Isn't the song "clairo - flamin' hot cheetos (masked man remix)"?

Meep

(Verse 1)
Hola it’s my birthday 
And I still feel the same
I think I did all my growing 
When I was living in pain 
I still am 
But it’s easing 
Because I’m freeing my soul
Puff on a Black an mild
After smoking some fire dro 

Maybe sip a little
Got myself some crown and some coke
I like vanilla but the OG is the best way to go
I Did this for awhile now but I’m switching my tone
Still lighting up a wood
But I don’t need the Gar or the moat

Made the black Jack 21
Surprised I didn’t meet the gun
Got to bust 22
Will my luck run outta juice 
I’m hiding like a convict 
Honestly that’s how I live 
Really wasn’t ready to be famous 
That’s just how it is

Hermit niggas
Caught boy see em lurking nigga
Don’t think that I’m worthy to be sitting
With the working winnas 
Steady gonna pass
Now I guess I gotta hurry nigga
I don’t want to lag but I dont really wanna
Worry either 

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing me
Wanna party on my birthday 
I don’t wanna sit 
And be quiet on my birthday 
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay 
Flipping on a switch 
So I can party on my birthday 

(Verse 2)
To many problems 
I got a list 
I’m guessing that a closet wont solve em
I’ll make a fix
Steady tryna cover my trauma
Make a way to Nirvana 
I don’t got time for the drama
Dont make a sitch 
Here we go

Crash on the sofa
I lost a back bone
Steady falling into the boba 
It’s like a white room 
I’m waiting on a blast from the past
Think back to when I was brash
See myself being glad
I had the star shoes

Walking on the sidewalk
Blood on my sock
Rolling down hilly
For thrillies
Now that’s a blind spot
Waiting for the crash boom
Better ask the bad dude
I know the brother of who
They want to die too

There’s a fear of some judging 
But who cares
Followed by a feeling of something 
That’s not there
Almost like I make how I feel
About stares
I don’t wanna be in the corner 
When I’m scared

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing me
Wanna party on my birthday 
I don’t wanna sit 
And be quiet on my birthday 
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay 
Flipping on a switch 
So I can party on my birthday 

(Bridge)
Kinda wanna change
But I kinda wanna stay sound
Maybe I can wait
Gotta make a wave now (x2)


(Outro)
My time 
Cut a new way in a red line
Last night 
It was my fray 
For the last light

My right to the old blade
And the eye sight
It’s nice 
When a new face  
Gives a good fight 

Oh my
How much I’ve changed
In a year now
I just wanna live free
Grow a beard out
Music is a nice thing
When it’s not loud
I won’t ever make a scene 
When I step down (x2)

A Not So Special Guy (Prod. by LORD GHOST)

just a dude in his room. trying to make people less sad.
even though he himself is bitter and alone..

Earth is Small's insta https://www.instagram.com/shredsoflo/

(Lyrics)
Just a dude inside his bedroom
That's all I'll ever be
I'm not starving but I'll make do
If something were to cease
I love music but it ain't me
Maybe its where I should be
But I'd rather make my own destiny
With a blessing from above
I can do what I please
I maybe lacking in some numbers
But my checks are still green

I'm not braggin I'm still sitting on the sidelines
Don't got a will to be
If you don't know what I mean
You might have some extra ease
Something bout existence and a pressure of a failure
That could only ever happen if we don't keep it together
It's a thrill
But most will never feel
The same way 
To be honest 
I'm just happy
We don't feel the same pain
It's a bitch
Cause I keep fighting
Just so I can stay sane

It's an attitude
Got some shit to say
Even when I show gratitude
Nobody wants to say
That they made it with subterfuge
It's an issue with issues
When separated like tissues
It's a bigger picture
That we all keep consuming
For misuse

