Fluid in my Lung

Winter track list

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2023

Don’t read it because she’s lying (she knows it so she shows it). Don’t think this much at home. If u got platitudes in yo head…..JUST DONT SAY EM.

Feels like a lie like my heart is going to pump out of my chest. A lie about my conventionality to people that don't matter, also a lie about my growth to people that do. A lie about my person to everyone. There is a schism of where I am and where I want to be that can only be achieved by long term investment but I just crave crave crave crave to be instantly gratified. LOL. I should not delete this stupid caption to acknowledge the shame of self-betrayal and the wound it leaves. I write this to depart from the dead skin but not dispose of it. Read and weep at All these dumb platitudes that aren't even funny. Because all these funny insincere words are just me lying to everyone like I used to. To everyone's long-term detriment but to postpone a short-term realization of shame. Because I am literally too guilty all the time to even bear a moderate average amount of shame. I want to be stronger than this but I'm trapped in the cyclical need for strength to handle the shame I feel constantly but lie about to not confront because Ultimately I lack that strength but I need the strength, I need to break the cycle. Sorry for the dumb caption originally. I want to be as funny as I can even when I'm incapable because I don't want to be alone. I need constant validation even though I am self aware of the fact I should try to be strong enough to stand alone with an internal understanding that I am valid. I want this to be temporary, so I am sorry for the time being where I am not where I want to be. I will achieve this growth by the correct and most sustainable means, however long it takes.

FebMar 23

mp3 dvd rumble pack guitar

@bydion
@shotti
@adioboy

1Team ❤️  You

Gosling

Gosling (Feat. Dion) (Prod. By Shotti & Facy)

Hate One An Otter

posting this to set a new bar for myself

I have been absent from making music firstly because my computer had been broken since the last time I posted. The second is because everything I had made has not been up to my standards. after all, I want to make music I like and this track is a track that I like (ill probably hate it in a year or so but whatever). I have been trying to make an ep for a while now but I keep on dumping tracks because I don't think I'm good enough. BUT I'm improving, all be it slowly im improving. hopefully, that ep will see the light of day before summer rolls in. thank you for listening to me and I hope you enjoy(ed) this track
- you're friend torobi


Edit: the .flp track didn’t save so yeah

Infinite Things

Darkside

Music For The Chaotically Depressed (Nightcore, Emo, Breakcore, Jungle)

DNA PLAY (feat. Bladee & Ecco2k) hardstyle edit Varg2™

picture of you

DRAIN STORY

@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

cover by (https://www.instagram.com/kkkbbbrrryyy/  @buffalobang) (prod by @danlrk)
in too deep someway i gotta get out
and the secret that i keep u want me to shut my mouth
and the story that i tell i know its been awhile
if u ask me shit again i will always cut u out

gonna make it all burn
gotta wait for ur turn
u will get what u deserve
took a pill now its a blur

thought u were the one
everytime that we be speaking we not having fun
i can tell u that i love you but u always run
tell me how it feels to always be there
and u tell me how u feel and u know that i care
tell me things that u have done n i wish u were here
and u know that i miss you
i dont wanna fight


went too far, but ill go there again
ill be so close but i wont be your friend
fell too hard
i lost it all and ill lose til i win
went too far, but ill go there again
ill give you everything, ill give you bone and skin
fell too hard
i lost it all and ill lose til i win



thought u were the one
everytime that we be speaking we not having fun
i can tell u that i love you but u always run
tell me how it feels to always be there
and u tell me how u feel and u know that i care
tell me things that u have done n i wish u were here
and u know that i miss you
i dont wanna fight

bone and skin + buffalobang (dan larkin)

i can't even carry my shoulders

the telephone projects - friday confessions

watching stars at sheeleigh park

Short Song

tell me what station I should meet you at, what city you want me to fly toward, where in the universe you want me to be, and I will meet you there, without hesitation

Juno Soundtrack - Ellen Page and Michael Cera - Anyone Else But You

Stream/download: https://lnk.to/sesamestreet

prod by brandonfinessin

Sesame Street

Sesame Street (prod. BrandonFinessin)

Tout crédit revient à l’auteur nekobolo (sasanomaly)

Vidéo originale Youtube: 
https://youtu.be/eOKODfx5INg

nekobolo - life game

思い出そうとしてる
重力が血流を止める
悲しいなって声に出す前から
それが嘘だって分かる

冷たい砂に祈りを埋める
渇いたまま僕は歩く
使い古しの言葉だけ吐いて
涙に溺れようとした

この空の何処に手を伸ばせばいいのだろう
「神さまお願い」なんて今さらだ
だって、もしも奇跡が起こっても
それじゃ足りないんだよ

痛覚を無くした肌に
君の名前を刻もう
君を笑顔にする力さえ無かったことを
覚えているように

夕暮れに君の影が広がってく
全ての街に夜を運ぶ
ねえ、僕が奇跡を望むなら
これじゃ足りないんだよ

君が見た空にいつか僕は還る
そこにはきっと誰もいない
ねえ、僕が奇跡を望むなら
それは叶わない

この空の何処に手を伸ばせばいいのだろう
「神さまお願い」なんて今さらだ
だって、もしも奇跡が起こっても
それじゃ足りないんだよ

足りないんだよ

奇跡が起こっても 初音ミク

【飛行船】

歪な輪郭
鏡に映るの
誰にも見えない

飛行船 落ちる 落ちる
僕らを乗せて 落ちる 落ちる

知らない人達の声が
溶けて混ざってく幻覚

飛行船 落ちる 落ちる
僕らを乗せて 落ちる 落ちる 夢へ

光が 氷の粒が ほら
消し飛んでく
機械仕掛けの空 止まるよ
落ちる 落ちる

飛行船 落ちる 落ちる
僕らを乗せて 落ちる 落ちる 夢

飛行船 初音ミク

i wish this was about sum1 but its not.

prod: yandere
vocals: kerosene + crescent
lyrics written by: yandere + crescent

Stream us on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/5EyYculuuhEIKCu9IClSV7

Crystal Statues

Lose Control ft. kerosene, crescent (prod.yandere)

xxxxlivelylaughlylovely

sad days

original: https://soundcloud.com/sebseb122/bonerr

BONErr (pop punk flip)

prod @januaryyy
vocals by @odel007 and me
mix n master by me

stfu! x_x ft. odel (p. jxlyy)

You're Pretty and Everyone Likes You

everyone i know has magic powers - traptraptrap

unrendered thoughts

songz 

puppy diss track

2019-2022

new music 
@444kota1 IG 
4kota (seven3x)  soundcloud

unrendered thoughts

last friday