A world 🌎 that’s filled with hate, but disguised as love to feed to you

This song is called “trying” by cavetown

Can you do vocals for a song I wrote? Like, can we collaborate?

someone or something always got to interfere with the good times. Ask em, "What's yo deal?". Try to talk it out. Peoples lives are like trees and every root is a memory or an event. It could be as easy as leaving the area to prevent issue. Be the bigger person.

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Art by: https://www.deviantart.com/boobookittyfuck/art/the-devil-s-got-my-back-95222834

Lyrics:

Getting situated, sitting in my new space
Mental on the up, but there's something here with a new face
Changing up my moods pace
Saying shit like no grace
Wanna pop a couple shots, but I'll lose my brain

I'm feeling love
But they can see your disguise though
Pretend I never heard it
Then I see it with a bright bow

They try to understand it
Then I panic
Man I'm manic
You don't get it
I can see myself
I'm drowning in my own spit

Oh my they got a chance to see me retching
Every other day they catch me lacking counting seconds
While I'm sitting back I always second guess myself
Don't know the reason, maybe I don't wanna chance myself

Another season wanna come around
Niggas wanna test about
Niggas wanna talk but never jump you better put me down
But I can tell that they wont do it
Cause they just run their mouth 
Its oh so fluent
Its so rich
I say like ouu-ee
Simmer down wont you tell me

Wont you tell me
Wont you tell me that you got a deal with me
Ouu-ee simmer down wont you tell me 
Wont you tell me
Wont you tell me maybe we can be at peace

It's kinda sad though
Their feeling down and out
Better yet their dying now
It's kinda sad though
Cause

They'll never hear me howl
Moon calls will keep me bound
Break pack bridges
I never seem like I ever found
A question
An answer
No light in these dancers
My faith in my soul
Will just fade out from prancers
And
I'm just a newbie
To a feeling that's so groovy
There's a song inside my brain
It only comes on during movies
That keep playing in my mind
Of people that just wanna use me
For the kyuubi
A new Huey
With wisdom, knowledge, and sushi

So these days I just do what I gotta do
It's not hard, I don't got no shit to prove
I'm doing me, and living free
There ain't nothing better then holy peace and honey tea

Know I ain't worthless
I put the work in
Fuck all these demons and generational curses
Don't call the hearses
We're only hurting
Put all the pieces together thank god it's working

ouu-ee
Simmer down wont you tell me
Wont you tell me
Wont you tell me that you got a deal with me
Ouu-ee simmer down wont you tell me 
Wont you tell me
Wont you tell me maybe we can be at peace
Ouu-ee simmer down wont you tell me
Wont you tell me
Wont you tell me that you wanted me to leave
Ouu-ee simmer down wont you tell me
Wont you tell me 
Wont you tell me

Wont You Tell Me (prod. by  Kiyoto)

Meep

(Verse 1)
Hola it’s my birthday 
And I still feel the same
I think I did all my growing 
When I was living in pain 
I still am 
But it’s easing 
Because I’m freeing my soul
Puff on a Black an mild
After smoking some fire dro 

Maybe sip a little
Got myself some crown and some coke
I like vanilla but the OG is the best way to go
I Did this for awhile now but I’m switching my tone
Still lighting up a wood
But I don’t need the Gar or the moat

Made the black Jack 21
Surprised I didn’t meet the gun
Got to bust 22
Will my luck run outta juice 
I’m hiding like a convict 
Honestly that’s how I live 
Really wasn’t ready to be famous 
That’s just how it is

Hermit niggas
Caught boy see em lurking nigga
Don’t think that I’m worthy to be sitting
With the working winnas 
Steady gonna pass
Now I guess I gotta hurry nigga
I don’t want to lag but I dont really wanna
Worry either 

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing me
Wanna party on my birthday 
I don’t wanna sit 
And be quiet on my birthday 
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay 
Flipping on a switch 
So I can party on my birthday 

(Verse 2)
To many problems 
I got a list 
I’m guessing that a closet wont solve em
I’ll make a fix
Steady tryna cover my trauma
Make a way to Nirvana 
I don’t got time for the drama
Dont make a sitch 
Here we go

Crash on the sofa
I lost a back bone
Steady falling into the boba 
It’s like a white room 
I’m waiting on a blast from the past
Think back to when I was brash
See myself being glad
I had the star shoes

