2022.. keep it going.. life is getting worse since 2003  born... alone now.

Prod- Kado


I’m not doing well I’m not feeling like myself 
Haven’t slept for several days feel it wearing on my health
Living in a haze with my shelf life expired 
Made a few attempts but it seems I’m a survivor 
Had my feet to the fire for my entire existence listen life Is a prison unless you live with no limits 
God as my witness I know I’m going to hell
Till the day I die you’ll find that I’m the flyest in the commonwealth 
The fyest that I ever felt,
Got my lyrics tatted 
Give a fuck about a Gucci belt 
This shits automatic 
Been a while since I hurt myself I’m proud to say I turned around a life that was quickly going south 
Now I just sit around and watch the world around me degrade 
As I prepare to be impaired for all the rest of my days 
Sick of running scared with my fears im face to face 
Cause I want to get better but I’m set in my ways


Lately I don’t care if you hate me 
I’m just thinking that maybe you’ll miss me around
I cant wait to be alright 
I just want to live my life
I don’t really need another chance to let you down 

Now I been going through a phase
On the search for better days
Patterns flip into a labyrinth this life is such a maze 
It’s amazing that i got nearly as far as I did
That I avoided Jackson state or getting stuck with a kid 
It’s my flock i ain’t about to let no wolves in my pen 
Man I been there and done that, quick to forget 
Where I’m at and where I been and what I’ve done in the booth 
Now I feel like Paul Peirce I’m the motherfucking truth 
Ain’t no jealousy inside of  me I’m proud of my friends 
Ima live the life I want until the day that it ends 
It tends to be that people leave and maybe that’s for the best 
If you not coming on the ride then we’re not sharing success 
I’m not sharing my press, in my prime this the pinnacle 
Time flyin by still cynical, It’s cyclical 
The way that I’ve been feeling so don’t ask  Where my head is 
I been saying for a minute I been blessed with a death wish

Degrade

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bert - caffeine

mask of woe: halloween

the night he came home

COMBINATION LOCK

the monster still lurks [prod. combination lock]

@guardinmusic
@imnegativezer0

lyrics:
ive been saving this for the weekend
an eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions
my hair is split, im cutting the lose ends
my brain is shit, im tired of trying
im sick of this patience 
logic comes to dying
i knew you were lying but i didnt care
you were something to stop my self hatred
i didnt dare ask a question
you're always on my mind
intervention for loving too many times
did i mention this pain is a way of life?
you learn to live with it
or you let it eat you alive

id kill myself
just to be myself
dont even ask the question
all ill be is a burden

who the fuck am i
just another psychopathic little prick you decide
it's much better here without me cause you're feeling alive
all i ever did was love you but everything dies 

there's a monster in my head that's rippin' me apart 
vacant spaces in the places where we both would start
to separate and every day i blow my candles out
i sit inside but that's not something you  could care about
my heartbeat has grown tired of the wind
if you don't love me anymore than please don't bother to attend 
i'm a waste of energy i'll never see the point in this
arms length, this love is tragic, i'm not something you would miss

i'm so fucking lost without you
they don't really care about you

Follow me <3

before the storm (ft. guardin) [prod. negative zero]

finally finished up this extremely stressful semester, and figured I would release this. shoutout to @iamsidxkick for the beat, this man is a fucking god. 

I'm planning to start putting my music on Spotify/iTunes/Youtube, and I'm gonna have an EP out sometime soon, keep your eyes open.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9GaMIgoqy4

would you? (prod. sidxkick)

this whole beat was made with sounds my followers on instagram sent me. follow me on instagram (@bae.oh.wolf) to be apart of the next community beat :)

@playboi.lopez - sent me the fresh prince vocals 
@_ishaan_805_ - sent me the sound of a phone hanging up 
@foxxer.productions - sent me the tapping sound 
@wunlayer - sent me the guitar sample 
@break_a_rib - sent me the snare
@lizzyvcarpio - sent me the kick

beowulf - i don't need him (community beat)[NOW ON SPOTIFY!]

