this was exactly what i needed to hear this month, oh my goodness

this part right here..you must be stopped you absolute genius

nvm.
prod me @assperrr & @claudesdiary
additional bg vox from @claudesdiary

inspos for song:
jane remover - search party
sewerperson - the harvest

[lyrics]

*intro*
last year was the start of the end
i couldn't be here without you
but the path split again
i've got so much to value
and more time to spend
but i've been treated like shit
how could you call me your friend?

*verse*
cuz I’ve been down bad
with a fake friend
I don’t have much to say when
I’ve been waiting
for you to get it
I’ve been here for so long
to just forget it
I said no 100 times
you couldn’t accept it
I’ve been way to scared to
read the message
the last one sent
makes you look obsessive
but ur the main character
want me by your side
and break my barriers
the more we talk it gets scarier
thought u were my friend
u felt superior
put yourself first not a thought here
if it doesn't work then its not fair
and u wanna say that I don't care
but I'm your longest friend who never got scared
pick the phone up shit is still the same
here's the dial tone shit will never change

*bridge*

cuz i haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
I never could buy I'm on trial shit
I'm blocking the number like

*hook*
go!
they hit me back and all i said was
nvm
nvm
nvm
nvm
where did you
go! x4

*outro*
cuz I can't deal with all this back and forth
I can't commit to what ur asking for
I've tried to mend this more than once before
don't hit me up I went and locked the doors

you liked to make me your main focus
to manipulate me till I'm hopeless
you make me like shit like did you notice?
you didn't notice
you'll never notice.

spotify !

nvm. (jauntsen x asperr x claude)

produced by kenkamon (me)

enjoy, and thank you ♡

lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

prod. me x bended
mixed & mastered by @aidenberkley

i really don't wanna think too much
i just think that i need some help sometimes
can't seem to get my shit together and keep in touch
don't want nobody to know
that i'm speechless
that's why i'm staying inside on the weekends
and i've been trying to make up for my weakness
but i guess it was me
i don't know what to believe

i've been falling apart
it's been getting too much
don't know what's going on in my head
i've been crumbling on the inside
it's all around me and i can't hide
i'll stop the crying for the last time
it's like a hurdle that i can't climb
won't try
feeling like i might die
inside
feeling like i might die

and now i'm overthinking overdrinking again
i can't pretend i'm not
my stomach's tied in knots
and i've not fought
again and again
i'm stuck at the end
not making amends
i guess it all depends
are we friends
are we friends

i really don't wanna think too much
i just think that i need some help sometimes
can't seem to get my shit together and keep in touch

i've been falling apart
it's been getting too much
don't know what's going on in my head
i've been crumbling on the inside
it's all around me and i can't hide
i'll stop the crying for the last time
it's like a hurdle that i can't climb
won't try
feeling like i might die
inside
feeling like i might die

spotify!

keep in touch

Prod by me

(lyrics <3)

8 legs
im cold
haired back
im shocked
venom
in touch
where do i start

where do i get started started
where do i get started started 
where do i get started started
where do i get started started

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

oh
oh-ah

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

poison making it hard to walk
i dont feel good i feel sorry
i cant feel my inside
do you feel alive
my eyes are red
my tears are black
my spit is ink and gold
my sweat is growing mold

the hourglass
has made me fall
ive reached down
spinning views of my end
where do i go

Black Widow

Prod mee 

Why don’t you tell me how you feel
About me
(Cut me off) like I don’t even exist-ist-ist
This time
(I-might)
have to live with this
What a bitch
If we can’t resist, then we cannot coexist

I’ll just act like I don’t care that you don’t miss me
I can’t re-write our history
Why’d you have to go and fucking kiss me
Our love’s still a mystery to me
If you gave me one more chance I’d change 
I swear it

Yeah, but you know I’m a liar
I’ll tell you what you want to hear then burn it down to fire
I know that I’m an asshole
(Uh)
You know how I do it
Couple pills to get me through it
I keep on reminiscing on the past
I knew our love would never last
Should have seen it through the glass
I knew our love would never last

I knew It from the beginning
(Knew it form the beginning)
Should have see seen the signs
(Should have seen the signs)
I should have know better
(I was blind)
But I got one less sweater
(I’m so cold)
And a useless letter from you
Letter from you

We can’t coexist
Cause we we can’t resist old loves temptation

Coexist

Produced by me
Guitar by me

Lyrics:

And it's all the same
(it's all the same)
I realized that now
(realized that now)
Nothing ever changed
(nothing ever changed)
I realized that now
(realized that now)

I always seem to shot myself in the foot when i open up
(it's all the same)
(realized)
oh-oh
(that now)
Open up
And i was close
(nothing ever changed)
But i was never close enough
(realized that now)
Close enough

And it's all the same
I realized that now
Nothing ever changed
I realized that now

(it's all the same)
(realized that now)
(nothing ever changed)
(realized that now)

And it's all the same
And it's all the same
And it's all the same
(it's all the same)
I realized that now
(realized that now)
Nothing ever changed
(nothing ever changed)
I realized that now
(realized that now)

It's all the same

produced by mix 
this one means a lot to me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0jR8O452oApzcsn1ehsj5v?si=efd9e5f072894773
https://music.apple.com/us/album/stones-single/1740737359
hope you enjoy :>

lyrics:
I always tried my best, but you still left
you say I just need rest, but I'm a mess
and I hate the words you say, it hurts my chest
I'll let you beat me to death
and I know I try to fake, but idk what's next
is this really the end?

