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[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
blue blood inside your veins
mine stay red always will

girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
you say you're over me 
but can we keep things real

I know theres something
she's only bluffing
how long can we lie to ourselves
I know theres something
you said you loved me
would you just tell me the truth

girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
blue blood inside your veins
mine stay red always will

girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
you say you're over me 
but can we keep things real

I can't take anymore of this
all I can think is of you amidst
all the bullshit
can't let go if I can't forget you
maybe I never meant to
Maybe I didn't try yet
close my eyelids forever
but if I can't forget her
 stuck in the center
of those brown eyes
pull together and sever our ties
try to remember memories are better than nothing
been lying to myself again
im a fuckin mess
try my best not to regret
all the time that we spent
girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
blue blood inside your veins
mine stay red always will
girl I fuckin hate
the way you make me feel
you say you're over me 
but can we keep things real
I know theres something
she's only bluffing
how long can we lie to ourselves
I know theres something
you said you loved me
would you just tell me the truth

always will [prod. Nversad]

I cant feel my face
I just snort it away, I snort it away
And I dont hate this place
I just hate myself

And I dont hate you
I just hate myself
Am I another dusty memory on your shelf?
Will youre still brand new to me,
so tell me how it's suppose to fucking be.

So lonely,
now I see,
the colors,
so clearly,
and I wonder,
does she miss me?
Do you miss me?

I could never be picture perfect.
I could never be fucking worth it.

I know youre better off, without me...

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fucking worthless. [prod RODGER ★☆]

prod. @WRCKTNGL

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Do these words hurt to hear
I selfishly keep u near
I drown my thoughts in a fifth
80mph off a bridge now
I spent two weeks sick owwww
Withdrawals break my head down
Fighting my own way out

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye yeah think i took too much
aye yeah think i took too much
aye damn think i took too much
aye god damn think i took too much
x2

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye god damn
i might throw up
think i took too much
aye god damn
i might throw up 
think i took too much

ANYDAY I MIGHT NOT WAKE UP (prod. WRCKTNGL)

internet crush fuck my life
never met nah we just type
lay in bed refresh all night
gotta let you know that I 
I can’t get you out my mind
Painted nails and half blue dye
pretty eyes send a million likes
you’re across the world fuck it I’ll fly

you’re across the world but girl it’s fine
I’ll talk through text till my phone dies

meet me at the spot you said that you would
internet crush and girl you got me good
oh like I just wanna talk to you right now
been so long since I felt like myself
every fucking thing got me overwhelmed but when I hear from you I feel better well I 
never wanted to feel this way 
looking at my screen oh no
but you’re so damn perfect opposite ends of the earth but fuck it I’ll buy a ticket and go fuck my phone

internet crush fuck my life
never met nah we just type
lay in bed refresh all night
gotta let you know that I 
I can’t get you out my mind
Painted nails and half blue dye
pretty eyes send a million likes
you’re across the world fuck it I’ll fly

meet me at the spot you said that you would
internet crush and girl you got me good
oh god you’re so gorgeous fuck I can’t
hold myself together when you post a pic 
send a million hearts but it won’t mean shit we’re so far apart but you’re so different
I never wanted to feel this way looking at my screen oh no
but you’re so damn perfect opposite ends of the earth but fuck it I’ll buy a ticket and go 
fuck my phone

internet crush (prod. trxpicvl)

poison darts in my hand now

produced by Cian P

I hate how much I miss it
sick of screaming good night princess
you always sit above my head with
tears and air pods in

and I wonder where you went 
while I’m in the background
how much harder can it get
I’m sorry if i lashed out
I’m always so upset
now I won’t make a damn sound
you’re beating something dead
why don’t you put your hand down

is this how it ends
how could I forget now
I’m honestly impressed
go party at your friends house
I’m so over this
ill just keep my head down
we’ve always been a mess living in a glass house

leaving cracks where I stood
and inside of us
I thought that I could 
fix it every time but
wherever I was
you would find a way to beat me again
against the glass every time
leaving scratches that I would patch and say will be fine
I apologize

beating something dead (feat. fifty grand)[prod. cian p]

wish you would just call back
i dont know what happened
were moving so fast
and ive been feeling absent
all the time
when you're here im happy 
lately ive been having 
the worst days of my life
wishing you would call back
ive been saying too bad
maybe get a notepad read my mind
i wanna be happy
you know ive been having the worst days of my life

like misery and me when the wind shifts
put me in a grave with your lipstick
on my cheek when you drop me 6 feet
do you feel anything as you leave

and i guess this is how you wanted it
see the mess you could make with my heart against
the floor and your form takes shape of the rain when it pours
now i wish i never started
and ive reached the farthest point from you
why did i do all this when i know
you sit in your apartment crying on your phone

wish you would just call back
i dont know what happened
were moving so fast
and ive been feeling absent
all the time
when you're here im happy 
lately ive been having 
the worst days of my life
wishing you would call back
ive been saying too bad
maybe get a notepad read my mind
i wanna be happy
you know ive been having the worst days of my life

the worst days of my life (feat. blankts)[prod. cian p]

is any of this real it still hasnt set in
all the pain ive ever felt started spreading
im afraid of it coming down any second
and I think i did it myself with your hands
is any of this real it still hasnt set in
all the pain ive ever felt started spreading
im afraid of it coming down any second
and I think its all over now death dancing

reflections from the floor
color on the pavement
light leaking out
stare at shadows following me
i know that its my fault
reminded every day
dont wanna do this anymore and its so hard lately
id say i fucked it up if i had control
born in a body nobody would love
and  i cant make you care
i just really thought you did
after all these years you left in 30 seconds

is any of this real it still hasnt set in
all the pain ive ever felt started spreading
im afraid of it coming down any second
and I think i did it myself with your hands
is any of this real it still hasnt set in
all the pain ive ever felt started spreading
im afraid of it coming down any second
and I think its all over now death dancing

all at once (prod. cian p)

not enough (prod. cian p)

so much to say
you don’t wanna hear it
is something wrong with me
is it my appearance
are you listening or could you care less
its hard to believe you didn’t mean to do this
I’ve got so much to say
you don’t wanna hear it
is something wrong with me
is it my appearance
is it inside of me
tell me sincerely
i know its underneath
and nobody hears me
I’ve got so much to say
you don’t wanna hear it
I’m calling out your name but theres interference
i don’t wanna leave but i can’t stay here
its getting so hard to breathe when you’re nowhere near

what do you take me for
wear it on my head
curl the cord where it connects
hold it forward along my neck
leaning towards whats for the best
what do you take me for
while I hang my head
and are you sure you’re alright with this
I am more than you’d expect
bury me where you see fit

redux (prod. slidinmoon)

draco throat


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redux (prod. slidinmoon)

LIL NARNIA

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