I have more than enough

head gurts

🤧

New emo

sadeyes

lyrics:

Everything u know
At least everything u thought
She’s yelling thru the phone
Like shes tryna reach god
I am not the one that is capable of saving u
This bottle inside my hand let me know im ok
They tell me ill live a short live so I sit here and wait
On the east side I succumb to my fate
Some days I feel like im not worth this impact ive made
The worst day of ur life for some is a regular day

Girl to see u this way
its breaking my heart
I was supposed to provide
But Im lost in the dark
And I know ur at home
And I know im still away
But If u just hold on
I will make it worth the wait
So I pick myself 
Out the sunken place
I know got to be strong
But my tears hold weight
So my heart teflon
And my vice in my veins
And if the pains not gone
Ill just wipe it from my face

Even though we all die
Im ok with dying young
Long as my words get heard
And my stance stay strong
Cause baby the last thing id do is
Try to hurt someone
But we’ve all been there
And it feels so wrong
With this winter approaching
I been heavy in my heart
Cause I could feel me dying
As I type the song
Im been focused on trying
To focus more on love
But the night comes faster
And I miss the sun
Scraps of my body in the body bag 
He was so loved by everyone but him
Cause they dont know me for my character
And oh my god ur a monster
If this was want they wanted I will deliver no doubt
This turmoil I face I convert to word of mouth
Walk thru the night and my shadow my only friend
But I been seeing figures by my bed like him

Girl to see u this way
its breaking my heart
I was supposed to provide
But Im lost in the dark
And I know ur at home
And I know im still away
But If u just hold on
I will make it worth the wait
So I pick myself 
Out the sunken place
I know got to be strong
But my tears hold weight
So my heart teflon
And my vice in my veins
And if the pains not gone
Ill just wipe it from my face

11 (eric godlow)

lyrics:

Im ashamed that I indulged
I just liked the taste
While the sweat drips down into the flesh its like game
Plus he had some fight
It just made it right even though its still wrong
Blood drips down
My legs and I cry
Not because hurts
But because ive never felt like this in my life

Safely indulge in this curse with the lights out
My form is skews in moonlight while I cry out 
The pain is a right of passage if ur apart of my house
Its heavy on the shame when dragging bodies to the hideout
Take in the lore its all fact its not to scare
Honestly at face value its there to warn you
Cause none of my kind would’ve chose this affliction
Its a cycle of nature and god is the culprit

Plague had hit the town
And prayers couldn’t be found
I could feel my heart pound
Lord save me ive drowned
God forgive me I had made it halfway
Thru the mist I was hit by the fruit of my fate

 theres nothing here to hide from
its just rain
its just angel tears for someone that died
we can improve
its just pain
and it hurts but i know it subsides
Ur just like me how u hate bad news
Turn off the tv cause im on channel 5
Its 9 bodies in protected parks
This is reality so of course it gets dark

Rest when u can cause the morning is nigh
Transitions cost u a portion of life
Please dont revolt I guarantee u will die
Ive seen the consequences before my eyes
She turns to me
And asks for my advice
In all honesty
U dont know what you’ve sacrificed
She takes her life
And I knew she would
With this curse bestowed
U carry ur sanity alone

 theres nothing here to hide from
its just rain
its just angel tears for someone that died
we can improve
its just pain
and it hurts but i know it subsides
Ur just like me how u hate bad news
Turn off the tv cause im on channel 5
Its 9 bodies in protected parks
This is reality so of course it gets dark

WEREWOLF IN PARIS (NEVRFALL X BRANWEN)

lyrics:

wrote this song around 7 oclock this morning
with the drapes open on a wednesday while its pouring
how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6

