trauma & synths

ch2rms - a message to myself (soma)

i gotta change my ways
can the gods take me away
all this pain that i take 
got me like kurt cobain 

i gotta change my ways
can the gods take me away
all this pain that i take 
got me like kurt cobain 

i’m longing for you
longing for you

heart broke in two

i can’t live without you
i can’t live without you

i gotta change my ways
can the gods take me away
all this pain that i take 
got me like kurt cobain 

i gotta change my ways
can the gods take me away
all this pain that i take 
got me like kurt cobain

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8. violet
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15. grimgar
17. sochi

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ft. @xayaroth , prod @itsshiiranoh @overoveroverover

ion feel the same
i feel like u dont even feel the same
my feelings in a cage 
for that reason i hate my face 
my jealousy got taste 
thats what i fucking hate 
and i cant fucking change
i just hope you feel the same 

@xayaroth :
i hope u feel the same 
dark thought it fills my brain 
i always wanted u 
why did it have to change 
been holding on for so long so long
try to move on move on 
ik it my fate my fate 
jealousy got taste got taste 
try to move on but its hard 
left alone when its dark 
gen 5 on me in the yard 
back to sqaure one with no heart
what me decay tare apart
it was my fault from the start

@nepmir :
yuh, gen 5 in my fucking yard 
@xayaroth got a AR
wtf do dese niggas be on?? 
i-i want a shoulder to lean on
i want her for a reason 
ay fuck it make it like 10 
ay-ay fuck it make like 20
multiple that shit by 40  
ay dese niggas so trim 
im hittin they main bitch finna flim 
ay-ay 
talk to you, i dont feel 
i just want you to keep it real 
you dont even keep it real

ion feel the same
i feel like u dont even feel the same
my feelings in a cage 
for that reason i hate my face 
my jealousy got taste 
thats what i fucking hate 
and i cant fucking change
i just hope you feel the same

@xayaroth : 
i hope u feel the same 
dark thought it fills my brain 
i always wanted u 
why did it have to change 
been holding on for so long so long
try to move on move on 
ik it my fate my fate 
jealousy got taste got taste 
try to move on but its hard 
left alone when its dark 
gen 5 on me in the yard 
back to sqaure one with no heart
what me decay tare apart
it was my fault from the start

my jealousy got taste (shiiranoh over)

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시아르 어드밴스드 또는 알비 어드밴스드Tape soon （＾＿－）
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Hold me close baby
I know you know We meant to be ..

no, can't go no breaking free
and you broke my heart 
so you can keep it ..

I got flaws I can't change 
oh well ..

but I know you got the same 
what does that entail ?

hanging by a thread
still keep weight on me ..

will you wait for me ?
don't Change on me ..

ㅤ
we gon break it down
Drop the fiction .. 

wished that We could talk
but Its no time for reminiscence ..

I been out of town
know they miss it ..

She can't hold it anymore
say do you need assistance ?

been so distanced, lonely
Said that they would be there 
but I know that they won't hold me ..

Smoking on Some blissful, know me
said that she don't fw me 
but still she kissing on me .. ⟡

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hold me close baby
I know u know we meant to be ..

Can't go, no breaking free
but you broke my heart 
so you can keep it ..

I got flaws I can't change 
oh well ..

but I know you got the same
what does that entail ?

hanging by a thread
still keep weight on me ..

will you wait for me ?
Don't change on me ..

ㅤ
hold me close bby
broke my heart, so u Can keep it .. ♡⸝⸝

got flaws I can't change, 
oh well .. 

Got the same
what does that entail ?

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Hands Onmy Waist (Feat.4bliss)

@jequya
was supposed to be on the album/tape but didnt make it
(lyrics)
dont ever dare to make contact me u were never like me to begin with
stay in your place i want nothing to do with u come back cause i stay winning
realize ive always been having the swag everyday is a new beginning
idgaf within all of this drama im only for me n my meaning
u dont know 
(what i know)
on my own 
(all alone)
and if im gone 
(are you fine on your own?)
 and when im in pain are you willing to wait?
i believe me in
dont need u to believe in me
u call it mental illness i call it something so clean
fuck all your pointless conversations what does this all mean
dont know why youre scared of me?
i dont know what u think of meiiiiii dont know what u think of me
(why do u assume im mean?)
you dont know what ive seen-the things i see in me
allofthedrugsiconsumeisntme
allofmyfriendaredeadwhyamitakingmorechemicalsjusttofeelsomesortofway
yeah its getting in my way
im on top the bitch sway
i was the only one in my way
i got trust issues dont what to make
of you and i dont know what i could say