https://youtu.be/3Y8Qd_QmZPo
https://youtu.be/3Y8Qd_QmZPo
https://youtu.be/3Y8Qd_QmZPo

lyrics: 
(lava)
fuck myself, i hate you
you left me, in my thoughts
what was i to you, nothing i guess
leave me to myself
ill be lonely forever
i hate me, leaving me nothing
you never cared, stop myself speaking

SADNESS and HATRED ft. KILLMOORE + XSTAZY (VIDEO IN DESC)

FALLEN ANGELS

lyrics:
im done with this shit
im done with this shit
i wish i dont exist
thoughts in my brain makes it go quick

tell me that you dont know
tell me that you love me
tell me all these lies so i can feel happy
tell me that im ignorant sad i feel
tell me all my faults
sadness keeps me sad

sadness in my head i feel,
you dont feel like anything
why dont you just leave me
im done with it

im fucked up now
fucked now
i cant change the things that make me who i am

i am a failure yeah i know
baby i tried so hard not to care about you

tell me that you dont know
tell me that you love me
tell me all these lies so i can feel happy
tell me that im ignorant sad i feel
tell me all my faults
sadness keeps me sad

when will i be better (im a mess)

PAINT THE WORLD GREEN W/ MALWARE

https://www.instagram.com/benzosaint/
https://www.instagram.com/benzosaint/
https://www.instagram.com/benzosaint/

woke up in hell + @benzosaint

lyrics:
i cant feel a thing in my head
its going down
i cant feel a thing
come around come around
everyday i feel its the same
these sad thoughts, plague my mind will it ever go away

i dont know if i can feel this any fucking more
i dont wanna go any further fucking more

its all in my head
go away, go away,
go away, its all in my head

go away, go away
go away, its all in my head

i cant feel a thing im stuck inside my fucking head
i dont know why i must be like this, why i must be like this
dont leave me, i cant handle this

its all in my head

find someone else
i can't forget you
my time is up
no way i come back

everyone in my way
i dont feel okay

fucking up my life
nothing seems right
not another time
i dont have the time

everyone against me
i dont wanna be me
cover my eyes, cover my eyes

i would find a way to fuck it up
no way i dont

cracks in my heart
i cant find way to keep on going
there is no light left in me
lost all my hope

fuck myself, i hate looking in the mirror
cant you see my fears? 
i feel, calling for your help; i can't

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i feel so fucking hopeless

cracks in my heart

don't call me (ft. tommy blve x txkka)

the marks on my fists from the anger
within me, i feel empty
you tricked me
where is your empathy
you won't care about me
i don't need to fucking doubt

i dont know
tired in my eyes i rest, i cannot fucking sleep
i told you
writing on my walls
youre a monster, monster, monster

you're a monster, yeah
monster
you feel the need to 
fill that void, feel that void
cut me off, cut me off
you're a fucking monster, monster, monster

i dont know
tired in my eyes i rest, i cannot fucking sleep
i told you
writing on my walls
youre a monster, monster, monster

youre a monster

virus gang // digital torture
https://soundcloud.com/malwarevi
https://soundcloud.com/malwarevi
https://soundcloud.com/malwarevi

virus + @malware.vi

tortured soul
what you know about me?
headless crow
didn't wanna run, what you want from me
i dont even know why you talk to me
who would fucking love me
who would fucking know me
who would wanna be around me
why am i like this?
why cant i be fucking happy?

(what makes him different
why am i never good enough
why am i never good enough)

how much more can i take

lets lay together in this empty grave
sorry for last night i tend to snap
cant control my emotions
engraving my name in your skin

theres no fun in burying your corpse
six feet under i held the fucking torch
im in your walls
im in your head
everytime you lie, it dont matter, it dont matter, it dont matter
everytime you cry, dead girl, dead girl, dead girl

im just an actor in your shitty little game
drown me away
she said she would hold me close now she dead
drown me away

cutting my wrists
its the only way i cope
burning my skin
theres nothing left to hold

barreling down in the depths of darkness
holding my heart in your hands im heartless
you took it all away from me i dont care
cause your fucking useless you have none to spare
i would bury myself if i fucking could
i would put myself in my grave if i could
erase all these memories
cause i know they aint coming back

dead girl

im not known to break
baby hold my hand
just leave me around

ive been drowning in this loneliness
i dont know
do you, think that
you know, you don't
calling your phone, i don't know
ive been searching for a long time
do you, know how hard it is to be me

i don't want you
you only hurt me
am i a joke to you

im sick of fucking drowning my pain
in this bottle i can't
everyone deserves this
im feeling worthless

i fucking hate you
i dont wanna see you breath
all my fucking energy
taken all away
no one, cares for me
i should stay away

these spiders

prod. flee @prodflee
@eloimmeth:
I don’t wanna hurt you but I need it
Show me how you’re vulnerable with me
So that I know where to cut deeper

Tell me I’m a double faced bitch
One face you will spit
The other one to kiss
So kiss me

And
I will vomit all my pain and sorrows in your mouth 
Now your tongue’s entangled with mine
You can’t even shout

Ill be the only one that you can ask for help
I will hurt you more and more so you’ll be bound to me hey
Can’t imagine you with another

But when you’re with me I can’t help but cover
Your heart in bruises
My arms with wounds and

Baby I can only cause you pain
It’s the same refrain
Why can’t you let go of my scratched hand?

