its 3am, im locked in the graveyard and this song brings me peace.

suicide note w/ sleepisformortals [prod. takeer]

still depressed.. 


lyrics:

give me a sec
 while i wrestle with death
im wide awake
 with no heart in my chest 
and what's left of myself
 is a ghost. im obsessed
im obsessed with death
 i am cursed, not blessed
i hold you close
  like the words in my head
i read you like a book
 you see me like I'm dead
i need you like a song
 and it's stuck in my head
you hate me like the blood
 when it drips and its red 
im hearing symphonies of angels
and when my heart is broke
 its the epitome of mangled
and when i am alone
 I'm feeling misery, betrayel
if you'd look at me 
 you'd know 
I'm just a little unstable

I'm a little unstable
break my heart 
i hate this fable 
i hate love 
 they never stay close, no

wrestle with death [prod. YOUFORIA]

Album coming soon, I love you all

Produced by me

Lyrics -

My spirit grows tired of war
Of isolation and pain
I dream of wasting away
Like snow beneath the rain
This flesh woven cage
Bound to dismay
I lost all I am
Only memories remain
Only memories remain
Only memories remain
Longing for home again
Searching for me
Searching for me
Will I feel again,
The comfort of a home?
Before I meet my end
Will there be an end to the roam?

Bound To Dismay

tortured soul
what you know about me?
headless crow
didn't wanna run, what you want from me
i dont even know why you talk to me
who would fucking love me
who would fucking know me
who would wanna be around me
why am i like this?
why cant i be fucking happy?

(what makes him different
why am i never good enough
why am i never good enough)

how much more can i take

im not known to break
baby hold my hand
just leave me around

ive been drowning in this loneliness
i dont know
do you, think that
you know, you don't
calling your phone, i don't know
ive been searching for a long time
do you, know how hard it is to be me

i don't want you
you only hurt me
am i a joke to you

im sick of fucking drowning my pain
in this bottle i can't
everyone deserves this
im feeling worthless

i fucking hate you
i dont wanna see you breath
all my fucking energy
taken all away
no one, cares for me
i should stay away

these spiders

derrick jay: https://soundcloud.com/derrickjvy/tracks

prod. lava

let me rot w/ derrick jay

empty bottle

been walking down this road
looking for the closest rope
i cant love myself
im stuck in a broken shell
don't you look so pretty
i learned you wont give me anything

(why did you leave me)

always left by myself

DARK SUNDAY

An intelligent heart acquires knowledge, and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.

Sunday Server 5/26/2024

Never stop in the search for truth    Knock and doors will open      God is with you

Fulgora

FULGORA w/ Sesh Guru

produced by @black-285816692

i cannot heal </3


lyrics:

i'm getting older, i'm closer to dying
this pain in my chest got me hurting
it's violent, inside of my mind its a riot
i'm hiding it all of the time 
can't unleash what is fighting 
it'd tear you up, break you apart
with no sparing em
i wanna die, 
why the fuck do i carry them
carry these demons
i swear they would bury ya
i know i'm strong cuz im breathing
i stare at them 
in the morning, in the night
in my sleep
i can't escape all this pain so i weep
she broke my heart 
put the pain in my key
then i unlock my heart
put the pain in this beat
i've got a blade, 
put the blade to my flesh
if i wanted to die 
then I'd die like the rest
why am i scared 
cuz the pain of what's next
i'll be a ghost
& i'll search when I'm dead

i can't let go of the girl in my head
i can't let go of my baby in red
i won't ascend, I won't ascend
i will be here till i find you again x4

MY RED DAHLIA [prod. AYAZRA]

Feat @kam9g  Prod 
Cover art by Camille Shaikh (ig: diplodocam) + Strangoth 
Lyrics : 
(Hook )
Put this gun on my face 
Take a breath, look at me 
Keep quiet if you shoot me 
No regret if you kill me 

(Verse)
I feel rejected 
I don't like livin'
You cannot save me 
Stuck in a circle
I need a miracle
I wanna be an angel
I wanna die so i can see you from the sky (x2)

Take me hand 
Take my heart 

( Hook )
Put this gun on my face 
Take a breath, look at me 
Keep quiet if you shoot me 
No regret if you kill me

let me rot w/ derrick jay

lava

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