I grew up finally. thank you for this journey.

@roxsu
@noizz
@youngkimj
@LC
@ericgodlow
@irby
@candlelights
@d1stanc3

when tragedy struck...

heartless.

prod @irby


lyrics

My thoughts have been causing me pain, i can't even utter a word.  the sky is getting gloomy, it feels like the end of the world.  want to confess my feelings but i dont know my own self-worth.
i want to give you the world, but my mind goes to the worst

I left my heart in florida,  i left my heart in florida.
the wound is too deep, no point to try to save me
my heart is too weak, don't even get involved w me (x2)

They say the home is where the heart is, where the hell i would go?, i feel like garbage when i speak my problems into existence, you all want my attention, well that makes me feel so low. don't make feel shitty for wanting. to be alone

I left my heart in florida,  i left my heart in florida.
the wound is too deep, no point to try to save me
my heart is too weak, don't even get involved w/ me

left my heart in florida. (irby)

im better off in my bedroom

prod eric godlow

lyrics

Wondering, fallen underneath,, i can barely breathe and it's hard to see. x2

My bones hurt, my throat burns. I hope it's all over.
I fall to misfortune, but this isn't foreign.

I'm better off in my bedroom
Go away, i don't wanna text you.
It's okay, I'm just in a bad mood.
In the end, i don't wanna hurt you.

i can't breathe (eric godlow)

prod. @noizz

lyrics
(Intro)
I'm crying for help. 
Seems like nobody cares
Everything sucks.
I don't wanna wake up. (x2)

(Hook)
Trapped in this headspace with nowhere to go.
I promised my friends that i wouldn't let go.
I carry this  burden. It gets harder to hold.
You broken our bond and I'm getting so cold.

Come home.
I'm over it.
Turn the lights off
I'm my own hostage

(Verse)

I dream of the thought of me being missing. everything seems better w/o me existing.
What the fuck is my purpose?
Am I really that worthless?
I'm trying my best but it seems like my worse.
It starts as a blessing but it's really a curse.
Try to help all but all i do is hurt.
Conversate with the gun now there's blood on my shirt

(Hook)
Trapped in this headspace with nowhere to go.
I promised my friends that i wouldn't let go.
I carry this  burden. It gets harder to hold.
You broken our bond and I'm getting so cold.

Come home.
I'm over it.
Turn the lights off
I'm my own hostage






hostage. (NOIZZ)

self destructive as always
@roxsu
@runtzagainstdawrld


seraph's sorrow w/ roxsu (kimj & LC)

11/22

I grew up for the best and for the worst.

finale (d1stanc3)

2020 has been a bummer for me. I've wanted to kill myself multiple times, I lost a lot of friends over drama. heartbreak and all around suffering.

I'm thankful for the friends who helped me through it all, man. idk where i would be without you guys. it means the most.

i love you.


lyrics

I hear my coffin.
It's like 3 miles away
and the grim reapers not so patient
and honestly, im the same way.

when you see me smile, when you hear my laugh.
i hope it brings joy when you start to feel bad.
i don't plan on staying longer than three years
i hope you all make it, i will be still here, in spirit.

in spirit (3x)



this goes out to all of the friends that i made
if this song made you sad, I'm sorry in advance
i wish i could be more of a goddamn man.
the issues in my head are hard to understand


la la la la la (9x)


it's hard to understand (3x)






no, i don't have a jacket (cold pt 2) (candle lights)

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