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

spent all my time caring for you
and I said sorry when you were wrong too
I wanted love, you wanted it too
always to you, always for you
spent all my time talking to you
did you even see how much I loved you?
even still now, I'll care for you
it's always to you, always for you

ohhhhhhhh
ohh ohh ohh ohh
ahhhhhhhh

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
x2

NOW THE SCARS WILL NEVER FADE
I CAN'T WISH FOR BRIGHTER DAYS
END ME PLEASE, I'M NOTHING WITHOUT HER
WILL YOU HEAR IF I SHOUT LOUDER?
KILL ME PLEASE MY HEARTS BEEN SHATTERED
INTO PIECES IT'S ALL BEEN SCATTERED
TO YOU DID I EVER FUCKING MATTER?

BREAKING ALL MY BONES
SHE RIPS INTO MY SKULL
TO WHOM I LOVED SO DEAR
I WISH YOU WERE HERE
HER TEETH START AT MY JAW
NOW ALL HOPE'S BEEN LOST

I trusted you I loved you
I trusted you I loved you
but you hurt me too
you hurt me too

I trusted you I loved you
but now I gotta go without you
cause I wasn't enough for you

thank you <3

stones

thanks for listening :)

featuring @killzoltar and @iluvyousomuch 

master by the goat @kidmangx

impression, sisyphus (feat zoltar & ilysm) [prod lowtyde]

Xbox Controller Type Beat (not Really)

back
produced by me ._.
mastered by @dawsin
featuring @daywxtch
thank you both dawsin for mastering and daywatch for featuring <3
hope you enjoy 🤍
___________________________________________________________________
Lyrics

{RiRi}
tell me how you lose control
tell me how do you what you do
tell me, tell me, do you know, 
all the hell that i've been thru?

oh no,
i guess i got no good friends
everybody just pretends
thats why i cut out off the outside
this week i cut again
last month i cut off friends
last year i tried to cut it all 
'n put my life to end
        (UGH)
OKAY OKAY OKAY
HAVE YOU EVER FUCKING PLAYED?
NO!
OKAY OKAY OKAY
THEN HOW 'BOUT WE FUCKIN' PLAY? 
hahahahahahaha
that was funny,
i was laughing
now its back to what im doing;
did you hear that?
js the wind
i dont know him,
i dont know him.

{daywatch}
jesus christ, you're difficult
you want me to side with wherever you stand, force me to fit that mold
like, baby, we are not a cult
i'm not cutting off my friends 'cus they're the reason i'm still here
and even if you don't like them it's my choice
so, don't even start
i'm so tired of these people tryna rip me off
say some kind shit to my face then turn it to a shard
sudden fire in my back, i couldn't see the signs
don't you ever fucking ask me why i'm on guard

{RiRi}
tell me how you lose control
tell me how do you what you do
tell me, tell me, do you know, 
all the hell that i've been thru?

they call it ego,
but im just matching your energy
honestly,
imma treat these people how they treating me,
honestly.
imma keep it real, fuck if it hurts me
honesty,
imma stay this way no matter where it's landing me
TAKE IT AWAY,
ALL OF THIS HURT;
AND ALL OF THIS PAIN
GIVE ME MY ESCAPE,
I CANT HANDLE THIS BRAIN
CIRCLES UNDER EYES,
DO I SEEM OKAY?
whats that over there? 
polluting the air,
just some broken bones beyond all repair
its rude to stare,
rip out their hair,
gasoline feels nice when sparked by a flare
yeah, life isnt fair,
they learnt their way,
growing up taught them some new ways to hate
they wanna be safe;
running away,
when it is them that they want to escape

​🇹​​🇦​​🇰​​🇪​ ​🇮​​🇹​ ​🇦​​🇼​​🇦​​🇾​,
​🇦​​🇱​​🇱​ ​🇴​​🇫​ ​🇹​​🇭​​🇮​​🇸​ ​🇭​​🇺​​🇷​​🇹​
​🇦​​🇳​​🇩​ ​🇦​​🇱​​🇱​ ​🇴​​🇫​ ​🇹​​🇭​​🇮​​🇸​ ​🇵​​🇦​​🇮​​🇳​
​🇬​​🇮​​🇻​​🇪​ ​🇲​​🇪​ ​🇲​​🇾​ ​🇪​​🇸​​🇨​​🇦​​🇵​​🇪​,
​🇮​ ​🇨​​🇦​​🇳​​🇹​ ​🇭​​🇦​​🇳​​🇩​​🇱​​🇪​ ​🇹​​🇭​​🇮​​🇸​-
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​🇩​​🇴​ ​🇮​ ​🇸​​🇪​​🇪​​🇲​ ​🇴​​🇰​​🇦​​🇾​?
​🇸​​🇼​​🇪​​🇦​​🇷​ ​🇮​❜​🇱​​🇱​ ​🇰​​🇳​​🇴​​🇨​​🇰​ ​🇭​​🇮​​🇲​ ​🇮​​🇳​ ​🇹​​🇭​​🇪​ ​🇫​​🇦​​🇨​​🇪​ ​🇸​​🇦​​🇾​ ​🇮​ ​🇼​​🇴​​🇳​​🇹​
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