little things in my younger years.. The times I do remember make me happy. I miss those times and those people. Live a little, don't let one thing keep you down. Just don't go crazy. I wrote this track in 2018.. Only song I've ever written on paper. I was going through some crazy times that I felt I should have done when I was younger. Now I'm older, wiser, and happier. 

The producer for this track is unknown. If you or someone you know produced this, please let me know so I can properly credit you. 

I don't own the artwork.


Lyrics
Honestly I never knew
How much I want to be like the other kids
Driving Texas Avenue 
2 AM with my friends gonna miss my shift
But I don’t really give a fuck now
I just wanna feel the love ya
Chillin with a bit of bud ya
No license that’s just fine though.

I start to feel it again
Smoking on gas with my friends
Never really done this before no

Tell me I’m losing my edge 
Loving this shit in my head
Never really done this before no

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Damn

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Shit

It seem like I stay twisted just to calm down
For years I hid inside my mind was still bound
Better days are here I got my friends now
And I don’t worry bout nothing no

We got the munchies 
We’re losing our shit
Getting too faded we lost all our sense
Loving myself it ain’t complicated
Dancing to indie we’re dedicated 
Calling in sick just to act like we’re kids
Buying in bulk just to act like we’re rich
Going to parties is overrated 
Driving for hours and then we stop

And while we listen to the radio
Thinking of the days I’m with my folks
The time has gone by so fast
And I’m still running from the past

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Missed Youth (2018)

some things don't happen when you want them to. sometimes you make big mistakes. get over it, move on, and do better cause life isn't about focusing on one thing.

Xavier: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrIZX6MSaUgyxzr27loJkDw

Lyrics:
Wish I did things a little differently
Got my regrets there a piece of me
Now I'm sitting in my dirt
Looking up a people questioning my worth
I'm so plain 
Think I might've lost my brain
I'm so lame
Would you wanna call my name?

Chilling with a lump in my throat
Calling for a bitch that wanna take my poke
Maybe I don't feel that bad
Or maybe I'm more confident when I'm sad
I'll come through
If I like you its times two
Maybe times four if the feeling is more
But I doubt that
Sorry but I tend to get bored
Cause I'm in love with a girl
But we don't talk anymore
It's so shitty 
But I don't need your pitty
Cause I'm still trash
And I mad you feel bad
And I know it 
Yeah I know it
And I'm sorry
I'm so sorry

I wanted this time to be different
I honestly hoped I had changed
She's killing me slowly
I'm feeling so lonely
And now I'm just stuck with the pain
I'm sad
You're sad right
You're glad
For this night
You knew that we weren't something
But you let me stay through that night
I'm mad, for my life
I know, we weren't fine
You held me closely
Then you told me that I would be alright

There's something (x4)
There's something you wanted to say
I'm running (x3)
I'm running cause I just didn't wanna face

That fact that I didn't feel shit
For me or for my close friends
Sitting back feeling dead at my desk
sixteen, why the fuck am I depressed
I was the bad guy
That's why
Loved too hard
And then died met again with a broken heart
I'm so selfish 
I just wanted the love
But it seems to fade when I'm smoking some bud
Now I hate this
Nothing ever seems fun
Except looking at the barrel of a loaded gun
Now 21
Thinking that I found my world
Loves the way I sing even loves my curls
Blessing or a dream it don't matter to me
Cause I'm already addicted like some nicotene
Still sad
But I started being glad
Of everthing that I'll have and what I've had
I'm at peace
Thinking that I'll still be me
When I'm finished with my life and my destiny
It's all real
It's not done yet so I'll chill
Whats coming next I don't...

Some Times Aren't The Right Time (Prod. by Xavier) (2020)

Questioning reality? Create a new one. Only you can change your life and what you choose will be on you. Sometimes you gotta give certain things up in order to create that new reality you wish for..

