okay but like one of the best songs youve ever made

anybody here feeling like it's over just know u gonna make it out on top a over everyone around you

i love how i was in love w this in 2019 n then i forgot what its called n sm editors gatekeep it until i found old ss of this 😭

Emo bullshit


idc if you don't like this song I made this one for myself

Lyrics:

Today I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle 
Perks in my bloodstream I just took a handful
Don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table 
Fall on my face call your phone while I'm able
Don't remember how I got here
Doesn't matter how I got here
Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again yeah it's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest but she don't understand what I mean by depressed and
I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you i loved you if you loved me too but
I'm on the edge now I know it's too late
I already know I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

I don't know who to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve, or am I swerving on the people that I love cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing with a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
And I feel like such a bitch, now my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say fuck it I'm done, And I try to get away
But I don't get very far, And there's nowhere to stay
Now I'm writing these bars, Cause I've got so much to say
So my worlds will live on, Even When I fade away

 I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So can you please tell me why?

Oct. 17th 2014

I DIDNT MAKE THIS SONG ALL RIGHTS TO KILLEDMYSELF AND FAMILYPET <3

Killedmyself - Take Your Time, I Don't Mind (ft. Familypet)

cover of 4am by @familypet
piano by @alternative_covers

check out his youtube channel at
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3_1dgnQzbDoZOw46WMiw3Q

cover photo by @shakyhands.x on ig

4am (familypet cover)

9TAILS - Dont Leave Me

enjoy. 

prod. (@hkfiftyone2, @traviks, @cxldblxxd)

Lyrics

[HkFiftyOne]

Had too much to say I'll take it in the booth
Spittin flame you know I only speak the truth
Really fuckin hate it when you feelin blue
Used to make me smile but now youre frowning too

Feeling like I'm Oli switch like Majin Buu
Switch it up on beats i rock with Traviks too
I'm still laying bars you know its what I do
Tryna find myself I'm tryna get a clue

I dont wanna know if youre dead or alive
I just wanna get up and move on with my life
Blacking out on pills i sink into the floor
Yeah you said you hate me but i hate you more

[Esxovar]

I don't wanna know if your dead or alive 
I just wanna make my bands, catch you off my surprise
Look into my face, baby into my eyes 
Tell me that what you said was all just lies, yeah

Smoking all this dope on the daily 
Still in love with you that's a maybe
Still care about you, that's a maybe 
Do I still want you, that's a hell nah

I dont fuckin want you, anymore
Took you off the contacts of both my phone 
Poppin all these hydros, I lose control yeah 
I used to be sick you were my antidote 

Said youd never leave, but you left me
Scared of broke hearts, but your breaked me
Now I really hoping that you hate me
Hope the thought of me drives you cazy

Posting all these pics, it don't phaze me 
Blocked you off the gram, I don't wanna see your face b
Used me attention that's your craving
Said it wasint true, but you're faking

I've been really fuckin feeling empty lately
Snorting up the coke to forget you baby
I been doing all these drugs to forget you baby

ihateyoumore w/ hkfiftyone (@travikskun)

shoutout to soundcloud.com/itsyungvan & https://soundcloud.com/daddydandy <3

lyrics:
shattered:
shawty you know that you lie
you wouldn't care if i die
you wouldn't care if i cry
shawty why do you lie

i wish i didn't date you
i wish i didn't know you
i'll sell shows to break you 
i flex on my ex
cuz that's all that i got
she run away cuz she know she a thot

i hope it was worth it 
bite like a serpent
act like a bitch cuz it tears me apart 
truth is i'm hurting
truth is i'm learning
truth is that i hope that i end up burning
your legs are like doors
you open and pour
you'll love anyone who won't call you a whore
but
that's what you are to me
i'm just a casualty

manipulating
when we were dating
you told me don't fret
he's just an old friend
he's just an old ex
i only love you 
back of my car 
we can have so much fun boo
do i still love you
baby i can't tell 
you talk to others
while i hide in covers	
sheets on my head
make me feel like i'm dead
texting your phone but you leave me on read

