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COMMUNITY, Vol. 1

worse than usual

seejayxo - worse than usual (ft. kais & lullabyboy)

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
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clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

Shoutout to “Slash!” on YT for the beat 🤍

OBLiViON (prod. Slash! + Synthetic + Aunix)

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

@guccihighwaters

produced by @notmorgn

lyrics:

9TAILS:

ill be 20
next year
but i dress like im old
sitting down 
12 hours
i could swear im 
growing mold

kraft macaroni
cooking up
on the stove
i got no where else to be
but ill say i gotta go
everytime she tells me i should stay some more
ion see no drugs so fuck it gotta go

gotta go
gotta go
i gotta go

not a single hour lately i dont wanna roll
not a single meal i wouldnt finish with a smoke
never touch a bogie and i put that on my soul
but i light so many woods its like a bought a pack of smokes

like i bought a pack of newports
living life like its a crash course
living life like theres a second try
i know u will but i dont think ill die
so im giving everything a try
whered u get it and how much it cost
how much of it cause an overdose

i dont wanna die but ill get close
how much of it gonna numb my soul
intense emotion make me curl my toes
fuck love i feel it getting old

guccihighwaters:

ill be 20 next year but i feel like im dead
i look like im 12 and my hair is a mess
flip the stack just like a tech deck
i ain’t smokin gas but if i did it would be septic

im fuckin ballin’
they tryna intercept it
they just get crossed up
like an intersection
y’all my sons
like i broke the contraceptive
she lackin vitiman D 
so she swallowed my erection

must be my aesthetic
shawty gimme neck
but it feel like anesthetic
i can’t feel my chest shit
my heart beatin fast
think it’s cardiac arrest bitch

woah big words i think i need a dictionary 
words inducing images but this ain’t pictionary
write in the morning
record in the evening
day in the life
but i breathe for no reason
by the way girl i gotta go
i just get inspired from the feeling of your throat

plus its cold out i think i see some snow
hopefully it sticks so i can stay inside alone
but

BOTH:

how much of it gonna numb my soul
intense emotion make me curl my toes

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - gtg (prod. notmorgn)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

i had a lot of fun covering one of my favorite songs by @youngburial , hes crazy talented and a brilliant writer. i hope everyones having a great day, and expect another song this week!!

Tuning: D A D F# A E

fats'e 💙

i'd prefer an unmarked grave (fats'e cover)

thank you so much

lyrics:

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

i was, chillin, waiting for you to call back
dbz on the flatscreen all that

and you know just what you mean to me
every time i wake i'm down to give you all my energy

people sayin that i'm next up
i just passed these rappers autopilot in my tesla

and i get real low when the sun don't shine
so you know that ima get real high

and i could rap
till my heart collapse
i won't ever heal
i keep drinking writing songs so i can see if i can feel

i remember how your silhouette danced in the moonlight
fireflies and love in the air by the poolside

yeah i'm a lover not a cool guy
i miss kissin in the mood light
i think the whiskey had us tipsy
would you text me if you miss me girl i'll love you till my heart dies

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

moonlight

sinister

roses – round and round (ft skele)| Editing.Biteki.YT

Take a look in the mirror and tell me what you see
cause i can't breathe when you stare at me
you gotta treat yourself , love yourself
you don't really see the little things that i see
you're the one i saw last night
cause i dreamt of you
yeah i dreamt of you

Take a look in the mirror and tell me what you see
cause i can't breathe when you stare at me
you gotta treat yourself , love yourself
you don't really see the little things that i see
you're the one i saw last night
cause i dreamt of you
yeah i dreamt of you

you don't wanna leave
yeah i understand
yeah i feel the same
you can stay right here
under the sheets we'll leave our world behind
i'll kiss you on the lips as the lights go out

you don't wanna leave
yeah i understand
yeah i feel the same
you can stay right here
under the sheets we'll leave our world behind
i'll kiss you on the lips as the lights go out

you don't need to worry about a thing cause i'm right here
lets forget about the past , both the future and the past
in my room is where you're at
i'll keep you busy while i can

hold my hand , hold my hand
let the tears flow
i got a place in my soul
saved for you when you go

Take a look in the mirror and tell me what you see
cause i can't breathe when you stare at me
you gotta treat yourself , love yourself
you don't really see the little things that i see
you're the one i saw last night
cause i dreamt of you
yeah i dreamt of you

Stream On Spotify <3

Mirror (Prod.19Hearts)

[prod. Diamoon] @diamoonofnhg

my heart can't break anymore.........

Lyrics:
Just go
Leave me alone
Just go
Just leave just leave

I talk to ghosts
Im foggy from the smoke
I talk to ghosts every night 
Every night that i sleep

Time and time again, im losing my head
Dont know myself at all, no more tears left to shed
Waking up again
I dont wanna wake up
I see no future ahead
So i roll my gas up

Most days i just stare into space 
Shining lights, in a daze, and a smile on her face
I cant love anyone, but i try anyway
Blank slate, im numb, so i crave the pain


My heart can't break anymore
Fuck her then i let her go
I dont give a fuck when im low
Freezin my bitches, so cold

Three sixes no time for a hoe
They dont know that i sold my soul
Im playin the game they gone throw
Youll know my name lemme show


Just go
Leave me alone
Just go
Just leave just leave

I talk to ghosts
Im foggy from the smoke
I talk to ghosts every night 
Every night that i sleep

Time and time again, im losing my head
Dont know myself at all, no more tears left to shed
Waking up again
I dont wanna wake up
I see no future ahead
So i roll my gas up

Talk To Ghosts (Prod. Diamoon)

<3

lyrics:

if my fever gets bad would you leave
if you're life gets better when you're dreamin
what's the meanin i don't see shit
give me reason, when i breathe in i wanna feel it!

you can't give me tough talk on the roof top
when the bass drop and the crowd screams
and the gunshot from the catwalk hit the old man
in the front seat

like deadshot when i bleed it
like cobra kai you won't see shit
like suicide shits do or die if i drop the guy on this beat hit

its a burning planet, we all panic
lives get lost when hopes abandoned
bodies build up, i can't stand it
i wouldn't be surprised if the president planned this

if my fever gets bad would you leave
if you're life gets better when you're dreamin
what's the meanin i don't see shit
give me reason, when i breathe in i wanna feel it!

i just wanna know, you're coming home
i'm scarred of nights, of serotonin running low
i wish i could find an antidote
i'll never never know, and if you die, i'll be alone

the sky went black and the sun went rose gold
the airs so fucked had to keep that door closed
nothings good this years such bad news
mass hysteria all around you

if my fever gets bad would you leave
if you're life gets better when you're dreamin
what's the meanin i don't see shit
give me reason, when i breathe in i wanna feel it!

if my fever gets bad would you leave
if you're life gets better when you're dreamin
what's the meanin i don't see shit
give me reason, when i breathe in i wanna feel it!

hysteria

at least i tried

co prod @hellahaunted

lyrics:

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

i was focused on the music
you were tryin not to lose it
i was tryin not to lose you
but the bass slaps and the queues rip

like damn nates really goin in
like damn nates really poppin off
like new fit like every week
match primitive with the polo socks (awe yea)

grape jays in my jansport
got mad stamps in my passport
gon drop sum you won’t ask for
i smoke big gas in my back porch

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

you need a song you can rock to
ill give you somethin to scream
our generation’s so fucked up
nobody knows what to think

and i been thinkin on the days when
everything was what it seems
way before i felt grown up
or even knew what that means

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

hysteria

sadeyes

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