Oh Septembers gone but I still think about it
Ssri’s might help but still my visions clouded
U do not see my fight cause still I smile
Last time it had been genuine I cant account
I put these drugs on my tongue and pray to god it help
It doesn’t but up in this studio I can feel myself now
I haven’t eaten in two days and my breath is foul
But I am not tryna impress no one im just being myself
Won’t you take ur time with me
Past events make trust hard to believe in
Ive been healed but still I bleed
Please take precautions loving me

wrote this song around 7 oclock this morning
with the drapes open on a wednesday while its pouring
how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6
I dont wanna hurt anymore yea
And I dont wanna try anymore yea
I would accept my fate while I lay on the floor in this mess I have built here
U Use ur body we dont use words here
My fate has taken all of me
Free will never meant too much to me
I always make the wrong decisions anyways
So I sit back and let life create

wrote this song around 7 oclock this morning
with the drapes open on a wednesday while its pouring
how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6
how did i do all this shit
without ever leaving my room
none of my friends are bumping my shit
but im still on the move
still on the move
mid afternoon but im still on the juice
my baby confused
she tell me i live like theres nothing to lose

SEPTEMBER P2 (NEVRFALL)

lyrics:

halfway around the world and still alive
what do u think about when im not there for u at night girl
leaves fall and the worlds starts dying
even though its cold I feel ur touch and I ignite love
plants get sick and his skin starts growing mold
candle wicks light the forest path to his home
its all gone to shit in the welcoming of the snow
fingers frost bit while he rests in this white cold

mm and if my body rots will u lose hope
put it back together for me and we can pretend
I still look the same as back when we were just friends
my heart is still intact and I would do anything for u
mm dont face the door focus on staying warm
weve all been here before but that doesnt make it easier
broken but wanting more they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of having to know i cant help u

halfway around the world and still alive
what do u think about when im not there for u at night girl
leaves fall and the worlds starts dying
even though its cold I feel ur touch and I ignite love
plants get sick and his skin starts growing mold
candle wicks light the forest path to his home
its all gone to shit in the welcoming of the snow
fingers frost bit while he rests in this white cold

CONSIDER IT A LESSON (ERIC GODLOW)

MY HEART MATCHES THE CONCRETE

lyrics:

Open the attic and
Take out the bones
Powder it down then bag that
U lose a life when u enter the home
Really u live in a mouse trap
Clean off the dirt and I fold the clothes
Nobody cares if Nobody knows
Nobody there when u look at my soul
Fix me change me fuck that
I see candlelight come flicker thru the autumn air
It emanates from cross the silver lake beside the forest there
I feel the evening wind come brush me on my auburn hair
Im to far to dodge this storm but nature couldn’t care

Oh what a way to die
Am I to blame cause I
Was led astray to find
This old woodlands heart
Well I guess ill die
Let it take my life
I cant take it anymore I need to unzip
Watch the ground u step on cause it could be toxic
I just blew the baggage door the and stormed the cockpit
Dont you know that time to think is fucking nonsense
Watch the fire rage and turn the forest into soot
Its a sign its the consequence for damage where we stood
Over time we have buried all the flesh into the mud
But the eyes of the earth prove again were in their clutch

Open the attic and
Take out the bones
Powder it down then bag that
U lose a life when u enter the home
Really u live in a mouse trap
Clean off the dirt and I fold the clothes
Nobody cares if Nobody knows
Nobody there when u look at my soul
Fix me change me fuck that
I see candlelight come flicker thru the autumn air
It emanates from cross the silver lake beside the forest there
I feel the evening wind come brush me on my auburn hair
Im to far to dodge this storm but nature couldn’t care

Placebo (eric Godlow X LeonardoDaLenny)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

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shiver. | Produced by septfree

from repair (2020), overlaid with field recordings

toven [remend]

i wanna right my wrongs

🎶🌟 Producer Xenology surprises us once again with the third track from his EP 'Latin House', this time in collaboration with Garvanin, titled "Aguacero de Mayo". 💃🔥

✨ This track, filled with the pure essence of House/Latin House, is a musical experience you can't miss. It’ll get you moving to the rhythm of tropical rain! 🌧️🎵

