Crush by Ethel Cain live from KEXP

lyrics

here i am in california
wondering if you’re still alive
thought i had escaped the pain
that brought the rain and made me drive
past your house at night alone
i reeked to death of alcohol
barbital is washing out my brain
i fucked up and god i know it
but can you at least let me try
i feel so embarrassed 
even caring if you live or die
crying on the back porch
while you looked away and told me
we’ll make it work or won’t make it all
(hey. it’s me. i’ve been thinking about you. 
i hope you’re alright. i miss you, i do. 
i wish you were here. but i understand.
take care of yourself, ok?)
you need time, i know, but jesus,
is this all you think of me
a portrait of my love in all white and on her knees
I’ll go back to california, bleeding but i still survived
maybe you were never mine at all

a portrait of my love on her knees - ethel cain

Posted on her Tumblr 10/11/2024.

*hayden anhedonia, angel diaz of vyva melinkolya on vibraphone, and ryan brewer of good night and good morning on guitar*

Music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

-Lyrics-

I was an angel, though plummeting
I watched it get dark
I'm playing it tough
The worst that could happen
Is happening to me
Another round of shots
For the boys on TV
I was an angel, but they made me leave
With stars in my eyes
Crying as I wheel
As I hit the lake
I prayed it'd be green
It's all that I need
I deserve it, I think
I loved an angel, and it made me weak

Ethel Cain- Punish (Practise Demo)

Build This Town [prod. peril]

Perfect Timing [prod. GAXILLIC]

A Long, Unfortunate While

Find Myself (Alone)

Nostalgia [prod. muzcean]

Yvng Outcast - before i close my eyes

B!tch [prod. TREETIME]

I’m not a bad person *out on all plats*

Nostalgia [prod. muzcean]

Laysek

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