Walking on the sidewalk
Blood on my sock
Rolling down hilly
For thrillies
Now that’s a blind spot
Waiting for the crash boom
Better ask the bad dude
I know the brother of who
They want to die too

There’s a fear of some judging 
But who cares
Followed by a feeling of something 
That’s not there
Almost like I make how I feel
About stares
I don’t wanna be in the corner 
When I’m scared

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing me
Wanna party on my birthday 
I don’t wanna sit 
And be quiet on my birthday 
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay 
Flipping on a switch 
So I can party on my birthday 

(Bridge)
Kinda wanna change
But I kinda wanna stay sound
Maybe I can wait
Gotta make a wave now (x2)


(Outro)
My time 
Cut a new way in a red line
Last night 
It was my fray 
For the last light

My right to the old blade
And the eye sight
It’s nice 
When a new face  
Gives a good fight 

Oh my
How much I’ve changed
In a year now
I just wanna live free
Grow a beard out
Music is a nice thing
When it’s not loud
I won’t ever make a scene 
When I step down (x2)

A Not So Special Guy (Prod. by LORD GHOST)

just a dude in his room. trying to make people less sad.
even though he himself is bitter and alone..

Earth is Small's insta https://www.instagram.com/shredsoflo/

(Lyrics)
Just a dude inside his bedroom
That's all I'll ever be
I'm not starving but I'll make do
If something were to cease
I love music but it ain't me
Maybe its where I should be
But I'd rather make my own destiny
With a blessing from above
I can do what I please
I maybe lacking in some numbers
But my checks are still green

I'm not braggin I'm still sitting on the sidelines
Don't got a will to be
If you don't know what I mean
You might have some extra ease
Something bout existence and a pressure of a failure
That could only ever happen if we don't keep it together
It's a thrill
But most will never feel
The same way 
To be honest 
I'm just happy
We don't feel the same pain
It's a bitch
Cause I keep fighting
Just so I can stay sane

It's an attitude
Got some shit to say
Even when I show gratitude
Nobody wants to say
That they made it with subterfuge
It's an issue with issues
When separated like tissues
It's a bigger picture
That we all keep consuming
For misuse

I cut em off like a part of me
Still surrounded by fallacy
There's a demon in my bedroom
That keeps telling me how to be
Start to question the moon
Are the seasons just make believe
Saying batter batter
Got me destracted on how I see
Cause I'm way to fuckin worried
If I'll make to summer week
Got a vision in my head
That I wont make it to anything
Yet I'm sitting in my bedroom
Trying to write something that can speak
To an individual that isn't me

I'm just a dude inside his bedroom
And that's all I'll ever be
I'm not starving but I'll make do
If something were to cease
I love music but it ain't me
Maybe its where I should be
But I'd rather make my own destiny
With a blessing from above
I can do what I please
I maybe lacking in some numbers
But my checks are still green

A Dude In His Room (Prod. by Earth is Small)

not a perfect man. no one is. so much goes on when no one can see.

Links to Sake
https://www.instagram.com/sakebythewater/             https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmURffc77e_LHErF_smQHxw/featured

(Lyrics)
I look at me no masterpiece
I think myself as trash at least
If there is more
Then let it show
I have to want it
Cant be broke 
Something else just has my brain
A downgrade from my old embrace
No resting for a killer now
One cut from me will put me down

There's a version of me
That I think that I cant let out
I'm more suited for a war that doesn't have funny crowds
So what am i supposed to do 
When I cant even shout
The only thing I do is close my door

(Hook)
So here I am again
Lonely soul and I lost all of my friends
We're they even right for me
I'll never know
I like to think they helped me grow
And I hope that they're doing better now
Even the one that was a fucking clown
I got the fuck up outta town

Spread blasphemy then ask for me
Butt end of a joke I see
Cant fess up to things that hurt
Play the victim and make it worse
Like I asked for this
Better yet don't ask for shit
I hide behind my bitterness
That's why I wrote those words

Before I had to listen to the things
They had to share
But lately I've been thinking
That I do not really care
And maybe I should try to
Cause the person is so close
Saw me as a child 
But has failed to see my growth

So I've been searching for my worth
Sometimes I believe that I'm dirt
But maybe that's a good thing
Since my god had made me from the earth
And if I were to die
I might go back inside
To the place where I was made from scratch
I'm sure I'll feel alive

(Outro)
So here I am again
Found a soul and I gained a friend
Will I be the one for them
I'd like to know
But I'm thinking that I've learned to grow
No more acting for the show
Grab my darling here we go
Get the fuck up outta town

I think we'll be alright
As long as we still strive
Make the most out of our downfalls
And never deal with withdrawals
I wont just close my door
I want to feel some more
Get closer than before
I just want to be better

Closed Doors (Prod. By  Sake by the Water)

Caution.. Have fun, but have caution..

