tell me WHY DID IT END THIS WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

literally keep coming back I can’t get over how amazing your voice is

Back again this song has me inna choke hold

original song
https://soundcloud.com/jessescc/dirty-ft-heylog

heylog verse only

heylog - dirty

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

anima

produced by mix 
this one means a lot to me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0jR8O452oApzcsn1ehsj5v?si=efd9e5f072894773
https://music.apple.com/us/album/stones-single/1740737359
hope you enjoy :>

lyrics:
I always tried my best, but you still left
you say I just need rest, but I'm a mess
and I hate the words you say, it hurts my chest
I'll let you beat me to death
and I know I try to fake, but idk what's next
is this really the end?

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

spent all my time caring for you
and I said sorry when you were wrong too
I wanted love, you wanted it too
always to you, always for you
spent all my time talking to you
did you even see how much I loved you?
even still now, I'll care for you
it's always to you, always for you

ohhhhhhhh
ohh ohh ohh ohh
ahhhhhhhh

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
x2

NOW THE SCARS WILL NEVER FADE
I CAN'T WISH FOR BRIGHTER DAYS
END ME PLEASE, I'M NOTHING WITHOUT HER
WILL YOU HEAR IF I SHOUT LOUDER?
KILL ME PLEASE MY HEARTS BEEN SHATTERED
INTO PIECES IT'S ALL BEEN SCATTERED
TO YOU DID I EVER FUCKING MATTER?

BREAKING ALL MY BONES
SHE RIPS INTO MY SKULL
TO WHOM I LOVED SO DEAR
I WISH YOU WERE HERE
HER TEETH START AT MY JAW
NOW ALL HOPE'S BEEN LOST

I trusted you I loved you
I trusted you I loved you
but you hurt me too
you hurt me too

I trusted you I loved you
but now I gotta go without you
cause I wasn't enough for you

thank you <3

stones

prod by ruevi & me
@ruevi

lyrics -
-ruevi-
(yeah i can't deny
didn't even try
i left you with some dust
cuz always wanna fight
now i see the mess
paid with some regrets
staring at the phone
in the silence of the night)

-grasior-
do you even care if im still there
single call away yet you just stare
stomping on the ground for what never meant
the birds are chirping this should be your punishment

you say that your a model 
picking up a bottle
drifting in the air up there

do you think about it
if you want to hide it
why is all so unfair

i dont want to wait for the dead air
talking like you know me waht a nightmare
tell me where do i belong
so i can play along

-ruevi-
keep it in your distance
i don't wanna listen to you
you are always pissed off
and there is nothing i can undo

spit in my face
(i won't be mad)
say what you want
(can't be that bad)
is it all that you have
cuz im sick of your traits
you make me wanna puke
everytime i hear your name

don't end it
its doing damage
don't let me fall now
its kinda messed up
but at the same time i don't want you around me
hang up everytime when you call me 

-ruevi & grasior-
you got me feeling sick in my bones
but nothing that i do makes me numb
i rather be with you than alone
count to three n then its fucking done

yeah i can't deny
didn't even try
i left you with some dust
cuz always wanna fight
now i see the mess
paid with some regrets
staring at the phone
in the silence of the night
(x2)

-grasior-
why'd you call me
step back 5 feet let me feel free
fresh air in my body but the same me
same mess but i cant just do the same thing
not the same thing no

noxium ft. ruevi

prod me

lyrics:

i aim it slowly
gotta be careful
she looks so lovely, got her in my reticle

i aim it slowly
gotta be careful
she looks so lovely, got her in my reticle

~got her in my reticle

i swear ill end it now, press the muzzle to my skull
why do you care now, trying to atone?
your actions cut way too close to the bone
literally not joking you saw it from my phone (phone)