S P O T I F Y

beowulf - the answer is love

guitar by : @waitingoncisco

lyrics:

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

if i'm a star i'm burnt out and looking down
just cause she love me right now
don't mean she'll always be around
always stoned and in my house 
don't got nobody i can count on 
just stay tucked off by myself
oh i 
only get in my zone when i get on my own
all alone
she hit me up at all
and i shut off my phone
i go ghost
i swear she got those words you feel in your bones
who would have known
the prettiest face would have the ugliest soul

yeah but im a loverboy what'd you expect from me
i swear pretty girls will be the death of me
step to me i'm in the sky
baby i been hearing lies 
all my fucking life
so i always treat them nice
so when they fuck me over i don't even think twice
i just cut em off i don't even want a slice
imma leave her blocked
wish my heart weren't so soft 
wish you weren't my first fuck
all the shit is so dumb

now i just find safety in how 
these memories start all fading
put a knife inside my back
then ask why i'm so filled with hatred

anything but give you space and i'd rather erase myself
put the hurt of my back
chasing feeling's never helps

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you, 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

ghostboy. (with waitingoncisco)

beowulf - hopeless 

a bootleg boy exclusive.

listen on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/album/7pIt4Zur73rH4v3ck4FsMn

beowulf - hopeless

S P OT I F Y

💙MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW💙

i see your face everytime that the lights low
and im telling you im okay what do i know
its been a minute since i known what i want
I keep my head low like what do i know

Telling you things that i shouldnt
but what will i know
Telling you things that i shouldnt
n maybe youll break me what is up and i

know thats its all in my mind now
take time my time i know it wont work out
broke lights my light it wont shine now
damn lies the lies that i find now

telling me everything that you dont like
insane the pain when i know i
I know the call it wont end right
sold just soul just so that i know now

telling me that you hate me, i dont want to hate me
dont know watta say when i say girl save me
all i want to know how you've been lately
baby im lame boy, i know i hate me

I didnt want to save my soul tonight
fuck it imma lie imma say im alright
dont know what to say when i see the light
dont know what to say when i see the light

i see your face everytime that the lights low
and im telling you im okay what do i know
its been a minute since i known what i want
I keep my head low like what do i know

Fallen So Deep Without You (Prod By. Born Hero)

💙MUSIC VIDEO💙

i hope everyone's having a good day.

I have been desperately searching for clarity
but lately I cannot see much of anything
and it's been scaring me..

wake me up when I'm better please

I have been chasing my dreams like they're all that I got
so I don't think of all that I've lost
shit, I've lost nearly everything

momma said it gets better
she said it gets better
please, give it some time
I promise son you gonna shine

but when I look into her eyes
all I see is her pain
but somehow she's still okay

don't know what to say
I guess I feel guilty
i caused of a lot of it
and that shit kills me

my soul is filthy
emotions are crippling
broken within
don't know if you could fix me

I'm way past hoping and wishing

and I don't know
what to do with my self
think I'm falling apart

and I'm so scared 
to try and love someone else
cause there's no love
for myself in my heart

I'm just feeling overwhelmed
driving home late at night in my car
cause I know that I made this hell
I may run but I wont get too far

I won't get too far

clarity

sorry about the delay on this track, i hope you guys vibe w this 💙

watching as the leaves fall
summer never seems to be here for too long
but the days are hard to recall
it feels as if I blink and anothers gone

ive been way too distant
from the shit that I've been feeling 
it's alright
but it's not fine

and I been getting twisted
sipping whiskey reminiscing
all night
like it's all fine

I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to tear down all your walls
just to eventually desert you

but even best intentions can't
right my wrongs

if I could then 
know that I would stay and fight
to get back what we've lost

but I'm too scared to make the first move
so I'll just sit and let this silence say it all
as if these walls could talk

I can feel you in my heartbeat
I swear it's tryna pound it's way out my chest
and it's shown no sign of stopping
sometimes what makes me feel alive can scare me half to death


ive been way too distant
from the shit that I've been feeling 
it's alright
but it's not fine

and I been getting twisted
sipping whiskey reminiscing
all night
like it's all fine

I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to break down all your walls
and eventually desert you

but best intentions can't
right all my wrongs

if I could then 
know that I would stay and fight
to get back what we've lost

but I'm too scared to make the first move
so I'm just listening as this silence says it all
as if these walls could talk

so they can say what we're both thinking
this love is gone

but were just too hung up to leave yet
but I can't talk
it's like I'm having trouble breathing
through this fog

thats separating you and me 
from what we lost

as if these walls could talk (prod. cashxstash)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-today-lyrics

wow i cant believe i got truett to do a feature verse without any credit  what a good guy

Today

"I only make music because I'm confused and I don't have the money for therapy yet" 3/5...

Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @caustyk
Artwork: @digitalyams (on twitter)

MUSIC VIDEO ON YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QT_vcYlqgko

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"I Gravitate Your Soul”

Lyrics-

I hope, I don’t break
Barricade all the ways
For you to get in
Who am I kidding? 
The only life that I’ve lived I’ve failed in
Nobody wants to be me
Everyone wants me to be alone
I don’t really wanna be 
I only feel like a peep clone
I’m in deep need of some rest
I bet you didn’t know that I didn’t enjoy sex
I only make music because I’m confused and I don’t have the money for therapy yet
I’m cold, you're alone
I gravitate your soul
I’m prone, to pain
You said you're on your way 
On your way
“I’m outside of your driveway” 
at my house but you're miles away
You don’t even have to say a thing cause I’m
Incapable of feeling that way
Love comes with happiness, But I’m in pain 
Trying to care but you won’t say a thing
If you leave my heart I will erase your name
I wanna know, what I am screaming for
Leave your broken alibis at the door 
You ask me if I want to be your friend 
But I can’t because I wanna be much more, to you
I’m cold, you're alone
I gravitate your soul
I’m prone, to pain
You said you're on your way

As I Walk Into the Night

I Gravitate Your Soul

Other Services <3

I Gravitate Your Soul [prod. Caustyk]

Ekeon: https://soundcloud.com/ekeonkilledit
Taurs: https://soundcloud.com/taurs

WEEPINGS
blue iris 
can't disguise this
I knew that she was a demon from the pilot
kills my mind when
she's beside him
think its best if I just waste away in silence 
~
oh no it has started again
losing myself and some more of my friends
why cry at the foot of your bed
resist the temptations, the thoughts in your head

and i think imma need some to space roam
every corner that I turn can't find a home
claustrophobic when i'm feeling all alone
lungs compressed to fill my chest fill up and I'm left an empty bowl
~
but I don't know where i'm going right about now
wandering aimlessly around the town
lost in my head, just waiting to be found
lie in my bed and just blow some more clouds

EKEON
But Just blow some more clouds
i've been waiting patiently to burn this shit down
like what's happening now
I just wanna fade away I guess I will frown
~
Blue iris I'm behind it
I just wanna fall asleep in your eye lids
Move silent cause I won't mind it
I just wanna fade away cannot find it
What the fuck are you talking about
I can't feel when i burn this shit down
I don't want you around cannot frown
I just wanna feel when your around

WEEPINGS
blue iris 
can't disguise this
I knew that she was a demon from the pilot
kills my mind when
she's beside him
think its best if I just waste away in silence 
~
oh no it has started again
losing myself and some more of my friends
why cry at the foot of your bed
resist the temptations, the thoughts in your head

Pilot (feat. Ekeon)

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS: https://fanlink.to/DONNIFER

LYRICS:
What will I do without you in the picture
I don't have a clue whatsoever there's no scripture on
How to not kill yourself when time just drags on
How to hold back tears when your head is a sink with the faucet on
I just drip drip 
And you float away 
Yet I still stay 
While I trip trip
Into my grave

Fell in love and now I'm fractured 
Back to square one
I know I'm really just a bastard and that's no fun
If there's anything I've mastered it's losing love
Happens in every single factor
I give up

I don't really deserve a thing
I don't really deserve a break
I feel like I messed up big
I'm the type to bend and break
And I'll take this to my grave 
Honestly, you'll always be my bae

True
Fat Facts

Honestly, I know when I finally go to sleep 
That the dreams I have are really something that I've seen
Two broken halves and all these tears roll down your cheeks
And I feel so bad
And I don't know I've been here for weeks

Thinking the same damn thing
Singing the same damn song
Trying to live my life 
I can't make it long 
Thinking the same damn thing
Singing the same damn song
Trying to live my life 
I can't make it long 

Fell in love and now I'm fractured 
Back to square one
I know I'm really just a bastard and that's no fun
If there's anything I've mastered it's losing love
Happens in every single factor
I give up
Fell in love and now I'm fractured 
Back to square one
I know I'm really just a bastard and that's no fun
If there's anything I've mastered it's losing love
Happens in every single factor
I give up

I don't really deserve a thing
I don't really deserve a break
I feel like I messed up big
I'm the type to bend and break
And I'll take this to my grave 
Honestly, you'll always be my bae

without you

without you 😪💔 (prodbytheswitch)

IS   /   AC   /   LBZ
still trying to learn how to be human

rest easy @deco-slush

hmu for engineering/features/beats.
best way to reach me is my twitter or email

go fuck with the homies ♥♥♥



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@guardinmusic
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would you? (prod. sidxkick)

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