Lil Lotus

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke
Ft. https://soundcloud.com/scummusic

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Never meant to w/ SCUM ( Prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart
https://twitter.com/Coldh4rt
https://www.instagram.com/coldhart_/

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
roelun.co
twitter.com/roelun
www.instagram.com/roelun/

Bodybag Ft. Coldhart (Prod. nedarb)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Prod:
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
https://www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
http://roelun.co
https://twitter.com/roelun
https://www.instagram.com/roelun/

Lyrics:
I don't wanna kill the vibe no
I don't wanna move to fast 
Baby we could ride slow 
Take you to a place you might know 
Playin with hair like you want it bad
Baby I could give you that 

Baby playing with my hair
See my scars and she's aware 
I don't even think she cares
Whispers love in my ear 

I remember nights when I was alright 
Dig into my mind tonight and I'll find 
Everything that I forgot in time 
Tuck it all away again now I'm fine

A Place U Might Know (Prod. Nedarb)

follow me on twitter @jakkystealurgrl
prod/mix/master by meee

i’m blind 
why’d i get attached like last time 
she been on my brain now i’m tongue tied
ya i’m tongue tied
I don’t even really know why i go try ya
  
and i’m like why  
why is she still on my mind
tried to get her off my recent search but there she fuckin lies again

hey i know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now i want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain ya
give a boi a break like wait 

i’m okay despite of everything
tell her i’m okay despite of everything 

Pull to the side I don’t think you wanna know
how I feel I’ll shut before u wanna go 
I been thinkin’ bout the rest   
I’ve been doing better drugs i’ve been blownin up a check ya 

I don’t even need this now
she just make me feel a type of way somehow 
I don’t really wanna give in quite yet but god i kinda know 
she don’t even love me so I gotta go… whoa

hey I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait 

I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait

Give a Boi A Break

Sample Credits: Drag by @Day-Wave

Prod @SinWithMe

First Kiss (Prod. SinWithMe)

can we talk about me for once [prod deliverthecrush]

@smrtdeath
@tddybrr

mixed/mastered by hudson alexander

artwork by @bequietplease

💙💙💙💙💙💙
➕➕➕➕➕➕

SPOTIFY

smrtdeath x hudson alexander - catch me (feat. teddybear)

chemical - lil lotus x horse head

see u around  - lil lotus x horse head (prod. reaper)

september  - lil lotus x horse head (prod. discent)

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

prod. 4evr
mix / mastered by notacop

[lyrics]

devil in disguise with the lights on so bright
find me in the dark with a rose red / snow white
see it in your eyes when you say i went too far
you're not who you say that you are

it's been a long time
and i've been waiting for you
i was not the same before you
and i won't play the games you always wanna play
fuckin with my head now every other day
and i can't see it end now any other way
you started as a friend now i can't even say
that you was ever there for me

devil in disguise with the lights on so bright
find me in the dark with a rose red / snow white
see it in your eyes when you say i went too far
you're not who you say that you are

and when you find it in your soul
relinquish it and let it go

devil in disguise (4evr)

Official Video: https://youtu.be/n8XmlBr60Fc

round the valleys we roll
TV blasting out the static 
making peace with my soul
calabash was way too far
so i skate smoking a bone
the hazy sun blessed me with wind
and now the ocean's my home
lately all i do is drift
collect the bag and phone home
hit my pops up, know he's sad
cuz life always takes its toll
but I'm certain all the pieces 
that i need will still fall
from the sky and i smile
been a while since we talked

flushed my xannies down the sink
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome
never know where I'll end up
keep my pockets lined with gold
no one's ever told me wrong
i blame myself for the most
got a shot up on my ass
cuz she stayed sleeping around
now my wallet doesn't fold
shoes dirty working till close

flushed my xannies down the sink 
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome

guitars/prod/mix/master by @93feetofsmoke

this song is the antithesis of "if my dad saw he'd me mad at me" which explored the consequences of poor decision making and the overall negativity that used to completely encapsulate my life. Hope it means something to you. Take care <3 love ya pops

if my dad saw he'd be proud of me (video in desc)

make up [prod. greaf]

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

A Place U Might Know (Prod. Nedarb)

LIL LOTUS

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