I dont own the art

Beat by JBC.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTQMXl0PTCOHNYBdZ44NJkQ
https://twitter.com/jbcbeats_

Lyrics:

Welcome to the party   
Bitches off the molly
All these lil kids gonna follow
Like a trolley
Different points of views
For the trend to get in
Think you got a milly eyes
For a prize at the end
And then you call a friend
Tell em bout the win
Everybody acting nice
While they're sitting with a grin
Know you'll make it or you'll fail
This money make you frail
Any game of fame is balance
If you get it you'll prevail


They dont wanna see you fly
They dont wanna see you fly
When they see you rollin round up in the sky
They gon tug on your mothership
They gon tug on your mothership

Its what they gotta do
Keep you babies hypnotized
Swallowing the lies of youth
Carry on no time to try
More time to die
Show aggression just to fit into
A world thats filled with hate
But disguised as love to feed to you

It's like a business
Crossing you off a check list
Like which is more obedient
Feeding off our depression
Obsession
With having many powers to play
Every asshole with authority
Just wants you pay

With more than money
Give up all your time for the may
Thats a maybe 
At something that just may make you great
It's hazy
I know that I be sounded so crazy
But I see it all the time with my cousins
And lately
It hurts me
We wanna have it all
Make the call
Dont ever wanna pass the ball
Until we fall
It ain't over till its over
I'm thanking God cause he my chauffeur
Cause

They dont wanna see you fly
They dont wanna see you fly
When they see you rollin round up in the sky
They gon tug on your mothership
They gon tug on your mothership

Mothership (Prod. by JBC)

I grew up too fast. I didn't enjoy the little things in my younger years.. The times I do remember make me happy. I miss those times and those people. Live a little, don't let one thing keep you down. Just don't go crazy. I wrote this track in 2018.. Only song I've ever written on paper. I was going through some crazy times that I felt I should have done when I was younger. Now I'm older, wiser, and happier. 

The producer for this track is unknown. If you or someone you know produced this, please let me know so I can properly credit you. 

I don't own the artwork.


Lyrics
Honestly I never knew
How much I want to be like the other kids
Driving Texas Avenue 
2 AM with my friends gonna miss my shift
But I don’t really give a fuck now
I just wanna feel the love ya
Chillin with a bit of bud ya
No license that’s just fine though.

I start to feel it again
Smoking on gas with my friends
Never really done this before no

Tell me I’m losing my edge 
Loving this shit in my head
Never really done this before no

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Damn

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Shit

It seem like I stay twisted just to calm down
For years I hid inside my mind was still bound
Better days are here I got my friends now
And I don’t worry bout nothing no

We got the munchies 
We’re losing our shit
Getting too faded we lost all our sense
Loving myself it ain’t complicated
Dancing to indie we’re dedicated 
Calling in sick just to act like we’re kids
Buying in bulk just to act like we’re rich
Going to parties is overrated 
Driving for hours and then we stop

And while we listen to the radio
Thinking of the days I’m with my folks
The time has gone by so fast
And I’m still running from the past

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

I missed my youth
I missed my youth
Cause I was too scared to fall
I was too scared to fall

Missed Youth (2018)

Sometimes people come to you and are willing to make a decision based on their emotions. I would prefer to help someone by just being there for them and talking than taking advantage of their emotional state.

I do not own the artwork.

Darling On The Run (Prod. Chikyu) (2017)

some things don't happen when you want them to. sometimes you make big mistakes. get over it, move on, and do better cause life isn't about focusing on one thing.

Xavier: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrIZX6MSaUgyxzr27loJkDw

Lyrics:
Wish I did things a little differently
Got my regrets there a piece of me
Now I'm sitting in my dirt
Looking up a people questioning my worth
I'm so plain 
Think I might've lost my brain
I'm so lame
Would you wanna call my name?