👉 Make sure to save it on all your favorite platforms and enjoy it anytime. 🎧💽

🚨 Out now! Available on all streaming services. 🌐🎶

FREE DOWNLOAD: https://pumpyoursound.com/f/pys/garvanin-xenology-aguacero-de-mayo-nwb-011/191240

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🌐 Fan Link: https://fanlink.tv/aguacerodemayo

Aguacero De Mayo

Garvanin & Xenology - Aguacero De Mayo (NWB 011) [OUT NOW SPOTIFY]

starting off the new year with a collaboration between myself and @derrick-boo. this is our first collab since 2017. many more songs to come in 2025.

other platforms

stripes (feat. derrick boo)

The Missing Pieces

check up on your friends <3

lyrics:

this is how it goes, healing is a drag
but these are the days that you're never getting back
look at what we went through, check up on your friends
avery didn't live to see me fall in love again

breaking habits like a drumstick
cross my t's and dot my i's
its elementary but i miss you
can we talk just one more time

there's something haunting me
there's nothing left to lose
and in all honesty
i'm nothing without you

i love then i leave then i lose myself
you're a mess i'm a wreck to your mental health
and its haunting me
there's something haunting me

every time i look at you
i can't believe my eyes
you were loved, you were cherished
you felt abandoned, you were mine

breaking habits like a drumstick
cross my t's and dot my i's
its elementary but i miss you
can we talk just one more time

(one more time, one more)

there's something haunting me
there's nothing left to lose
and in all honesty
i'm nothing without you

i love then i leave then i lose myself
you're a mess i'm a wreck to your mental health
and its haunting me
there's something haunting me
(haunting me!)

this is how it goes, healing is a drag
but these are the days that you're never getting back
look at what we went through, check up on your friends
avery didn't live to see me fall in love again


avery

excedi: https://soundcloud.com/excedix

thanku to all u guys <33 ur support means the most :)))) <3

fiveofive (prod. excedi)

sleep gang (prod. nadiak)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

lyrics:

ive got too much to die for
3am and my eyes sore
i think i smoked more
then i was good for

she says that she loves me
layed out naked in the pine leaves
she said baby its cold out
but ive got my own heat

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

all u left was ur coat 
i could float on my words if i chose
i could choke on the do and the donts
i fix everything i had wronged
but ud pick it apart and just tell me i should go

tell me i should go
rum is in ur coke
i could see the bag that u were using for the blow
i dont fuck with them
but i guess i fuck with u
so if u want me to go i guess that thats what imma do

u tell me im lost 
but i fell in love with u
im really only lost
cause i know im losing u
great ok thats cool
guess its bye from the door
id say text me when ur home but i never hear from u

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

luv me (prod. kryptik)

produced by @chivnti

lyrics:

nose lame as fuck get it peirced like a bull
i live and i die to be different
if we fuck just know that my hearts not involved
i learned i could numb my emotions

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

mid september ill be fucking crazy
swear to god im ugly no one wanna date me
i been so fucked up i want it please dont save me
whenever im stuck like this all my dreams amazing

when i make plans respond within the fuckin minute
im not busy but i hate it
10 minutes tops and im not waiting

like what the fuck u comtemplating 
for so long
u wouldnt do this if i made it
and blew up

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up

at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

i went from always being late
to pretty much never showing up
i went from i dont have a plug
to damn my plug is coming clutch

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

art found at http://johnnysboots.tumblr.com/post/76103773768

scissor hands (prod. chivnti)

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
mixed/mastered by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

I'm standing on my own but is it ok if I hold my chances?
Tell me what's temporary and what stays permanent.
Temporary, permanent we keep on shifting surfaces
So who you tryna fool right now?
If you're not stayin' just leave right now
Can't feel you now, Losing my grip now I'm fading out
Couldn't hear my voice even if I shout
Tell me what's next for us baby
You hear it in my voice, Can you erase me?

I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

Baby I've been overthinking
See the blood from the thorns on the roses
If I tried could I let you go now
But the memory of you stays permanent...