I cut em off like a part of me
Still surrounded by fallacy
There's a demon in my bedroom
That keeps telling me how to be
Start to question the moon
Are the seasons just make believe
Saying batter batter
Got me destracted on how I see
Cause I'm way to fuckin worried
If I'll make to summer week
Got a vision in my head
That I wont make it to anything
Yet I'm sitting in my bedroom
Trying to write something that can speak
To an individual that isn't me

I'm just a dude inside his bedroom
And that's all I'll ever be
I'm not starving but I'll make do
If something were to cease
I love music but it ain't me
Maybe its where I should be
But I'd rather make my own destiny
With a blessing from above
I can do what I please
I maybe lacking in some numbers
But my checks are still green

A Dude In His Room (Prod. by Earth is Small)

not a perfect man. no one is. so much goes on when no one can see.

Links to Sake
https://www.instagram.com/sakebythewater/             https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmURffc77e_LHErF_smQHxw/featured

(Lyrics)
I look at me no masterpiece
I think myself as trash at least
If there is more
Then let it show
I have to want it
Cant be broke 
Something else just has my brain
A downgrade from my old embrace
No resting for a killer now
One cut from me will put me down

There's a version of me
That I think that I cant let out
I'm more suited for a war that doesn't have funny crowds
So what am i supposed to do 
When I cant even shout
The only thing I do is close my door

(Hook)
So here I am again
Lonely soul and I lost all of my friends
We're they even right for me
I'll never know
I like to think they helped me grow
And I hope that they're doing better now
Even the one that was a fucking clown
I got the fuck up outta town

Spread blasphemy then ask for me
Butt end of a joke I see
Cant fess up to things that hurt
Play the victim and make it worse
Like I asked for this
Better yet don't ask for shit
I hide behind my bitterness
That's why I wrote those words

Before I had to listen to the things
They had to share
But lately I've been thinking
That I do not really care
And maybe I should try to
Cause the person is so close
Saw me as a child 
But has failed to see my growth

So I've been searching for my worth
Sometimes I believe that I'm dirt
But maybe that's a good thing
Since my god had made me from the earth
And if I were to die
I might go back inside
To the place where I was made from scratch
I'm sure I'll feel alive

(Outro)
So here I am again
Found a soul and I gained a friend
Will I be the one for them
I'd like to know
But I'm thinking that I've learned to grow
No more acting for the show
Grab my darling here we go
Get the fuck up outta town

I think we'll be alright
As long as we still strive
Make the most out of our downfalls
And never deal with withdrawals
I wont just close my door
I want to feel some more
Get closer than before
I just want to be better

Closed Doors (Prod. By  Sake by the Water)

I grew up too fast. I didn't enjoy the little things in my younger years.. The times I do remember make me happy. I miss those times and those people. Live a little, don't let one thing keep you down. Just don't go crazy. I wrote this track in 2018.. Only song I've ever written on paper. I was going through some crazy times that I felt I should have done when I was younger. Now I'm older, wiser, and happier. 

The producer for this track is unknown. If you or someone you know produced this, please let me know so I can properly credit you. 

I don't own the artwork.


Lyrics
Honestly I never knew
How much I want to be like the other kids
Driving Texas Avenue 
2 AM with my friends gonna miss my shift
But I don’t really give a fuck now
I just wanna feel the love ya
Chillin with a bit of bud ya
No license that’s just fine though.

I start to feel it again
Smoking on gas with my friends
Never really done this before no

Tell me I’m losing my edge 
Loving this shit in my head
Never really done this before no

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Damn

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Shit

It seem like I stay twisted just to calm down
For years I hid inside my mind was still bound
Better days are here I got my friends now
And I don’t worry bout nothing no

We got the munchies 
We’re losing our shit
Getting too faded we lost all our sense
Loving myself it ain’t complicated
Dancing to indie we’re dedicated 
Calling in sick just to act like we’re kids
Buying in bulk just to act like we’re rich
Going to parties is overrated 
Driving for hours and then we stop

And while we listen to the radio
Thinking of the days I’m with my folks
The time has gone by so fast
And I’m still running from the past

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Missed Youth (2018)

Sometimes people come to you and are willing to make a decision based on their emotions. I would prefer to help someone by just being there for them and talking than taking advantage of their emotional state.

