A song about the lingering pain of a break up with someone you loved deeply.  Lyrics by me, performance and music curated in suno.

You - Acoustic

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

https://soundcloud.com/hatefulbeats
lyrics:
drop dead
on the doormat of my ex again
feel the empty space
when she's clogging up my head
now i can feel the
brain cells start to fade away
she take the pain away
she take the pain away

i'm trying
i'm trying
to live life this way
every day
feels the same 
with the pain
no one can stop me from making the bops
i'll never quit until i hit the top

hitting the tops of the charts with my song
hoping that you heard it hitting your bong
hoping that one day that i'll sing to you
rotting in hell know i'll see you here soon

cutting my wrist until all the pain stops
smoking the tree until my lungs go drop
never gonna find a girl as crooked as my ex
only use me for the sex
and now i think im coming next

smoking all day and all night and all day
never found another way to take away the pain
falling to the ground because i only got cement
and my life is not content
i lose my shit when we connect

drop dead
on the doormat of my ex again
feel the empty space
when she's clogging up my head
now i can feel the
brain cells start to fade away
she take the pain away
she take the pain away

take away the pain

follow hateful

take the pain away (prod. hateful)

@treetimee @guardinmusic

Pre release off of 'some boring, love stories' Pt. 2
Big shoutout to Guardin for killing the second verse!
Love u guys <3

Spotify

good for nothing | Feat. Guardin (Prod. Treetime)

produced by @lilsadeyes & @nversad

3 little words come fallin out my face
its the little things you do that get me wishing for a taste
i swear your hips divine i'm fine i'm just gassed
and i cry at night i'm fine, i'm just sad

i feel like rubbish use my room just like a waste bin
i said i love you to a girl then she said nathan
you're my world, you're my everything
i'll be your wife spend my life inside your wedding ring

and yeah it hurts real bad when your lovers turn their back
and yeah it  cuts real deep when they never say it back
and yeah i cried most nights cause i'd lose more than i gain
but that's life that's fine and its always been the same

there's these 3 little words that come spillin out my mouth
when you stare into my eyes i feel my heart beat pound
its a dream, something i can't believe
i been fallin for a baddie but i treat her like a queen

i found love inside a screen
shes the perfect cup of tea
shes the reason i can wake up draw my breath and feel at ease

shes the voice inside my head
sayin everything is fine
everything is perfect when we kiss i freeze time

i finally feel enough now, i don't wanna come down
you're the only girl i think i've ever really loved now
can i be your man i'm sayin like forever
girl i'm really happy that i found somebody better
i'm glad you think i'm clever

you're my everything

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

big shoutout powfu and remghost for making this with me <3 https://soundcloud.com/powfu
@remghost
coverart by @seejayxo

fall in love (w/ powfu) (prod. remghost)

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

lyrics:

i'd be lyin if i said it didn't hurt
every girl i loved had left me lyin in the dirt
i'm face down in my own mistakes
it's like i like them being dumped all over the place

i'm a mess, and i know it,
no i can't get a grip i'm never copin
and you're so bad and you know this
why do all the good girls seem to keep me out of focus

and you don't know how much i care,
for loving people that were never there
and you don't know how bad it feels
your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal

if you love me let me go, that's what i say
as i'm taking 205 right to her driveway
i'm a mess so depressed its no surprise though
and fuck my ex she's a wreck, she's a psycho

i'm a loaded gun, yeah my lyrics ammunition
but i get tongue tied when i get her in my system
i can't ever sleep unless she's sleepin on my chest
and when i'm home i'm in my zone but i don't eat i'm fuckin stressed

what's the point of movin on if you can't smile when you wake up
make your coffee, start the car and chase the pay stub
i don't work a job and if i did i'd fuckin hate it
rather pay my rent from writing songs down in my basement

and you don't know how much i care,
for loving people that were never there
and you don't know how bad it feels
your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal

mess (prod. ryini)

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

lyrics:

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

don't follow me i'm hard to read, i scare most people away from me
i hurt most people so can't you see, there's no way you're meant for me

i'm really glad i had it wrong cause, most people use me for the commas
i'm tired of the drama, i'm not one to talk no shit, i keep it honest

so to keep it 150 i'm feelin drained, 
the only reason that i sing is cause of pain,
deep inflicted traumas that been pent up in my brain, 
how i found some happiness with her i feel okay

will it last, does it matter
if I'm smiling will it keep me from disaster
destructive thoughts have had a history with patterns
all I care about is her, I'm glad I have her

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

downpour

ily (prod. lee)

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

shoutout to sewer and slip for making this legendary <3

alone with the lightning

Intro

Listen to the birds singing 
Kissing in my car I
Idk if there’s a purpose

Feel like we moving at a high speed
Waiting for the lightning to strike me

Getting tempted by the eyes you hold
Hands warm but your heart cold

Verse 1

Dont wanna assume it
feels like u been acting
I dont wanna do this
u go push me back in

Stare at me with hate
Through those crystal eyes
And it kills inside
But im acting fine

U dont even know Me
I know that u scared too
U dont wanna fall in love by accidental
For when u decide to leave  to hard to handle
I wanted all of u
And not a sample 

Far away 
see a glimpse
Of your heart but
Its laying deep inside the shadows

After all things wont be the same
So Might as well use this as ammo

Verse 2

im breaking through the barrier
i still need to hurry up
baby what u pickin up
i cant tell if this is love
40000 years amuck
we still argue bout what star we from
but stop and look how far we come
damn i we didnt do enough

plenty men devoured by the evil lesser known
if i stay focused on the essence of my soul
i gotta prophecy entangled with my spirit that the stars
chose to bestow
i bleed from out my eyes into the late november snow
the fox inside my blood has chose his presence to be known
the human left inside me looks to find another home
he says im awful
im way above the ways of thinking lawful
im stuck inside the mouth of reason rippin out his tonsils
my energy is somehow tied to paleozoic fossils
its smothered deep in mother natures arms remaining coddled
but i like it
as for every mortal left alive your uninvited
we take this gift of earth and give it violence
id prefer if inside my world i could choose to keep it private
its not tinnitus
but this noise inside my head id like to attribute to sirens
insomuch i feel the rush of vehicles beside it
these flashing scenes of tragedy sit inside of my eyelids