~your slowly killing yourself dawsin

play with my feelings
then i play with your life
*life*
talking about my emotions as i click open my knife
*knife*
if you want to, you can try and hide
if i see you with him again i promise he'll die

y-e-a is what you told me last thursday
told you that i loved you, and your dry in the worst way
what did i do to deserve this in the first place?
looking back i could've known from your sweet face

i aim it slowly
gotta be careful
she looks so lovely, got her in my reticle

needa go
my heart aches
u felt like a home
stop me before i break

gonna blow out my head with this red dot.
thought i'd be good enough but i guess not
but id rather be alone and just rot
its my safe place at least that's what i thought

needa go
my heart aches
need more
before you and i cave

needa go
my heart aches
need more
before you and i c-c-c-c

"all the shit that you used to care so much about, just keeps you a prisoner of your own mind"

play with my feelings
then i play with your life
*life*
talking about my emotions as i click open my knife
*knife*

reticle

produced by @hiraethsry

lyrics:

(hiraeth)

take my soul take my body too and leave me here alone
sorry, crashing out on you , its hard to be controlled
looking at the water man id hate to be so cold
bottom of the bridge is over there its looking warm
wonder if i would have found some peace and some tranquillity
holding onto nothing bro im really getting sick of me
its been so long i dont really mind
you should let go now i wont lie
all i gave to you
was all ive ever had
you took a piece of me
and threw it in the trash
all that i endured
just to go to waste
i poud my heart out
for you to copy paste
i let this rain fall down
i dont mind it
i thought with all this dirt you would notice
and though i hate myself you ignored it

(dazed)

how bout lets back track
what did you just say to me?
i know you meant that
but you said it playfully
and thats a problem in itself
i hope you know that
dont say that youre at fault when you blamed me before that
i think im good off all the social interaction
im so tired of talking
im sorry I've been lagging
im going m.i.a for the 12th time this week
im on the verge of it all, i feel my knees getting weak
i'd never resort to abusing my power
talk hard in your lyrics but to me youre a coward
i fear im going crazy pulling strands in the shower
you encourage me to do that, and youre making me cower
I TAKE TOO LONG TO RESPOND
HOW COULD YOU DEAL WITH THAT?
MY MEMORY ISNT FOND
SO I'LL FORGET BOUT THAT
you cant tell me im wrong
when you move like that
yet i'd drop anything just to hear youre okay
and i'll cover my face
in almost every single photo
im insecure and i swear pics are just a no-go
dont need your help
promise, im better off solo
and you know
you know

tranquility (feat. hiraeth)

prod by stezzyxl 
enjoy

lyrics:
clipping all my beats
you can see the red spreading on my sheets
never liked the green
turn it up like 5 or 6 db
so watch it how u walk
“chasing bags” you’re chasing the 
(hawk tuah)
so watch it how u talk
preaching the “money is power” but chasing the wap?

there’s so much shit that i can say
those are the secrets im keeping till grave
so
get the fuck out of my way
i don’t got patience, i can’t stand to wait
so
get the fuck out of my face
i don’t got time to hang out with the prey 
so
get the fuck out of my 
face
get the fuck out of my

i took these years just to find myself
i learn from god, and all the pain i delt 
it’s time to shed all the damn old skin
repent my sins, thanking god i win

blood is dripping from my neck to the ground
leave a trail of all the mess till im found
till im found, ill never make a sound
even now

2024 pulled up with my wrist slit
2025 i’m pulling up with a new bitch
i’ve seen it all before, trauma locked up in my eyes
i’ve seen it all before
these eyes will never lie (x2)


ya no quiero a jugar
dame dame otro mas
me rompio mi corazon
reglame o porfavor (x3)

dirty

kinda meh
produced by chalyre

(pull up chalyre)

(whoa whoa)
(whoa whoa)
(yeah yeah)

youre sowing doubts
run your mouth
little bitch what are you talking about
hoe reroute
don’t come around
the dogs will sniff you out
hear that sound
best get down
6 feet underground
why you frowning?
you too scared to duke it out?

your bloodline ends with you under a pyre
shame how you went and turned me into a liar
quit holding on youre fighting for survival
just let it go youre stuck in your denial

im seeing ghosts
took another hit to feel some more
pussy what you waiting for?

grip the steel
how’s it feel
9mm your meal
quit begging your fate is sealed

ill disappear
6 months from me you won’t hear
this clone looked into a mirror
ill turn into what you fear

cleanse

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

stones

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