i loved you now the world is over and it’s all my fault right? you don’t cheat jaden you just don’t i want the real joe you jaden you

Lhls is no longer with us. RIP. Ur music will always live on through us!

Lit Songs #56

Geologist!

@lilhappylilsad @imsoalone

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i go my own way will u still stay
if i ever have to go will u let me
switchin lanes, if i fall will u help me

you is always on my mind cant believe it
how i tried to make u mine and i reached it
and im still getting high cause i need it
on the surface i am fine, whats beneath it

am i dreaming, girl whats our reason
i try to find myself in here like girl whats my meaning
feel like im sleeping, get low from my feelings
get high to relieve it, i fly and im leaving

i feel no shame, girl im a no name
if i find my own lane will u still stay
im beaten down, and i cry i cant feel shit
then i look into ur eyes and i feel it

u remind me of the good times, u remind me how i used to feel
u get me ridin on some good vibes, u remind me how it used to be
u remind me of the good times shawty give me good vibes bitch is real
u put me in a good mind, shawty give me good highs and its all surreal

no name w/ solonely (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

@whatevenisreal

lookin at the ground and i see your face
nobodies around when i need em the most
everybody treats me like a ghost
so imma disappear when they need me the most

catch me flyin out to LA
runnin round these fuckin circles
got a smile thats deceiving
you can hear it in my vocals
i been cryin in my bedroom
i been dyin just to see u 
can i get over this hurdle?
or will i fall and crack my skull?

lookin at the ground and i see your face
nobodies around when i need em the most
everybody treats me like a ghost
so imma disappear when they need me the most

ill be good enough for ya one day
but for now ill sit here waitin
hoping this will work its way out
but i doubt it, im decaying
wish my life had some more meanin
wish these pills would fuckin work
wish my head wasnt so fucked up
wish these feelings didnt hurt

Follow me <3

keep it a buck, im lonely af (prod. br//oken)

Baby girl don’t walk away
Wishing for tomorrow, today
Baby girl don’t walk away
Working for tomorrow, today

I know that this will kill me
You don’t know how it feels see
Baby girl don’t walk away
Wishing for tomorrow, today

There’s nothing in me really
Beneath the snow, I’m chilly
Baby girl don’t walk away
Wishing for tomorrow, today

I seek intrinsic happiness
I’m on the path of baphomets
The holes in my heart, cavernous
The blood is leaking, afference

I’ll show you where the magic is
Tripping harder than acid hits
The mushroom kingdom laughing it’s
Always fighting, so ravenous

I’m sick to my stomach
Starting to show in public
Broken soul, I want none of it
Venom leaks into my gullet

Happy on the day I die
Darkened soul, I seek demise
Body low, but I’m up high
I’m flying through an open sky

I know that this will kill me
You don’t know how it feels see
Baby girl don’t walk away
Wishing for tomorrow, today

There’s nothing in me really
Beneath the snow, I’m chilly
Baby girl don’t walk away
Wishing for tomorrow, today

follow fiftysix

don't walk away (prod. fiftysix)

This fightings beating up my soul
I know, you’ll never know
That without you, I’m not whole

And they always say I’m gonna blow
I’m dizzier than vertigo,
Just hold me tight and don’t let go

You threw my heart down the hole
I know, you’ll never know
That without you, I’m not whole

You’re gone and now I’m so cold
Dizzier than vertigo,
Held on tight, but let me go

You let me go
You let me go
You let me go

No stopping a plane that’s in the air
She’s going away, I sit and stare
Emotional days have me feeling despair
I’ll never forget you, I know you’re aware

Living life’s escaping death
Until it counts to my last breath
Demons lay my heart to rest
Beating stops from in my chest

It’s all gone now
Know you won’t come around
I’m fucking useless
Now stuck I’m soulbound

Meant more than life itself
Without you there’s no one else
Meant more than life itself

This fightings beating up my soul
I know, you’ll never know
That without you, I’m not whole

And they always say I’m gonna blow
I’m dizzier than vertigo,
Just hold me tight and don’t let go

