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Sad Vybes pt. 15

All the newest tracks from Epitaph. Cover: late night drive home  <a href="https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLcZMZxR9uxC-pUOf8oQ0Z2t3A_J2PjSfC">Videos</a> | <a href="http://epitaph.com/tours">Tour Dates</a> | <a href="http://epitaph.ffm.to/store">Epi

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Crash My Benz (prod bro ill find it later)

everydays a trip

i want to live life but i
can't seem to get outta bed 
im so sick and tired so sick and tired
of living in my head 
i want to live life but i
can't seem to get outta bed 
im so sick and tired so sick and tired
of living in my head 

i swear, i tried
but i can't forget her 
being honest no lies
i want to have  her 
with me all day
so she can steal my sweaters
can't sleep alone
w her i sleep better

can't sleep alone
with u i sleep better
sick of this place i call home
it never gets better
plus my heart of stone
makes it hard to remember
hwo u were, but ur the one 
i want to be with forever

i want 2 live life (king theta)

stay awake
stay awake with me
i can’t fall back asleep
stay awake
stay awake with me
insomnia is haunting all week
insomnia

stay awake
stay awake with me
i don’t want to die inside my dreams
lay here all night with me
i need you here to feel at ease

spotify

stay awake with me // insomnia [lil biscuit]

happy bday zion! prod siem spark

sorry for the mid mix this song crashed my computer

escape route!

prod. Shiki XO
mastered: nate2timez
mix: me
art: my lovely girlfriend :)
lyrics: 

i was walking alone on a road
when i didn’t have anywhere to go
my heart always feels so god damn cold
cause i’m always on my own
i can see the clouds gather in my heart
they shroud the person that i was
and tear my my mind apart

now, there is nothing left for me here 
   (there ain’t nothing left for me here)
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)

no one could tell me the answers i needed
even if i yelled, begged, and pleaded
all i could think of is the way i was treated
so egregious, every day just repeated
i was stuck in the same cycle over and over
but you didn’t fucking care
you just sat there hungover
   (didn’t fucking care about me)
you sink even lower
you’ve lost your composure 
your breath is fucking foul
i can tell your not sober

(ohh i can tell your not sober)
ohh

now, there is nothing left for me here 
   (there ain’t nothing left for me here)
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)
the lines are blurred between you and i
so now i don’t know if i should go or die
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)

how do i disappear? (Shiki XO)

Some days get hard

Distant memories
_____________________________________________________________
Lay on an open field at night
Where the stars' our only light
With a kiss she gave me life
Just to burn it all & watch me die
& I coped with the way the smoke made me feel
Made some friends on the way, it felt so real
but The abyss doesn't pick and choose
Push away the closest to me & self abuse

Distant memories I hold
At the time I didn't know
They are worth their weight in gold
My only comfort on this road

How could you know who I am
If I don't even know who I am
How could I set up a plan
If I don't even know where I stand

I will never figure this all out x2
Better to accept it now than pout x2
Nowadays I'm always filled with doubt x2
But life will never have a perfect route x2

Distant memories I hold
At the time I didn't know
They are worth their weight in gold
My only comfort on this road
_____________________________________________________________

Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Distant memories

2 Hours Ago

Glorious Day

i remember how your lips still taste

nosebleeder

blame me for everything (acoustic) [feat. MOD SUN]

i'll remember you for the same feeling you gave me as i slept

Feeling Grey

HPPD

SPOTIFY

HPPD +farella [andrey]

Starlight Prod Sourkidd

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Cold lips on your cold hips
Close your eyes 
Baby girl we'll make love in the Afterlife
Benjamin.

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

AFTERLIFE  w/ YungJZAisDead (prod. tothegood)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

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Make It Home (prod. tothegood)

https://soundcloud.com/scummusic
PROD. https://soundcloud.com/trxpicvl

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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
Prod ~ https://soundcloud.com/forher01


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Skin + Bones  w/ Fatse' (prod. forher)

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random old old song i wrote a long ass time ago with my friend daniel

Six Feet Sleep

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx