wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

feels like i'm wasting time
always rotting online
looking for what i can't find
i'm not too bright
don't wanna die a slow death
don't wanna leave you bereft
seems like i'm dead
dreams are all i have left

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

with every breath i take
don't know why i wake
grown numb to the taste
a disappointing fate
misery breeds apathy
i don't wanna bleed anymore
anymore

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

ngmi
i never tried
ngmi
lay down and cry

am i the only one?

ngmi

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

dead bodies all around me
they're pilling up, i'm drowning
i'd care but i'm too drowsy
no one gives a fuck about me
so i do not think
and i do not dream
i lie down and rot
i tear at the seams
it's too late, forgot what everything means
i don't care about anything

lying face down
nobody around
another hole in the ground
lost and never found

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

whatever

https://open.spotify.com/track/6ReT2Geigzi2td8QLa3lAC?si=c6e1ff776f6f4f9a

i swear i never cry
you wont beat me in a fight
i wanna get high 
at the smile lands and die

just me alone
why cant you leave alone
just me alone
why wont you leave alone

i miss you ramone 
i fucking miss you ramone

make time to write off
your advice

i want you to know that im not crazy
im just lazy 
a little bit hazy

baby im the one who cried the wolves out tonight
watch me as i watch you cry you wanna get high

just me alone
why cant you leave alone
just me alone
why wont you leave alone

dead girlfriend

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RS 🤝 MA

Disforia é: Ayrton Ahid
faixas 1-5 compostas e gravadas por Ayrton Ahid
mixagem por Ayrton Ahid

Memorial Para Uma Inexistência é: Gab Teixeira
faixas 6-7 compostas e gravadas por Gab Teixeira
mixagem por Cetacea (IG: @cetaceavolant) 

Aspirador? Seria bom se aspirasse, mas a dor é eterna.

（旧作）現在地

@thisismyreality
tell me what did you do for me?
you told me bunch of lies i cant forget
i hold your soul so closely
i just cant forget what you did to me
im so useless
pointless i did everything for you but you just left me
useless pointless
im so useless pointless
im so useless pointless
uselsees pointless
you told me x2
that i have nothing to be scared 
you loved 2x
left me so scared
tell me your scared 
and tell me that you wouldnt leave me
just tell me just tell me what i did
just tell me all my fears
dont tell me 4x
you loved me 3x
you told me2x
did nothing wrong 
you told me 2x
did i do something wrong

im a masochist for your love

I've never liked screaming in my empty room so much. I'm sorry.

these are da spotify versions, STREAM MY MUSIC ON SPOTIFY PWEASE
mgchi on spotify btw

I've never liked screaming in my empty room so much. I'm sorry.

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