I do not own the artwork.

Darling On The Run (Prod. Chikyu) (2017)

some things don't happen when you want them to. sometimes you make big mistakes. get over it, move on, and do better cause life isn't about focusing on one thing.

Xavier: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrIZX6MSaUgyxzr27loJkDw

Lyrics:
Wish I did things a little differently
Got my regrets there a piece of me
Now I'm sitting in my dirt
Looking up a people questioning my worth
I'm so plain 
Think I might've lost my brain
I'm so lame
Would you wanna call my name?

Chilling with a lump in my throat
Calling for a bitch that wanna take my poke
Maybe I don't feel that bad
Or maybe I'm more confident when I'm sad
I'll come through
If I like you its times two
Maybe times four if the feeling is more
But I doubt that
Sorry but I tend to get bored
Cause I'm in love with a girl
But we don't talk anymore
It's so shitty 
But I don't need your pitty
Cause I'm still trash
And I mad you feel bad
And I know it 
Yeah I know it
And I'm sorry
I'm so sorry

I wanted this time to be different
I honestly hoped I had changed
She's killing me slowly
I'm feeling so lonely
And now I'm just stuck with the pain
I'm sad
You're sad right
You're glad
For this night
You knew that we weren't something
But you let me stay through that night
I'm mad, for my life
I know, we weren't fine
You held me closely
Then you told me that I would be alright

There's something (x4)
There's something you wanted to say
I'm running (x3)
I'm running cause I just didn't wanna face

That fact that I didn't feel shit
For me or for my close friends
Sitting back feeling dead at my desk
sixteen, why the fuck am I depressed
I was the bad guy
That's why
Loved too hard
And then died met again with a broken heart
I'm so selfish 
I just wanted the love
But it seems to fade when I'm smoking some bud
Now I hate this
Nothing ever seems fun
Except looking at the barrel of a loaded gun
Now 21
Thinking that I found my world
Loves the way I sing even loves my curls
Blessing or a dream it don't matter to me
Cause I'm already addicted like some nicotene
Still sad
But I started being glad
Of everthing that I'll have and what I've had
I'm at peace
Thinking that I'll still be me
When I'm finished with my life and my destiny
It's all real
It's not done yet so I'll chill
Whats coming next I don't...

Some Times Aren't The Right Time (Prod. by Xavier) (2020)

push yourself to be faster than your past

check out pandrs https://www.youtube.com/c/pandrs

Fast Enough (prod. pandrs)(2019)

when you try to mask your depression in a bubbly trap beat :)

Check out Kaktus please. https://www.youtube.com/@kaktus1771/featured

Pastel Introvert (Prod by Kaktus)(2017)

Some stuff on my mind

Please go check out abby
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQhvc2E3mMjGA2dRF19UzFA

I do not own the artwork!

Lyrics:

(Intro)
Now I'm lying on the floor again
And I'm thinking that I'm bored of this
Tell me how am I supposed to live?
If I barely feel alive
But they tell me to get over it
And I'm reaching for another sip
Another puff, and I wait for it to hit
Then I feel like I'm alive

(Verse 1)
Boom Boom Boom
3 shots down the hatch
I'll carry a torch 
And I'll never look back
I think I should stop
Forgot what I said
I don't think I'll make it 
Outta my bed
But I'll carry on
Carry on
Carry on
Try to carry on
Said I'll carry on

While I'm looking at the past me
And I'm sitting in the front seat

Where did I go wrong?
I keep putting all of it
Inside these songs
But it's not enough
Not enough
To keep me floating up
Floating up

I'm such a pessimist
Fuck your entitlement
I'm running from this shit
I know I wont make it
But I gotta grow up
Yeah I gotta grow up

(Bridge)
Still don't know where I gotta go
Need a voice just to let me know
Fuck a voice I can take it slow
I have a road I can follow home