Check out the wonderful person who made this song possible
https://www.youtube.com/c/prodchibi

Lyrics:
You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change

I really love you but it's getting hard to chase
Sometimes I wonder if you even like my face
Take is slow because I know were out of time
I need affection so I need you by my side

You wanna go you wanna ride changing the pace
Gimme a show switching the tide I'm in the race
They're gonna break ya
Come around radiant the fake love
Make a sound then you're gonna wake up
Spit it out know you wanna say sum

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

Breaking through I'm making progress
All the lucy got me feeling nauseous
You're so lovely sitting in a sun dress
I still love you when you're speaking nonsense
In the shade
On the beach I'm watching waves 
I don't really like the taste
Recently I like to hate
Hiding in a cage
Filling up with rage

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change (x2)

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change 

I really love you but it's getting hard to chase
(Bending and breaking)
Sometimes I wonder if you even like my face
(I wanna know if we're cool)
(Shimmy and shaking)
Take is slow cause I know were out of time
(Thinking I might be a fool)
(How do I take it)
I need affection so I need you by my side
(I gotta follow the rules)

Shimmy & Shaking (Prod. Chibi) (2019)

Excluded track from the 2021 album "Somewhere in The Middle"

Taha: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5XglXdDGwNqax9VCvrnlGw

Front Lawn Anarchy (Prod. Taha) (2021)

push yourself to be faster than your past

check out pandrs https://www.youtube.com/c/pandrs

Fast Enough (prod. pandrs)(2019)

Music is my only way to vent. Nobody really gets it. Lyrics down below.

Check out wetgropes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sfm2Mj5a-aw&t=55s

Lyrics:
Imma a free trial
If ya need hug
Hit me speed dial
Low on funds 
But we kick it in style
Give my love 
Only for a short while
I wont budge 
When you say I'm sorry
I wont budge 
If you miss my party

Just make sure
That you cancel
The due date
If you don't want this
For the long way

I got issues
Yeah I know it
Darling I'll miss you
I won't show it
How can I fix you
When I'm broken
Now I'm lost
On the interstate

And I need you
Yeah I know it
How do I please you
When I'm hurting
Thinking I'm see through
I'm worthless
Lose my mind
In another place

I'm so down
Baby I'm bound
Will you feel me now
Or are we falling apart

Cause I'm doing what I can
Can't you see that I try
Only wanna hold your hand
When we rise to the sky
Tried to be a different man
Be the love of her life
Should've stayed the way I was
Am I starting the fight?
I ain't blaming anybody
It's fault of our youth
I want forever
But a trials all I get 
What's the use?
Getting sad
Didn't last
Why do I always lose?

Imma a free trial
If ya need hug
Hit me speed dial
Low funds yeah
But we kick it in style
Give my love 
Only for a short while
I wont budge 
When you say I'm sorry
I wont budge 
If you miss my party

Just make sure
That you cancel
The due date
If you don't want this
For the long way

I got issues
Yeah I know it
Darling I'll miss you
I won't show it
How can I fix you
When I'm broken
Now I'm lost
On the interstate

And I need you
Yeah I know it
How do I please you
When I'm hurting
Thinking I'm see through
I'm worthless
Lose my mind
In another place

free trial (prod. by wetgropes)

I'm an asshole. But I don't really wanna be.

Check out Jonah: https://www.youtube.com/@jonahbru

(Lyrics)
It's not easy being bad
Close myself off so nobody gets hurt
All my life I wasn't glad
Too much poison in my lungs I'm so burnt

So why
Do I try 
To hide
That I'm really just an asshole

They're no excuse
I can no longer blame the abuse
Imma fail so I say cut it loose
Now I'm here I don't know what to do

I'm so embarrassed
I'm so embarrassed of this

Try Try Try
It's alright
One more day
Another night

I said
Try Try Try
It's alright
One more day
Another night

Like oh my my
Take my life
Love that poison
Make me die

It's not easy being bad
Close myself off so nobody gets hurt
All my life I wasn't glad
Too much poison in my lungs I'm so burnt

So why
Do I try 
To hide
That I'm really just an asshole

So why
Do I try 
To hide
That I'm really just an asshole

I'm so embarrassed
I'm so embarrassed of this

Acceptance Speech (Prod. by Jonah Bru)

blood on my face. prod hayku (OUT NOW ON ALL PLATFORMS ) [🥤@hvteluna on instagram & twitter🦋]

Just doing me or whatever
 

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