That Apartment With The Concrete Stairs

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i hate the distance between us

DIE DIE DIE

expectations are set too high
(god, my arm)
i can't erase it
(seems just like we've ran out of time)
yeah, the damage wears off
can't i pull ur skull into mine?
all of you expect more from me and that's nothing close to what i wanna be now
might as well just lay down and die
veins, still sterile
(painted white, white)
the conscience is no longer there
just dissolve my brain x

(sample is from flcl)

haruhara haruko

神保伸太郎 - SCHIZOPHRENIA.

dont cry
ur only made of plastic
ive tried
2 be more than a hasbeen
u walked
somewhere far from home
with ur own two feet
nd now yr all alone
you were the wind inbetween my stretch
oh id cry how i lost my breath
every second i have left
ill spend clawing at my chest

third take
rip my eardrums out
ive been tryin to sleep
but the voices are loud
every day i shall weep
till my eyes are a drought
every minute ive lived, is a moment in doubt, i swear

i didnt ask to be this way

redwood

i hate you !

should not, but ill check again
its october 3rd and im not your boyfriend
i better not, but im checkin again
but if it turns purple ill jump out of my skin
but i know that im not, idk why i did
imma scare you away, but ill wish that i didnt
thoughts that i jus cant get rid of them
the words are there but they're not mine dont know what i feel but i feel like shit i wont be missed

instruments by fried by floruide i didnt get permission to post this

i think i wanted to fly
so i wont feel that i’ll amount to nothing
the world would keep on spinning if i were to end up jumping
spending hours melting in the corner of your room
im sorry if im velting just to get away from you
oooooooooo you dont understand
i used to be something greater than the puddle in your hands
now how can i sit here? i’m much less of a man
if i were a feather i’d float gently to the sand

twenty sucks </3 bury me in liquor

You dont need no makeup you’re better either way
I’ll starve myself until you notice a change
Wrap me up in your hands like ur pretty face
Then cover me from my appendix to my waist

show this to your her

mistake

everytime i hit record , my cats chilling on the bed
by the laptop, where she rests her paws infuckingstead
clickin keys till theyre broken and they cant be fucking pressed
and these songs play over and over inside her head
and she listens to my words, never knowing what i said
man i wonder and i wonder wholl love her when im dead
when i step outside just to smoke a cigarette, and i come back in see her waiting where i left
she be sleeping all day like its time well spent, and shell always be a cat but my very best friend
and im kinda antisocial, friends, i dont text them
lifes kinda lemonade when its bitter in the end

i love my fat stupid cat

no more sports - triple a games

thank you sara for loving me and being by my side forever and always, my parents for being cool with me dropping out of college to keep playing music and for supporting me all the way, and to DK, alyssa, peter, grace, lobo, bill, riley, and JC for learning my songs and playing them live wherever we can find a show and an audience. also shout out to awakebutstillinbed, blind equation, godfuck, gingerbee, home is where, hey ily, flyover states, lobsterfight, widowdusk, catalyst, in loving memory, short fictions, homewrecker, record setter, and so many more for being the coolest people ever, i love you all so much <3
credits
released August 11, 2024

written and recorded december 2020 - june 2024 in bedrooms and kitchens and cars all across chicago il and katy tx

drums performed and recorded by Lobo at Slappy HQ located somewhere in the suburbs of chicago

mastered by will killingsworth @ dead air studios

beautiful album art by emma lacy (@__dilema__ on IG)

death of a rabbit

city on fire (closeness)

your arms are my cocoon - 13 days without mail (pre-yaamc demo)

Like U

delanie / lane hollows - like u

mage tears - idkwia cover (i dont know who i am)

fake trees - filling graves (demo)

ingoodhands - intro (demo)

Under your breath-Ispentsixhourswatchingshockvideosyesterday

Reuploaded. All credit to Panucci's Pizza.

Panucci's Pizza

Panucci's Pizza - Hello Ladies, Welcome to My Swaggrokrag

Track three on the Jacques Rocque EP
-Recorded and mixed by me. 
-Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/JacquesRocque
-Download at - http://jacquesrocque.bandcamp.com/album/jacques-rocque-ep

Jacques Rocque - The Void of Space

The wise kitten focuses not on that which is lost, but on all that remains.

your arms are my cocoon - 13 days without mail (pre-yaamc demo)

leave no alarm