still depressed.. 

here's a free open any1 can use -


lyrics:

give me a sec
 while i wrestle with death
im wide awake
 with no heart in my chest 
and what's left of myself
 is a ghost. im obsessed
im obsessed with death
 i am cursed, not blessed
i hold you close
  like the words in my head
i read you like a book
 you see me like I'm dead
i need you like a song
 and it's stuck in my head
you hate me like the blood
 when it drips and its red 
im hearing symphonies of angels
and when my heart is broke
 its the epitome of mangled
and when i am alone
 I'm feeling misery, betrayel
if you'd look at me 
 you'd know 
I'm just a little unstable

I'm a little unstable
break my heart 
i hate this fable 
i hate love 
 they never stay close, no

wrestle with death [prod. YOUFORIA]

𝙷𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 “𝚗𝚘...𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚗𝚘 (𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚍. 𝚁𝚎𝚡𝚡𝚡)

lyrics:

i don't really want you anymore
you hurt me enough
i dont know anymore
you said this would last forever

don't cry
i'll wait for you on the other side
you just wanna fuck me up
drag me down

and everything goes wrong i cant keep this on

everything goes wrong
i dont want to write this song
broke my heart
now i just lay in the dark

dont_cry

ghosts haunt me

falling in ur trap (prod. exile)

escape to exist

Produced by Daedric Prince
Mixed & Mastered by HeavyLungs

Lyrics:
Live laugh
Nights I grown cold
I fear you want me home
After you see you kept me awake 
Answer did I
Even out the pain
Look in your eyes all you despise 
Tearing at your flesh again
After all this time 
running from life
Running from life 
After all of this time 
Left all alone and I wanted out
This pressure created nothing but doubt 
Bloodied the towels 
Stained the bed sheets oh frown
I was alone 
while the drugs kept you out 
Slow down my love I forgave you in the end. Hurry back 
back home there was something left unsaid. 
All I wanted was my mommy but she was swept, Into the other room where there was meth for her instead 
The needle it’s been left unfed again
Hurry back to your room 
where you locked yourself in. 
Look in your eyes all you despise 
Tearing at your flesh again
After all this time running from life
Running from life 
After all of this time 
Raised us, in needles and fire 
Drugs kept you in
It just kept you higher
Raised us in needles and fire
The drugs kept you in your room 
You get higher
All those nights I needed you 
I needed you
There was a vacancy instead
At 14 I was used to being 
left for dead then
I was used to to being left

Darling, You Couldn't Even Imagine What I've Seen

a week of pretend  
never wanted it to end 

feel my hand disappear into yours 

i fell asleep 
next to the warmth of you
i fell asleep 
when i woke up i saw you 

i saw you...

 
a million sorries will be said 
i just never wanted to leave that bed

i fell asleep 
next to the warmth of you
i fell asleep 
when i woke up i saw you

SEEYOUNEVER - FELL

This is OM NAMO (LSDream, Sarah Hudson) and Triptrap (Symbolico) chopped and screwed.

NAMO x TRIP (MEDUDESA Mix)

from when i first started making music, i had no turn to what style i wanted to strive on making. i experimented w/ many different musical elements, sound frequencies, musical instruments, sounds, and pitches to mostly define me as a person and my music. from listening to my own music on a daily basis, i noticed how i may have changed up the way i was doing a specific thing, whether if it would have been vocals, the mixing, the actual beat, etc. from all this time studying and trying to put myself in a mindset that would continuously make me feel determined about dropping another song, i feel like it has been slowly but surely paying off. thank every single one of you from in real life, soundcloud, instagram, twitter, youtube, and other tons of platforms and places around the world for all the support every single one of you has been giving me. i never would have thought a single second that i would be working as a sound engineer/music producer/vocalist starting at only 12 years of age. I really do thank all of you from the bottom from my heart and thank you all for birthday wishes and the things you have done for me. rep this shit. im 14 today, heres a song about my music evolution and what i have been feeling on a day to day basis over the years. <3

btw the distortion in the beginning of the track is intentional jus to let u all know

lyrics: 

hook:
started out making the trash speaking full of it
people did not realize what i felt they sullen split
empty my brain with the thoughts and words im caught in it
they dont really speak of me cus i am just a “kid”

verse: 
every day feeling like theres somethin wrong with me nah
i dont fuckin like you you make me bored
i dont wanna be
the same as every one else only unique honestly
why is this shit happening to me this happens constantly
busting ass and brain jus to fuckin end up left  and lost
maybe i should quit and have no passion for this career i crossed
they aint show respect to me when i do more shit for them
when im bigger they gon wish they helped me so id s/o to them

rs i thought you were well to me “you were the best”
we were fucking fine until school came to fucking rest
every hour spent thinking bout u, you were loving less
tundra was supposed to spark romance 
didnt you guess
i cant fucking think anymor
its all cus of this 
i just wanted to have you safe and happy 
you dont know the risks
i wish suffering wasnt a cause of a forming fist
maybe if i died you would know why i didnt want this

bridge:
bruh i seriously cannot think anymore
just like 
i have no more fuckin energy for this shit
it keeps happening and i cant take it anymore
like all this time ive been jus thinkin
ive been thinkin of the possibilities that i can probably fuckin evolve my style

verse:
its a lot to do
all hands full when i needed you
speaking from the lost frequencies 
they different hues
making different shit, drives you to see techniques i use

dont end up made up with a false story behind your back
looking full externally but its not too packed

lose the nonsense, im battling myself 
from these dark spots inside i see it it wont help

making life a lie
endorphins will fight
its an end to my life
give it all to know mine
every second questioning if im fine
listening only to me i know its not kind

make life 
on my own
home grown
take own
to the throne
leave me alone
techno 
long gone
unknown

its a matter of making it 
dont live to be faking it

hook: 
started out making the trash speaking full of it
people did not realize what i felt they sullen split
empty my brain with the thoughts and words im caught in it
they dont really speak of me cus i am just a “kid” 
x2

every day feeling like theres somethin wrong with me nah
i dont fuckin like you you make me bored
i dont wanna be
the same as every one else only unique honestly
why is this shit happening to me this happens constantly
x2

hook x2

dedicated to my pup mia who is no longer here i love you 

LYRICS:

RED EYES IS ALL I SAW 
IM STUCK THERES NO POINT AT ALL 

SAYING GOODBYE IS WHAT HAUNTS ME 
I WISH I DID AND IM SO LOST BECAUSE

I CANT I CANT GET UP
IM SO LOST 

IT ALL ENDS UP THE SAME 
ONE DAY I WILL BE IN THE SAME PLACE

I CANT I CANT GET UP
IM SO LOST

falling in ur trap (prod. exile)

lava

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