yung van:
fuck you, you don’t about care me
fucked up, naw the blames not on me
don’t talk shit behind my back, cause i don’t roll like that
i know you wanted on me
what’s he got that i don’t
he’s got you, that’s a joke
you’ll switch up, like a roach
just make sure you don’t choak
with all that shit your mouth
you better shut the fuck up
cause when this news gets out
all your friends gon’ switch up
i have no remose for you
don’t come back crawling to me
when he finds out what you do
he’ll throw you off like his shoe

shattered:
baby
you're faker
than santa claus
than santa claus
the guy 
that you are with
will leave
so please just don't come back to me
shawty 
you're colder than ice with some salt
my friends were right
about the night
when we had met
you got me set
like juliet
with bayonets 
ready to fire on me at your will
choking on smoke while we kiss and we chill
leaving my ass for a kid with some skill
you just a park all you give is a thrill

flowars:
bad girl in a mad world
ass fat where you at girl
let me hit it from the back girl
i ain't got a jack shit black pearl
i don't wanna look at you
everything you put me through
but you won't go away
so i guess ill fuck your face
ask that nigga how i taste
does he know your love is fake
tell the boy that i relate
ooh i relate
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat

romeo & juliet! w/ yung van & flowars (prod. nick mira & lucky bennu)

cet album est pour toi

hold her? haha
fuck that!

you were all i had i lost another one, another one
you're not coming back i'll roll another one, another one

every friend that i had
every love that i lost
every dime that i fucked
every time i'm on the drugs

i'm gonna die soon, every line i write i always wanna cry too
give a fuck about myself i wanna help you

give a fuck about myself i wanna help you
help you
help you
help you

wanna help you
help you!
help you
me too

i've fallen out, i'm done with trust, i'm over you, i'm done with love
love gotta price tag, i don't wanna spend that, sex like hazmat, fumes need a gas mask.

when you tell me that you loved me you were lying thru your teeth
cross your fingers hold your breath and hope i never fuckin see
you're always focused on the fuck ups on the melody and key
when the beat been drivin flow just let the lyrics do its thing

i swear to god i'll never miss the way you acted on my feed
you been speakin hella reckless i can't take another tweet

stay away from me
(lose my fuckin number)

monsoon

monsoon (p. ocean)

www.sadboiszn.com

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new
if we were forever can i live forever too 

i been feeling toxic
spend too much time with me and now you're feeling nauseous
cut myself right through the lungs i can barely breathe
i would trade my soul for some air and a heartbeat
drugs in my blood, numb the feelings in my brain
i'd paint you a picture if I knew how to paint
but all i do express this pain
do you think a couple words could paint a thousand pictures aye

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new 
if we were forever can i live forever too 

you said this wouldn't die
wake up overthink over-drink then i cry
this place a ghost town where you hide?
i don't wanna know, you can keep me out your sights

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new
if we were forever can i live forever too

if we were forever

1/5 from my upcoming EP "As I Walk Into the Night"
I hope you enjoy <3

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Production: @user-182805726

Lyrics-

(I'm waiting here for you to pick me up)

I'm waiting here for you to pick me up
Everyone is gone, now I'm the only one
I cried all night, but would you even know?
you never show
The things unsaid, tend to hurt the most
I wonder why you never show
The darkest sides of his heart, unknown
When is last time I opened up?
I had to close off my only love
Because the last time I opened up,
you never came and I had to bluff
Now every night he leaves open
I guess he's hoping, someone, will come and hold him
He leaves it vulnerable inside his drawer
Falling asleep he can only dream for more

As I Walk Into the Night

i'm sad and the weathers making it worse

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i'm sad and the weathers making it worse (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

now on all platforms

staring at the street signs 
toxic thoughts keep filling up my mind 
i tried, saying I’m fine but I’m running out of lies 
so take me right back, take me right back
and i don’t really care if you don’t like that

so yeah, whatever 
i lied and said that i've been getting better 
i knew that it wouldn’t last when you said it was forever 
so take me right back, take me right back there
i can feel your eyes it’s a heartbreak stare

heartbreak stare (ft. skele)

just a spontaneous drop, ur welcome.
random art bc i didn't have anything.
tell her that u love her.

producer/beat link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkpHPuKmxSo

monsoon (p. ocean)

sadeyes

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