@mental
prod. @yashio20k + @rewind214

[mental]
you hate me and you love me 
but to me it's the same thing 
i only ever numb it 
i wish that i could change things 
i'm bleeding and i'm blushing 
cause everything is breaking 
i'm trying not to cut me 
i'm disgusting and nothing is okay

i wonder if i fucked it up or not 
i wonder if i can ignore these thoughts 
i wonder if there's any point getting up
i wonder if love really feels like it's love
you know me better than everyone
it's been three days since i've seen the sun
i'm running but what am i running from
i'm crumbling one kiss and i'll turn to dust

i'll never go back again
i'll never go back i'll never go back
i'll never go back again
i'll never go back i'll never go back

okay - mental

@y4ndere 
https://youtu.be/iBzyNcpJLIM?si=dtkKtAuUX1nvMFYB - amv !

(knew that u would break my heart)
(knew that u would break my heart)

back again
its like everytime i fall right in
swear that i cant leave you
o-our hearts as one girl i need you
all of this was just for you
why do i feel so confused
yea i dont know why i had any trust
w- w- w- when you never even cared for us
useless, i feel worthless
so insecure im hurtin
all those nights waiting for your call
all those "i love you's" never mattered at all
leavin, im leaving you
hurt me, i feel so used
hate me, i know you do
but im crawling back to you

(leavin, im leaving you
hurt me, i feel so used
hate me, i know you do
but im crawling back to you)


i dont understand, why you dont see me
time and time again, feels like im bleeding
guess its supposed to always end like this
all the feelings that i had, guess its really what it is
throw me away n-now 
cant stay the same now
im scared of the future, dont want no changes
me and you till the end i cannot save it

useless, i feel worthless
so insecure im hurtin
all those nights waiting for your call
all those "i love you's" never mattered at all
leavin, im leaving you
hurt me, i feel so used
hate me, i know you do
but im crawling back to you

@afterstoryx @remedysnuts @1straycats

✰ Back 2 Uu (っ˕ -｡) AMV IN DESC (yandere)

girl u can take some time
i know u wanna b alone
ill b by ur side even if u really wont
its hard to find a reason not to stay at home
we'll b alright when everything is said and done
i keep trying to fix it but i know its a process
ill b feeling better i jus wish it would hurt less
i dont know if i can change all the things that i said
but u know u left me bleeding u pushed me to the edge

what if i let u down, will u still come around
i always try not to speak, but i still hear all the sound
i dont think i can escape from the chains that im bound
im just waiting for a sign, got me screaming so loud
when u hit my phone i keep ignoring it
can u tell me that u hate me ya im knowing it
when u ask me what im doing i dont know it yet
so sick of being treated like im unimportant yea 

girl u can take some time
i know u wanna b alone
ill b by ur side even if u really wont
its hard to find a reason not to stay at home
we'll b alright when everything is said and done
i keep trying to fix it but i know its a process
ill b feeling better i jus wish it would hurt less
i dont know if i can change all the things that i said
but u know u left me bleeding u pushed me to the edge

by ur side @yashio @decago

@mental
@pw4prez
@kiryano

[coldspades]
i know it's wrong, but i can't help but to want you
keep it inside, these feelings i just can't tell you
wish i could go back, but there's things you can't undo
see your face in my dreams, i wake up wishing it's not true
please don't look at me with those eyes
we can pretend and you can tell me all your pretty lies
can't let you go cause i just don't know how to say goodbye
if i'm not with you, i don't want it, it's a waste of time

[mental]
i wonder where you've been
i don't know how to reach you
or how to see you
or how to believe you
you're playing with my head
i'm nothing but your target
i'm just an object
so come rip me apart then
so many feelings... so misunderstood
i'm trying to stop, i know that i should
you're all that i want so why would i look?
once i had a heart but you have it for good

spotify

pretend ft. mental (sochi & kiryano)

prod by @2variant

just broke in annouced bitch
blood on my blouse sick
he put cough drops in his drink 
boy think he s on the team 
just got this lavender colored pills 
got me thinking of the south 
heard she looking for some thrills
i’ll shove that forty in her mouth
bitch i’ve tough i’ve seen it all
seem like it was not enough 
so tell me what u think
tell me what it feels like
what it feels like?
i can’t tell got my lips sewn
pierce trough my skin
crack the seal get me gone 

rotted from the inside but the outside pretty
keep lying trough ur teeth its so obvious to see
u can find me fucked up back of da pharmacy bitch
we can make out on the molly just don’t call it chemistry bby 
i can feel my death commin
on stage jumpin like a bunny 
eyes on prize im finna rob it 
u take my soul so gently 
heartbeat rush it’s been a minute 
bandaid head to toe like a mummy 
look the eyes my eyes rollin 
fell asleep in the party

Hollow Anthem ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁 @variant @37azami

intothesky @1akura @chrxmey

Trance rock fusion album... Pounding beats, wild guitar solos and beautiful keys. 

08 Ascent

HERE WE ARE

thanks to akura for working on this with me and to all my friends that stuck with me
@foryourheart

https://open.spotify.com/album/7zsqkrsdIQU9py5pnk7Mte?si=B93EKFApT6GKDPL9uvA6Tw
https://loveismisery.bandcamp.com/album/failure
1. cutthroat
2. I was right
3. bury me
4. looking through me 
5. who will fix me now
6. die in your arms

failure @foryourheart

some of my favorite beats from this past year. thank you to everyone who worked with me. more soon. enjoy :)

w/ neohn, rewind, xyjae, decago, promise, akura, kyoa, client, moz, hartfxlt
0:00 - @rewind214
1:05 - @xyj4e
1:45 - @contenttttt @moz-103259352
2:37 - solo
3:34 - @neohnq
4:40 - @prod_promise @moz-103259352
5:34 - @xyj4e @moz-103259352
6:27 - @rewind214
7:20 - @decago
8:27 - @rewind214
9:30 - @1akura @kyoakyo
10:28 - @hartfxlt
11:25 - solo
12:32 - @moz-103259352
13:48 - @xyj4e

Re:View '25 clips w/ rewind, xyjae, neohn, decago, promise, akura, kyoa, client, moz, hartfxlt

This version of Synthwave is more is ambient and atmospheric gives straight chills. The melody and the chords are really catchy. This maybe be a part of my debut album possibly.