feat & prod by @quannnic

-lyrics-

and they bring me back
and it’s the worst of me (x2)
I would take it back
that I left my dreams (x2)
why’d you break my heart?
left in the dark, caught me off guard
so I try and I try my best 
to look good from the rest 

I don’t think I ever have to try
being here for me, do you think I’d hear a lie?
I’m suddenly the bad guy…
where I’ve missed my chance
don’t hold my hand 
so we cry, regrets
when I feel this way
I can’t feel okay
and I feel so lost
when I talk to her nothing feels off
you're the only one, you’re only one I’d fall
for us I’ll do it again and again, again 
cause I won’t forget 

got to remind you
when i decide to 
i always fuck up
cuz im never enough
and that body i saw
was it never alive
just seeing signs
was it all just a lie
one sided dice
continuous fights
all from one side
for the rest of your life
roll it again and again and again
cannot get out and it will never end

so we cry, regrets
when I feel this way
I can’t feel okay
and I feel so lost
when I talk to her nothing feels off
you’re the only one, you’re only one I’d fall
for us I’ll do it again and again, again 
cause I won’t forget

idle

spotify

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

lyrics -

please do not say nun
percs got me so gone
try hit my line baby
you did me so wrong x2

maybe i’m the problem
always more than often
I say words with caution
end up in a coffin
you get in my brain
I can’t catch a break
you get in my brain
I can’t catch a break

not the same like I was last year
and i done cried so much
but no one heard my tears
and i done falled in love
so I keep her near
I know that she the one
yeah that shit so rare

this year i’m finna do better
better than the stuff that i done before
i’ve been trying new shit
tryna look for my sound
think that I did it
they look at me now
hit me for features i’m not seeing nothing get outta my dms you get on my nerves
know how it feels when you feel at your lowest but I keep it going i don’t say a word so

please do not say nun
percs got me so gone
try hit my line baby
you did me so wrong x2

lost for words but im trying baby
captivated by your mind baby
eyes so pretty so she mine maybe
say we just friends but we fucking like crazy
oh yeah oh yeah
speaking but i don't care
run im already there
speaking but i don't care

(interlude)

please do not say nun
percs got me so gone
try hit my line baby
you did me so wrong x2

SAY NOTHING (pk x hxlcyon)

prod me + @c4v took like 12 hours to make this song

lyrics: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=or_VD-srVI0

i dont know what happened
ive been cryin and feelin so much sadness
now my bloods on the floor, i fade to blackness
i started hurting myself, its just a habit

wanna go back to that night
i wanna know whats on your mind
i wish that i could do it better
but i never do it right

now 6 days go by
still no reply
you cant decide
left me behind

watch you walk away from me
bottling up everything
tryna avoid all the pain
dont know how much i can take
you dont know if you can stay
thinking bout my past mistakes
you can hardly stay awake
on my mind like everyday

we got so many problems
every single night, i try to resolve them
starting every fight tell me that you dont want them
crying every night, cause you are the problem

you gave a choice
and then i dropped the ball
and now i sit and i wait for you to call
and you're to blame, you're to blame for all my faults
and i dont know why i got invovled

i wish that i could do it better
but i never do it right

dont know how much i can take

i dont know what happened
ive been cryin and feelin so much sadness
now my bloods on the floor, i fade to blackness
i started hurting myself, its just a habit

and i tried to make it fuckin better-fuckin better
you can lie right to my face, with no fuckin effort
and i would do it all again, even if my head hurts
and i wish we never met, you applied this pressure

and i wish we never met x5,

big drop blah blah

wish we never met x7, and i wish we never met

effort

mixed by @luvkurtis
prod by pekarot
lyrics:

And i've got this pit in my gut
I'm not sure what I want
So ill keep my mouth shut
And I'll just bottle it up
But you told me to

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I cant keep
Doing this all on my own

I'm breaking apart
I don't know where to go

You told me its
Fine but i'm not even
Sure if i'll make it back home

And id cry when i needed ya
I cant keep faking but i'm too conceited ya
You'd tell me to calm down when i get too heated yea
You know i can't leave my life here without you