I don’t wanna hurt you but I need it
Show me how you’re miserable for me
So that I know you’re gonna need me

do as you wish
But Never come back
To me

Never look back
Let go
Of my hand

Void inside
Crashing ends 
Blank my mind
Strain myself
Bleed me out of your veins

Drain me now
Self-defense

lava:

you're my mistake 
where's my saving grace
fire burning, lightly dies
rainy days of broken times
i've been faking all the worsts things
that you have done
narcissist plaguing your own mind
carve my skin, promise ill be fine
i dont care anymore
hatred fills my heart
tell me that again
and it fucking tears apart
why this cant be just look at this
my head explodes
you're my worst mistake

narcissist (ft. eloimmeth) [flee]

broken dreams

bewarb!!!!

i just want you back
did you get my text?
with your rose tinted paragraphs
and you're heartbreaking texts

stop, if im being honest
cant, even think about you
and you cover your scars 
like art in the wind

and i cant stop myself from loving you
i cut myself, from everything and
everything breaks and i dont know why
and you're my saving grace, can't you save me now?

gone, i hate myself (hate)
till my days break
it just seems too fine to not mess it up
i mess up everything, you know

spotify

save me

suicide note + @cholorofilm

prod. whitecxffin x lava

lyrics:

just want to escape this fucking pain
just want someone to show an ounce of change
nothing ever seems to go my way
fight it in this bottle of endless drink
failing everything, cant you see that?
fill my cup until i can see black

EVERYTHING HURTING ME NOW
OCD RUNS SO DEEP IN ME CANT YOU FUCKING SEE?
CUT MYSELF JUST TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT ME
DROWN MY SORROWS IN THIS BOTTLE 
JUST WANTED TO FEEL ALRIGHT
YOU WENT SO FAR
LETHARGIC EMBELLISHED OBJECTS
I PUT MY SOUL IN THIS
I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU

2much + @whitecxffin

1st part: lava, prod lava
2nd part: hatchet, prod hatchet (https://soundcloud.com/hatchetsaww)

lyrics:
(Lava)
i cant control my emotions
the feelings left in me, soulless ocean

light has gone
im not home, still not here
nothing ever seems my way
do i ever care
drown in my sorrows in despair
break me down, the only way is down

you, left me here to rot

WHAT DO I LOVE
NOTHING? I CRY FOR GOD
NO, I KNOW NO ONE

(hatchetsaw)

So cold
Freezing in this tomb i call home
Rotting with the mold
My future left untold

Theres no feelings in me, im a bottomless hole
Im a piece of shit or thats what ive been told
I just wanna lay here, among the mold
Not being there and being controlled

Withered flowers tend to forget but its stuck to me like a silhouette
Is this what i wept for?
Is this what i really went for?

In a stream of my own tears
Seems that i have lost my piers
Still thinking of a damn reason cause
Why the fuck im am i stuck here?

love, no more (ft. hatchetsaw)

like you f cared
sitting alone in my room
tell me why im like this
cant seem to fight this
drinking just to hold this on

write my s note i know im not long for this world
smash my f head until i cant feel anymore

tried to take it by myself
this pain is all ive fuc dealt
i cant even smk to stop this storm
this anxiety is embedded in my bones

i wont live long (Я не проживу долго)

(dielusions instrumental)

(whisper lies vocals)
im turning off my brain, lay
im terminally inept, stay
heavy rain, pain
its the way you looked, at me
this water hates my skin
theres no crying anymore
this water hits my skin
theres no crying anymore

what a waste of life
all this time spent avoiding fights
you stand, this shit, unfair

my head is full of sand
and my mouths full of water
and i tried to use all my energy to understand
i lay in dismay with all the memories
that you have left with me

(whisper lies instrumental part)

heavy rain (w/ @dielusions)

https://www.instagram.com/derrickjvy/
https://soundcloud.com/derrickjvy

nothing ever matters because it never stays the same
the only therapy i got is drinking from the pain
pop another bottle its all i got
i dont wanna speak i just want to rot
cuz my own mind everyone scoffs
my own mind lead to this plot

and i dont fucking care anymore i really dont
i just want some fucking change or fucking end my life
i can slur all my words cuz no ones listening
its just a million words inside an endless sea

still the same + @derrickjvy

paint a pretty picture of me
cause i cant look at myself in the mirror
i stay up late till the morning
it feels safer not to feel a thing at all

paint a pretty picture of me
cause i cant look myself in the mirror
and i hold onto your promises
the last time you spoke to me was 3 weeks ago
not let the world touch me
it didnt matter i never felt alive

the last time i showed my emotion
was the last time you have spoke to me
and i fall deeper until we die
i cant feel anything at all

paint a picture

https://soundcloud.com/cryingagain
https://soundcloud.com/cryingagain
https://soundcloud.com/cryingagain

RUDE w/CRYINGAGAIN

hurting this bad isnt sustainable (тоска)

faith's winter.. её зима ушла

i keep destrying myself n i dont know why

lol kms2025 ft luvlus ,

crowlyyy - now we cry remix


and i dont even feel like myself
f ing up my health
been too long since i cried out for help
theres something wrong with all my energy
and i just long what you said to me
i cant see myself in the mirror no more
all these scars that i told yout hat f i tore

something wrong w my energy (crowlyyy remix)

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i wish i could cry

 theres not really anything i feel like i can do anymore just close my eyes and hope everything turns out alright, sometimes thats the only thing you can do; but knowing my dreams it only creates a reality thats blinding myself  .  i can think ur name but ur not thinking mine and thats okay  , ill keep telling myself that

lava.christian

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