You threw my heart down the hole
I know, you’ll never know
That without you, I’m not whole

You’re gone and now I’m so cold
Dizzier than vertigo,
Held on tight, but let me go

You let me go
You let me go
You let me go

twitter

you let me go (prod. misery)

Prod @tothegood
I'm just a fucked up kid, with some real bad skin
I throw up too much, spill my guts from within
I always feel sick, and my heart wrapped in sin
I don't wanna fit in, I just need some medicine

Sitting in my room I just can't think of you
Why you be so far and why you feeling blue
Feeling like I'm dead I know you feel it too
Wanna leave my body its just what I do

I been spendin all of my time tryna be an angel
But this darkness held within will kill me slow and painful
Cause we live fast and die young yeah but its fucking shameful
Way I talk to myself has been really hateful

Locked inside this old room with a gram
All that's left now I'm dead in the sand
Desert heat, a mirage on command
Leave me left for dead I black out on demand

fkdup (prod. tothegood)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

enjoy. 

prod. (@hkfiftyone2, @traviks, @cxldblxxd)

Lyrics

[HkFiftyOne]

Had too much to say I'll take it in the booth
Spittin flame you know I only speak the truth
Really fuckin hate it when you feelin blue
Used to make me smile but now youre frowning too

Feeling like I'm Oli switch like Majin Buu
Switch it up on beats i rock with Traviks too
I'm still laying bars you know its what I do
Tryna find myself I'm tryna get a clue

I dont wanna know if youre dead or alive
I just wanna get up and move on with my life
Blacking out on pills i sink into the floor
Yeah you said you hate me but i hate you more

[Esxovar]

I don't wanna know if your dead or alive 
I just wanna make my bands, catch you off my surprise
Look into my face, baby into my eyes 
Tell me that what you said was all just lies, yeah

Smoking all this dope on the daily 
Still in love with you that's a maybe
Still care about you, that's a maybe 
Do I still want you, that's a hell nah

I dont fuckin want you, anymore
Took you off the contacts of both my phone 
Poppin all these hydros, I lose control yeah 
I used to be sick you were my antidote 

Said youd never leave, but you left me
Scared of broke hearts, but your breaked me
Now I really hoping that you hate me
Hope the thought of me drives you cazy

Posting all these pics, it don't phaze me 
Blocked you off the gram, I don't wanna see your face b
Used me attention that's your craving
Said it wasint true, but you're faking

I've been really fuckin feeling empty lately
Snorting up the coke to forget you baby
I been doing all these drugs to forget you baby

ihateyoumore w/ hkfiftyone (@travikskun)

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

You ain’t gotta feel so blue
I can make you feel brand new
Make love all night with you
Without you


Don’t want to breathe
Without you
Don’t want to see
Without you
Do you feel 
The same as me?


The bad path I chose
Left me stranded alone
But I never answer
When you hit my phone


Oh yeah, fight through it
All, all that I do is
Not enough for you
It’s not enough

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

unraveled - ft. guccihighwaters (prod. fiftysix)

Lie Again Ft. Yesterday & Moonlet (prod. Yung Flex) out on spotify

prod. by @notmorgn

i been climbing on this ladder for months
time has worn it down now i’m breaking the rungs
city smog blackening my lungs
I’m used to shitty days
this stuff just isn’t fun anymore
where did all the time go 
spent it with my eyes closed
spent it with some fake friends
dissing ain’t a typo
now my pockets fat
they gonna need some lypo
i always spend it fast
i make it back in a night though

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

i need excitement
something that could pump my blood around
i been fighting with myself every time i’m down
and i turned blue right at the bottom 
man you let me drown now they ask me 
why i never bring that girl around
done with that phase
i ain’t coming back aye
but the pain stays
tatted with the sad face
sit back look at all the damage
i never knew i caused it
but i saw it when you vanished
i really hurt myself for you
i cry i feel i’m just like you
and i killed my body
and i killed my brain
i’m a bag of bones baby
walking in the rain
i call it

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

no name w/ solonely (prod. lilhappylilsad)

lil happy lil sad

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