But you know
You'd pick me when i was low

You taught me how
to pick up the phone

You taught me how
To just let it go

(chorus)
U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart

And I'm, And I'm giving up
And I, And I need someone
And I, And I, And I hate your guts
And I, And I dont think I'd

Ever run
I hope that I
Become what you want
And I cannot
Talk Im done
If im breaking I'll
Suck it up
I know that its
Over now
Still wish we could
Talk somehow
But I've become numb
And you dont know what
I've become

U told me to
Talk it out

I'm breaking
I don't know how

I know that we’re
over now

You said that its fine but im
Breaking apart 2x

spotify <3

talk it out

@siemspark

oh what its like
oh what its like !!

oh its such a god damn shame 
i cant argue getting flamed man 
this luv feels like a game
I think that ill take a rain check
too busy getting paid
lowkey I'm the one to blame man :')
she said I'm not the same
i guess we should run away then

hollywood! shes a hollywood star!
hollywood! shes a hollywood star! (x999)

my balcony
last ciggerette 
think Ill be damned if i do it again
know how it felt
i should've left
take it all back we were better as friends !!
i put a smile on my face :)
my feelings back on the shelf
she don't remember my name
the camera speaks for itself
and i been taking a break 
not tryna find no one else
and i just give it away
maybe its bad for my health

she wanna be a star! i been tryna be a star!!
she wanna be a star! i been tryna be a star!! (x9999)

hollywood (siem spark)

ft @7akkiro @trustt

lyrics:
@v_letical
i relive the same dream everytime i fall asleep
and im stuck alone cause of promises u said to keep
i dont feel safe anymore hes always watching me
and until i get out i guess ill just cry & scream

and i don't think that you understand how i felt when you told me
told me that it won't work out
do you even know who i am
i don't think you even know me but you still wanna slow things down

@7akkiro
fell apart in october got no time to heal
see you pass by my shoulder but i still can't feel
so where did i go wrong?
lost in my thoughts i can't seem to move on
why'd you act like you cared?
tell me if i did something to you
i'll always always feel like i knew you
i won't make those mistakes again
i promise you i won't fall on my face again
unless you tell me those lies

@trustt
and i'd break my back for you just to get what you want
and i'm so used to losing, don't know when to start
don't feel bad for me, just feel bad for my friends
can't feel pity for someone you don't care about anymore, been here before
so just close your eyes when you look down at the bed and hear me say your name
and i see that face, it says you'd run away with me, if only things could change

and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 

(@v_letical)
and i don't think that you understand how i felt when you told me
told me that it won't work out
do you even know who i am
i don't think you even know me but you still wanna slow things down
(x2)

still wanna slow things down (x100)

packet loss

first track of the ep "erasure" by owtiss!! see you next week for full release of it and the returning series of unchained volumes <333

psa. whoever is botting the views and likes each time i posted this, stop doing that ty

@owtiss
@neohnq

if ur gonna lie at least make it believable :/
tryna piece my heart together before the cracks erode
say u love me then you dont i rly need to know
im okay its nothing i just wanna be alone

i cant see the day
that u remember me
i wna stay away
cuz u wont leave my brain :(
i just wanted to stay
now nothing feels the same
just put up with pain
the smile u took away

ur dead to me
everyday i think of what u said to me
i just wanted to forget while i fell asleep
and now everyday it feels like its the end of me
things i never used to think are looping endlessly..

owtiss - erode (neohn)

ig: luvcronaa

Lyrics:

Crona:
Stop calling me,
And say whatever you need to say,
But face to face. Just walk to me, 
You know that I live a block away
From you. Cuz I’ve had enough for two,
So make your move. If it really mattered to you,
Then you’d stop calling me, and say whatever 
You need to say, but face to face now.

I just need time to step away, I need some 
Space now. I’ve been tired for way too long,
I need to sleep now. 

Yoku:
Go ahead and break no contact like you do
Every time. Cuz I know you know no better, 
In my eyes you’re so unsettling to look at.
A set back, I don’t wanna say that. 
Cuz that just means you’re coming back.
Why won’t you just change your mind?
But I say that you’re too much for me 
To handle now, yuh.

Tears (Ft.Trashgawd)Prod.lil broken

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