Zen, cyberpunk, underground, experimental

NIGHT CITY

Stay with me

This is my version of a lullaby that I created for myself. I am usually a very calm person but sometimes, I get very fidgety and anxious when I am faced with a new life situation or nerve-wrecking moments.

The mantra that I have incorporated into my lullaby is the word 'breathe'. Might seem like a silly thing to remind myself to breathe, but I realized that when we are faced with tensed/nerve-wrecking/anxious moments in life, we should take a moment to calm ourselves down by focusing on our breath. Take slow and deep breaths to slow down our heartrate and to settle down the impurities of our cluttered minds.

A repeated note played on top of 2 chords is heard in the background, looped all the way until the end. In a way, the repeated note represents my heartbeat that is constantly beating. A slower paced melody comes in after 4 bars, signifying my wish for my heart to calm down, slow down and not be nervous. The word 'breathe' is repeated a few times to remind myself to be mindful of my breath and stay focused.

Breathe

I’m still in love with you. 

We haven’t exchanged thoughts in…a while. Feels like days have escalated into years it seems. Even though you probably won’t see or hear this…how are you? Are you well? Have you met someone who’s soul matches yours?

I just woke up from one of those “real” dreams just now. Y’know the ones that almost feel like they happened in real life? The ones so vivid, your brain confuses it as a memory of some sort. Yeah, one of those dreams. It was one of those dreams you wake up from and think “Damn…but it felt so real!” …I hate those dreams. But I can’t help but love them too. 

Also, I… don’t think I’ve ever seen myself that happy before….it was actually quite the awkward experience. Then again, maybe it was just weird seeing us together.  Waking up, my heart has never felt so fragile and strong at the same time… it was interesting to dwell upon so I made this song to remember the feeling.

I remember reading that you can only know how much you truly love someone until they’re gone. It makes more and more sense now that I think about it. 

To me, falling in love is a lot like falling into a crack in the earth. As soon as you fall, you freak out but… at the same time you accept it. Before you know it, you’ve reached the bottom. It felt like you were gonna die but, surprisingly you survived. 

When you look up, theres a fine line of light representing who you used to be. Do you choose to stay? Or attempt at climbing back up?

Choosing the latter never felt so bittersweet. 
I hope your doing well, in my dreams we may meet. 
…maybe please. 

Goodnight.


Breathe

Bi Ying

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