Autotune

all of u

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every night i close my eyes like i'm alright, tell myself that i'll be okay i'll be fine

vocals: @lilxlotus - twitter.com/LILXLOTUS

production: @harvest - twitter.com/hr_vest

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wasting your time w/ lil lotus

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/4evrgone
Mix&Master. https://soundcloud.com/jakemarkow

i wanna be the last one
wanna be the one stumblin with u in the dark
and baby im a bad one
but ima settle down and give u my heart
ima be a sad one 
if i let u run off and leave me with a scar 
but baby u a bad one 
i just wanna be ur last one <3

Wanna be ur last one (Prod. 4evr)

MERCH:
https://lilxlotus.storenvy.com

Prod:
@jakemarkow
twitter.com/jakemarkow

Art:
twitter.com/disintegr8tion
www.instagram.com/filthy.hands/

MISSED UR CALL (Prod. JakeMarkow x Lil Lotus) MERCH DROP<3

no samples / with love, @4evrgone + 93 <3

I went dry
Fucking giving chances
Lord knows
Bloods old
On my fucking mattress
Hands cold
No hope in us ever lasting
Old souls
Still prone to infatuation

You'll hit me up
say what's up
Hope you're ok,
Ok
Gotta go about my damn day
Yeah Shits changed

Try to sleep
Really late at night
Guess it's morning
Toss & turning
Guess u hurt me

I guess you hurt me x3

hmu say wsup hope ur ok, ok w/ 4evr

pretty thing (prod. 4evr)

im trying </3 Ft. Lil Raven (Prod. 4evr)

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

Stream on Spotify

panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

LAST RANDOM SINGLE BEFORE ALBUM 

prod/guitar/mix/master - @youngburial

ur there every time i die

produced by Cian P

I hate how much I miss it
sick of screaming good night princess
you always sit above my head with
tears and air pods in

and I wonder where you went 
while I’m in the background
how much harder can it get
I’m sorry if i lashed out
I’m always so upset
now I won’t make a damn sound
you’re beating something dead
why don’t you put your hand down

is this how it ends
how could I forget now
I’m honestly impressed
go party at your friends house
I’m so over this
ill just keep my head down
we’ve always been a mess living in a glass house

leaving cracks where I stood
and inside of us
I thought that I could 
fix it every time but
wherever I was
you would find a way to beat me again
against the glass every time
leaving scratches that I would patch and say will be fine
I apologize

beating something dead (feat. fifty grand)[prod. cian p]

CALM (PROD. SKETCHMYNAME)

SMILE (PROD. S L N D R M A N N)

XXX (PROD. BROOKBEATZ)

All My Little Scars, Vol. 1

I Don't Even Like U

STARRY (PROD. CCI MIDAS)

produced by me and extra large holiday card
artwork by me

lyrics:
i don't wanna think about it but it's weighing heavy on my conscience
telling me you love me but you don't know what you want
i swear it's nonsense
wish that i could read your mind so i could tell what's really going on then
saying everything is fine with you and me but you know that it's not yeah

whip around your block yeah
might not make it home if i take another shot yeah
lately getting numb is the only thing i got yeah
all this time alone has been leading me to rot yeah

and it's hard for me to say these things about you
lately can't do anything with you
maybe we just need to break away from
everything that made us feel okay

i don't wanna think about it but it's weighing heavy on my conscience
telling me you love me but you don't know what you want
i swear it's nonsense
wish that i could read your mind so i could tell what's really going on then
saying everything is fine with you and me but you know that it's not yeah

[xlhc]
saw you sneaking out the back door
what about our plans
huh, guess we should’ve talked more
nothing’s making sense
i pretend it did before
but i know somethings going on and now i can’t ignore it
if you want a perfect picture, let’s be real
i was just the paint that you left dripping on the easel
choose your favorite color
baby, tell me how to feel
improvise like bob ross
nothing’s even real

and it's hard for me to say these things about you
lately can't do anything with you
maybe we just need to break away from
everything that made us feel okay

i don't wanna think about it but it's weighing heavy on my conscience
telling me you love me but you don't know what you want
i swear it's nonsense
wish that i could read your mind so i could tell what's really going on then
saying everything is fine with you and me but you know that it's not yeah

nonsense w/ extra large holiday card

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

im trying </3 Ft. Lil Raven (Prod. 4evr)

LIL LOTUS

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