(Hook)
I been stressed
Hella depressed
And I been feeling
It inside my chest
Gotta roll
Fill the hole
It's a void 
Swallowing up my soul

Cause I been stressed
Hella depressed
And I been feeling
It inside my chest
Gotta roll
Fill the hole
It's a void 
Swallowing up my soul

(Verse 2)
Running from the rage
Turn another page
I know I can change
If I switch my ways
Now I know where I should go
Playing on my phone
I'll forget about the day
And I missed the rain

Started drowning in my sea
I forgot who I should be
Is it all dream?
(Upside down)
I can't see in front of me
(Please don't frown)
Tell me if I'm doing fine
(You're doing great)
Am I getting outta line?
(It's not that way)

Now I'm sitting in my chair
I'm not asking for a share
I just wanna feel at home

in the blue (prod. by abby)

When you feel like all the others

Check out the wonderful person who made this song possible
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_AVLt78YAW7MuOAC_meLqg
https://soundcloud.com/rustysdiner
https://www.instagram.com/balancecooper/?hl=de
https://twitter.com/balancecooper



Lyrics:
Who's that?
Who you talking to?
Always on your phone
Who's texting you
Got me worried that you got another dude
Saying you'll be honest 
But is that the truth?

I feel outta place when
We're chilling and you keep on indulging
In conversation
See you on your snapchat
Caught me kinda glancing
You're hiding it like it's pay back 
Why?
I was looking at your face
Didn't even worry babe
But now you got me going crazy
What you hiding from me baby?

Promise you wont stab me in the back
If you gonna fuck up best to show me all the facts
Was it too much weed?
Or did they offer you some tabs?
Sorry that if what I'm sayings got you feeling bad

But every time I think about some shit it's got me mad
Cause everyone right after me you treated with respect
But now you're coming back to me girl what did you expect?
I'm sorry that I'm not the same boy

I been feeling down
I don't really know if I can turn my shit around
Thinking bout past has got me buried in the ground
Take another shot so I can drown out all the sounds
I'm stuck inside my house now oh

Nothing here is new
Thinking that you got me doing things your ex's do
Feeling kinda worthless and it's all because of you
Sorry I'm not perfect and I got an attitude
It's mostly cause you started talking bout another dude
You shouldn't leave em waiting baby that's just hella rude
And now you're getting angry when I talk about my mood

I'm so sad and
Steady laughing
Better paint a pretty picture of my past and
Make a joke about the shit you did
Why the fuck you getting mad? You don't remember this
When I look at you I'm filled with happiness
Then it turns into aggression I don't like this shit
Then I turn into an asshole you don't help it
Now my body's going numb because I made my switch

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
Why do I always feel like you did this all before

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
Why do I always feel like you did this all before

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
Why do I always feel like you did this all before

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
Why do I always feel like you did this all before

I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new
I don't want to feel like I'm nothing new

Nothing New (Prod. by Balance Cooper)

So so tired

Please go check out Oui lele: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7EXnSnFYB6LcHaO-B-XC-g
https://soundcloud.com/ouilele

I DO NOT OWN THE ARTWORK!

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
They way 
I look
The way I act
And how I'm shook up

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
The way 
I talk
The way I move
The way I walk oh

Incoming disaster
Calling up a friendly pastor
Gotta repent
Get up later just to go reminisce
Be a fake just to light up them kids
Tell em to be bold
Never let up never get cold
You been sitting in the back row
But that don't mean you gotta grow mold

We're kinda the same
Staying strong just to get through the game
Nothings better than guessing the weather
It's kinda rainy and I feel the pain
Of everything 
Something bad
I can feel it creepin' from the past
Lately I been getting really mad
Got a demon crawling on my back
And

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
They way 
I look
The way I act
And how I'm shook up

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
The way 
I talk
The way I move
The way I walk oh

im so tired (Prod. by Oui lele)

Just doing me or whatever
 

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