Chilling with a lump in my throat
Calling for a bitch that wanna take my poke
Maybe I don't feel that bad
Or maybe I'm more confident when I'm sad
I'll come through
If I like you its times two
Maybe times four if the feeling is more
But I doubt that
Sorry but I tend to get bored
Cause I'm in love with a girl
But we don't talk anymore
It's so shitty 
But I don't need your pitty
Cause I'm still trash
And I mad you feel bad
And I know it 
Yeah I know it
And I'm sorry
I'm so sorry

I wanted this time to be different
I honestly hoped I had changed
She's killing me slowly
I'm feeling so lonely
And now I'm just stuck with the pain
I'm sad
You're sad right
You're glad
For this night
You knew that we weren't something
But you let me stay through that night
I'm mad, for my life
I know, we weren't fine
You held me closely
Then you told me that I would be alright

There's something (x4)
There's something you wanted to say
I'm running (x3)
I'm running cause I just didn't wanna face

That fact that I didn't feel shit
For me or for my close friends
Sitting back feeling dead at my desk
sixteen, why the fuck am I depressed
I was the bad guy
That's why
Loved too hard
And then died met again with a broken heart
I'm so selfish 
I just wanted the love
But it seems to fade when I'm smoking some bud
Now I hate this
Nothing ever seems fun
Except looking at the barrel of a loaded gun
Now 21
Thinking that I found my world
Loves the way I sing even loves my curls
Blessing or a dream it don't matter to me
Cause I'm already addicted like some nicotene
Still sad
But I started being glad
Of everthing that I'll have and what I've had
I'm at peace
Thinking that I'll still be me
When I'm finished with my life and my destiny
It's all real
It's not done yet so I'll chill
Whats coming next I don't...

Some Times Aren't The Right Time (Prod. by Xavier) (2020)

Questioning reality? Create a new one. Only you can change your life and what you choose will be on you. Sometimes you gotta give certain things up in order to create that new reality you wish for..

Check out the wonderful person who made this song possible
https://www.youtube.com/c/prodchibi

Lyrics:
You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change

I really love you but it's getting hard to chase
Sometimes I wonder if you even like my face
Take is slow because I know were out of time
I need affection so I need you by my side

You wanna go you wanna ride changing the pace
Gimme a show switching the tide I'm in the race
They're gonna break ya
Come around radiant the fake love
Make a sound then you're gonna wake up
Spit it out know you wanna say sum

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

Breaking through I'm making progress
All the lucy got me feeling nauseous
You're so lovely sitting in a sun dress
I still love you when you're speaking nonsense
In the shade
On the beach I'm watching waves 
I don't really like the taste
Recently I like to hate
Hiding in a cage
Filling up with rage

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change (x2)

Bending and breaking
I wanna know if we're cool
Shimmy and shaking
Thinking I might be a fool
How do I take it
I gotta follow the rules
(rules, rules)

You said you miss me
Said you like it when I stay
Never easy
When you have to go away
I've been trying
Trying to get a better stage
Started crying
You don't like it when I change 

I really love you but it's getting hard to chase
(Bending and breaking)
Sometimes I wonder if you even like my face
(I wanna know if we're cool)
(Shimmy and shaking)
Take is slow cause I know were out of time
(Thinking I might be a fool)
(How do I take it)
I need affection so I need you by my side
(I gotta follow the rules)

Shimmy & Shaking (Prod. Chibi) (2019)

push yourself to be faster than your past

check out pandrs https://www.youtube.com/c/pandrs

Fast Enough (prod. pandrs)(2019)

So so tired

Please go check out Oui lele: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7EXnSnFYB6LcHaO-B-XC-g
https://soundcloud.com/ouilele

I DO NOT OWN THE ARTWORK!

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
They way 
I look
The way I act
And how I'm shook up

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
The way 
I talk
The way I move
The way I walk oh

Incoming disaster
Calling up a friendly pastor
Gotta repent
Get up later just to go reminisce
Be a fake just to light up them kids
Tell em to be bold
Never let up never get cold
You been sitting in the back row
But that don't mean you gotta grow mold

We're kinda the same
Staying strong just to get through the game
Nothings better than guessing the weather
It's kinda rainy and I feel the pain
Of everything 
Something bad
I can feel it creepin' from the past
Lately I been getting really mad
Got a demon crawling on my back
And

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
They way 
I look
The way I act
And how I'm shook up

I'm so tired
I'm so tired of
The way 
I talk
The way I move
The way I walk oh

im so tired (Prod. by Oui lele)

Just doing me or whatever
 

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