Name: This is not an end (rainy garden session) by leo at the door
Duration: 2 min 56 s
Description: #indie #original #acoustic #demo #leoatthedoor #atthedoor

This one came from connecting the dots between something Ted from himym said about his firm and the reflections I made after being to afraid to ask a girl’s name at a gathering.

Lyrics:

“The longer I put off starting my own firm
the longer it can remain a dream
And not something I screw up at
It’s like I’m giving up before I even started”

I saw you across the room
Talking to people about the weather
You probably didn’t notice when our eyes met
In that brief second I could see eternity
Everything that could be
It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen
How could I ever risk ruining it?

So before I even started 
I gave up without trying
And I saw you walk away
The girl with no name

Holding on to the dream 
Of the future that could be
Sometimes seems so much better
Than to face the disaster 
The potential rejection
The proof of what you already know
That there’s still a long way to go

So before I even started 
I might give up without trying
To live up to the dream
Of being enough to be with you

“When will I know I’m ready?
You won’t
It’s a leap of faith
that’s all it is Miles
A leap of faith”

So there I was, to afraid to screw up again
How could I ever think I was ready?
They’d say faith, oh yeah, it’s faith
How can I know? You won’t.
The story of how I became the man I had to became
Before I could be yours truly

So Before I even start
I won’t give up without trying
I’ll swallow the lumps down my throat
To hell with the dream
I want my future to be real
You can call me leo
What should I call you?
…
“Not bad kid.”

before i even started (demo)

The Journey

Sunflower fields
The sun is hiding behind the clouds
Welcoming the winds of change
Sometimes, the only purpose you need
Is to enjoy the ride.

Look! It’s the sunset!
Sometimes it seems like the sun will be long gone
And when you’re least expecting it
It will appear in the horizon
Exploding in yellow light

Can’t you see how the sunflowers are happy?
Just how sweet are these train rides?
All the babies are smiling.
Thank you for being who you are.

Sometimes, the only purpose you need
Is to enjoy the ride.

the journey (demo)

super dumb song

this will find those who need it.

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this will find who needs it

I’ve written this song while living in Budapest, whilst being from Brasil, trying to encapsulate that feeling that constantly was haunting me of “how I wish I had someone with whom to share these experiences with”.
It’s an ode to the loneliness we all feel when first venturing the unknown jungle of our new adventures, and also just regular good old solitude. 

Lyrics:

Oceans away 
the ones I most love
I crave to feel the connection           
With anyone where my heart could belong
In how it feels back home with you

I see in the sky
On the nights the moon smiles at me
I know she’s smiling upon you too

I laugh at my own jokes
They are always funny inside my head
How I wish someone would be there
That would want to hear and laugh
The same way i know that you would

And When it’s time to face the unknown
As you should
You shall Know
Yourself might be all that you have 
So be prepared
To laugh at your own joke’s
There may be no one else to tell them but you

And specially in those nights
You might look at the sky and see
A pretty smile laughing just for you

on loneliness (moon’s smile 🌙)

I hope you’ll understand me
It hasn’t been so easy
To love and to be loved
Sometimes my mind can be deceiving
Is this really love?
But really how can this be love? 
I’m sure I had both feet on earth.
Somehow I’m lost in outer space
 
My miiiiind is looong gone
My heart is beating
(So fast)
It’s beating really fast
(No Way)
What the fuck is that
(To Say)
I think love is in play 

Because Loooooove is a Rocket Engine
Propelling ourselves in the most unthinkable ways
And Looooove is a  Rocket Launch
Escaping from Earth
Searching for you in outer space

I think I see it now
Listening to my heart
It was a temporary high
Dreaming of being an astronaut
Loving the future that could be
Though it was only on my mind
Reality sometimes can be deceiving 

My heeart is long goone
My mind is overthinking
(Don’t wait)
It’s time to float away
(What way)
Only your heart can say
(No way)
It’s time to medidate

Because Loooooove is a Rocket Engine
Propelling ourselves in the most unthinkable ways
And Looooove is a  Rocket Launch
Escaping from Earth
Flying with you to outer space

And I took that rocket launch
It faaaded away like it was never meant to fly
And yooou took that rocket engine
You flew away from me 
Our routes went on their separate ways

And now
My mind
Is okay
It’s time
To heal
Today
To be
In here
And stay.
-
After leaving orbit, a rocket needs no extra fuel
once the first launch is succesful
love can go on until eternity
if there is not enough fuel to leave earth
you’re bound to fall down all over again
🚀

Love is a Rocket Launch (ukulele demo)

we hug now - Sydney Rose (best part loop)

Before I Even Started

“The longer I put off starting my own firm
the longer it can remain a dream
And not something I screw up at
It’s like I’m giving up before I even started”

I saw you across the room
Talking to people about whatever
You probably didn’t notice when our eyes met
In that brief second I could see eternity
Everything that could be
It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen
How could I ever risk ruining it?

So before I even started 
I gave up without trying
And I saw you walk away
The girl with no name

Holding on to the dream 
Of the future that could be
Sometimes seems so much better
Than to face the disaster 
The potential rejection
The proof of what you already know
That there’s still a long way to go

So before I even started 
I might give up without trying
To live up to the dream
Of being enough to be with you
-
“When will I know I’m ready?
You won’t
It’s a leap of faith
that’s all it is Miles
A leap of faith”
They’d say faith, oh yeah, it’s faith
How can I know? You won’t.
-
So Before I even start
(I won’t give up without trying
I’ll swallow the lumps down my throat
To hell with the dream
I want my future to be real
You can call leo
What should I call you?)

Before I Even Started (1AM Cave Session)

Slowed down acoustic version of on loneliness, after work, because the rain is on the way of my run.
-
Oceans away 
the ones I most love
I crave to feel the connection           
With anyone where my heart could belong
In how it feels back home with you

I see in the sky
On the nights the moon smiles at me
I know she’s smiling upon you too

I laugh at my own jokes
They are always funny inside my head
How I wish someone would be there
That would want to hear and laugh
The same way i know that you would

And when it’s time to face the unknown
As you should
You shall Know
Yourself might be all that you have 
So be prepared
To laugh at your own joke’s
There may be no one else to tell them but you

And specially in those nights
You might look at the sky and see
A pretty smile laughing just for you
-
#acoustic, #raw, #one-take, #indie, #rainyday, #bedroomrecording, #singersongwriter, #garden

On loneliness (rainy garden session)

There are no mistakes, just happy accidents.

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It Will Be Gone - Elori Saxl
Modular Mix - Air
Mopedbart (Olefonken’s Autostrada Miks) - Hubbabubbaklubb
IRIS - JB Dunckel & Jonathan Fitouss
Love Beyond The Intersect - Space Dimension Controller
Always By Your Side (Nicolas Jaar 'Big' Version) - Sneaky Sound System
Into The Doldrums - Now Always Fades
Illicity (Pt.1) - Extended Spirit
Further Happiness - Amine Laje & Traumer
Things You Do For Love - Apiento
Mellow - Boris Blenn
II Remember - Maribou State
Stone Groove - Big Bud
Unconditional Love - LTJ Bukem
The Sensual Woman - The Herbaliser
Climbing Up The Walls (Zero 7 Mix) - Radiohead
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lounge upstairs, vol. I

#indie #original #acoustic #demo #leoatthedoor #atthedoor

This is not an end (rainy garden session)

@leo.at.the.door

I’m Leo. I’m At The Door.

At the door between the known and the unknown.

Striving to create bridges of understanding where we can all meet, as one.

Or just a guy writing songs and stories.

This is not an end (rainy garden session)

leo at the door

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