the writing is insane, bless mel stream for showing me this

Damnnnnn lil booj mad tuff wit it🫶😎

VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

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longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

prodbylxcid
https://youtube.com/@prodbylxcid

vocals, mix & master by wrentek

flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch 
need no whip
need no bits 
bro got the corn, he aint eatin crisps 
bullseye the shot n he don’t even miss 
like OTN know who ur dealing with 
cus u can get hit with a big 4.5
not from me but from bro, that’s slime 
leave you with a hole in ur chest like shepard
soap mctavish how i throw this knife 
sittin on the shed, sippin lean i’m nice
“big crime lords” but u stealing bikes ?? 
30 year olds goin out on rides
hittin kids in school, 
u ain’t about that life 

so i’ll sit here now for a little bit
if you wanna swing 
just swing 
make a call and get gone
i don’t  wannatalk to civilians 
cus they ain’t about shit 
all this fuckin talkin is long
i don’t ride on opps 
just a little one two
beef on the estate 
grab a knife and get armed
all these broke boys 
sharing spliff and i 
don’t wanna have to expose 
what u really is on 

so slow ur role
watch the roads
look both ways before u shoot that pole
b town shit 
fuck ur road 
i don’t wanna 
see another yout 
turn cold 

pass me the flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch

SOAP MACTAVISH

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

produced by sk8miles
completely non profit
lyrics:

shawty hit me with that vac seal
no gorilla grip
she go on to talk dick sand 
and how im pussy whipped 
glad u can agree that u and i
are a perfect fit 
if we talk about the premise, 
u and i, i guess we're caving in 

caving in 
seems that all i do is fuel some version of the pain im in
glad u getting me n what i've learnt from eating pavement
said the monster looking back on everything he did
i need my medicine 

my feet lost the ground 
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce
blow smoke down and make clouds 
my feet lost the ground
i am still not found
I'ma hack at this ounce 
blow smoke down and make clouds 

so we dress up
and we pub crawl
eatin on her ___
'til i get lockjaw
u gotta love me for the way i am
swear the more the that she could hurt me;
only make me more attached 
blowing smoke into a fan
while she's sleeping in my bed around like 2am
i just crack my beer n touch the cieling crush n toss the can 
lucky im all out of barz cus knowing me id take the chance bro

my bad, love u
that's a lot of vodka for someone 5 foot
hard world. pull thru.
no one gives a fuck and that's a hard truth
but you make me feel alright
better at least than most nights 
it's complex the state of my mind
but she just says to shut up 
and get the knife
 

good point, but i have a knife (sk8miles)

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

I’ve never made a song about my upbringing when it comes to religion but was inspired to make this one day, maybe you’ll find some solace in this track and thank you for listening ~booj

support https://soundcloud.com/deadspyro



I never said that I was a believer
I don’t try to disprove so I guess I’m neither  

recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance I’m staying 
there’s just no chance I’m staying 

the praise is way too often where’s the meaning where’s the source 
they try to make you feel all safe and sound up in those doors 
I’m not okay that I had no say in what was placed inside my brain 
ironic in the way of how that window pain was stained 
it’s how I feel inside it’s partly beautiful disdain 
but the rest I’ll sum it up it’s pretty much revolving pain 
I don’t look back and see it as helpful more so detrimental
the judgement isn’t justified it’s only supplemental 

they say it’s bad manners 
when you don’t share but I don’t want none of what you got to offer not in there no
they say it’s all that matters 
when you reach a breaking point all that’s left is that you still get to own your share 

2X
recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance that I’m staying 
there’s just no chance that I’m staying

there's just no chance i'm staying (Dead Spyro)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

prod @nate2timezz <3

hope you enjoy
thank you for listening, like seriously, so much
gotta keep moving, somehow

irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

how'd another worm get caught in the rain?
sun come out to enhance that pain
shame, shame
all that you wanted was someone to save
now that you're lost, you treat them as god
paying your dues, they've been clogging like clots
don't care about being 'part of your mirage
fuck an applause, this all i got

that weight upon the water's nothing more than just a storm
so what we drinking for? 
what we drinking for?
those ideals are everything you've only felt with utter scorn
so i can't take no more
i can't take none

fluid ghosts, i can feel them haunt my bones
i cannot break through the drapes though
radiation burn my halo
don't you go ask how my day goes
you're not concerned anyway
you're plastic as legos

quiet down while break the seal
'cause i'm numbin' down from what they claim is real
every day i wake just to fuckin break, then rejuvenate
i'm in shock, kinda like an eel

hit em with a swift so fast like an aipom
they went from a real to fake in a day; gone.
rollout like an autobot, waiting for december sun
who am i depending? 
honestly, not anyone anymore

so, you like to target? 
trust me there's no need to implore
inside my cartilage, there's already arrows galore
you're my narcotic, the thought of you imposes me warmth
or so i thought it; ultimately leaving me sore


irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

so i can try to fill in all the blanks
when shrouded in mirage, i'll take the blame
poison in the pot,
love it 'till you hate the fact that you forgot
what mattered anyways

aipom (nate2timez)

1st song off my album "pity", out september 25th 

@lilskeleskrrt @bitekivibes @ytstatic
produced by me, guitar @ikarinan @tnvr555

lyrics:
i started running from you
too fast
n i fell to the ground
spilled out blood on the grass
you said you needed me
like you could never leave
and i fell for it dreaming
made it easy to breathe

but you broke it all
paper walls
you were supposed to be here
but you’re so good being gone
and i felt it all
8 missed calls
hit me up when u need me
and leave me hurt when you don’t

don’t act like you’re so innocent
like it’s not what you want
i gave u all that i had
while u were holding the gun
oh god
it was everything you said from the start
i was waiting on it falling apart

oh oh
what a waste of my time
but if it’s all with you
i’d gladly waste my whole life
oh no
i wish i didn’t say goodbye
the paper walls are burning down
our home is gone..

god damn
i feel my heart tear on every beat
the silence is deafening
truly it’s killing me
u try to forget who i am
i try to forget how your eyes were like thousands of galaxies..
oh, consumed i’m so lost in your stare
comfort i felt like i wouldn’t have fears
writing you poetry wishing you were here
if i held on longer would i still be scared

spotify

paper walls w/ skele

chanel

stream anywhere :) https://fanlink.to/read-receipts-ft-heylog

written & performed by: @lonesity & @heylog
produced by: @lonesity
engineered by: @camjmusic & @lonesity

lyrics:

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin' for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 1:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
that i'm not perfect
but random people love me
i don't get it
don't know what they see in me
i'm just curious
i'm thinking back on what you said to me
i don't know what i am or what i'm supposed to be
in the end i'll be there when you're close to me
i doubt you'll ever get there, but we'll just wait 'n' see

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 2:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
i'm a lost person
i smile finally
but it don't last for long
99 percent of the day
i wear a frown
i swear to god i don't belong with anyone
'cause they tend to fall out of love
keep that in touch
i swear to god no one
understands me
and i end up pissing me off
it's not healthy

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

read receipts (ft. heylog)

SPOTIFY / APPLE MUSIC

read receipts (ft. heylog♡)

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there's just no chance i'm staying (Dead Spyro)

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