What Stays Permanent (prod. killedmyself)

cet album est pour toi

i'm a punk rock boy, baby girl don't get it twisted
i can't waste my time i know you fine but you won't listen
everything's better when you stay up out my business
but its hard, real hard when you're spyin from the kitchen, look

every girl i meet is fuckin trife, like what is life?
i been grippin at the knife, i need a light
please don't ask me if i'm fine, i'm not alright
i don't really wanna end, but i'll take my life

if you tell me that i'm wrong, you might be a song
it might truly hurt to hear a thousand people sing along
you could tell me that i'm fake, that i'm not the same
it won't change the way you acted, you're the one i've got to blame so...

(be yourself, ty for listening <3)

a message

a message (epilogue)(p. joemay)

cet album est pour toi

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

tell me that you love me baby please
i will drive to california just to set your mind at ease
i will love you like there's no one left to please
let me run you outta breath i want your tongue apon my teeth
(i swear to god)

i think its crazy how it came to be, 
i'm really good at makin people run away from me
before i tell you what you mean to me
understand i'm brokenhearted but your love could be my remedy so

take my hand we can fly away,
we can kiss and hug and fuck to take the pain away

take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
take the pain away
(the pain away)

i been fallin, for you girl,
you could be my girl my world
i been fallin, for you girl
you could be my girl my world (x2)

wrote you a song

wrote you a song (p. ocean)

cet album est pour toi

people change but i'm not involved, don't you cry in that bathroom stall
i get wasted and that's my fault but, drugs wont change the way i love you at all
(love you at all)
(love you at all)

i can forgive what you did to me
i can forgive what you did to me
love drug, call me ketamine
and you love drugs inconsistency

what you need girl, yeah i got that, 
i can love you, would you like that
and i'm real too, fuck a price tag
fuck a fake friend, fuck yuh mouse taps

love doesn't come with excuses (nah), baby girl neither does music (nah)
i swear that i'm tryin i'm writin these songs for i lose it

(swear that i'll lose it, swear that i'll lose it, 
swear that i'll lose it, i'm writing these songs for i lose it)

people change but i'm not involved, don't you cry in that bathroom stall
i get wasted and that's my fault but, drugs wont change the way i love you at all
(love you at all)
(love you at all)

i might get rich, maybe die tryin
i might fall in love and end up sad and cryin
i might love her, she might love me back
she might turn around and take all that i have

tell me one thing, do you miss me, cause i miss the way you used to kiss me
do you feel alright? (do you feel alright)
i don't feel alright unless you're with me

i'm sorry i'm never enough
i'm sorry i'm never enough anymore

tell me one thing do you miss me?

do you miss me

do you miss me (p. brody)

cet album est pour toi

hold her? haha
fuck that!

you were all i had i lost another one, another one
you're not coming back i'll roll another one, another one

every friend that i had
every love that i lost
every dime that i fucked
every time i'm on the drugs

i'm gonna die soon, every line i write i always wanna cry too
give a fuck about myself i wanna help you

give a fuck about myself i wanna help you
help you
help you
help you

wanna help you
help you!
help you
me too

i've fallen out, i'm done with trust, i'm over you, i'm done with love
love gotta price tag, i don't wanna spend that, sex like hazmat, fumes need a gas mask.

when you tell me that you loved me you were lying thru your teeth
cross your fingers hold your breath and hope i never fuckin see
you're always focused on the fuck ups on the melody and key
when the beat been drivin flow just let the lyrics do its thing

i swear to god i'll never miss the way you acted on my feed
you been speakin hella reckless i can't take another tweet

stay away from me
(lose my fuckin number)

monsoon

monsoon (p. ocean)

cet album est pour toi

my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you
my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you

i've got problems in my brain, you,
help me ease the pain, 
help me numb it out when i been cryin in the rain cause
i've got these demons that i can't shake

show me what i face, show me what you love, promise not to break my heart </3

you deserve better

you deserve better (p. ocean)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)