it is what it is

even though you used to call my name, 
i turned a cheek; i looked the other way
my hands are weak, my soul is laced with shame 
'cause i'm the only one whose left to blame 

he was to be judged. 
ʎpoqou: @gothfuccboi 


lay me in the reservoir(nothing,nowhere. x ʎpoqou)

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cq6K0hICr0A

music video

poor posture

Fairytale

the knife i pulled out of your back w/ lil lotus

https://youtu.be/yZV3S5aTjhI

produced by @vegardveslelia
written & performed by ashton traitor

i got stains on my veins and its poppin off
i iont even talk to lames, then dont talk at all
please then dont talk to me
you want to talk? thats the recipe
i dont even kno your name
i dont even wanna kno your fuckin name

i been juggin i been trippin on my own
i been smokin i been drinkin on my own
im a long long long way from home
im a long long way

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MUSIC VIDEO

on my own (prod. vegard)

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

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And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

lyrics

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your chest
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

ya ya fuck being down, and fuck being dumb
i always love what i lost, why do i hate what ive become
and im so beat down, by the shit that you sent me
im sorry i cant help ive never felt this empty
now youre stressed out cause i dont care what my rent be
while im at vv droppin 20s on fendi
and you dont need me didnt say it i guessed it
well my heart bleeds cause youre the one im obsessed with

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your 
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
got some pills im off it baby im just being honest
knew right when i met you youre the only one i wanted
for you id do whatever baby baby thats a promise
take away the pain cause i know that theres a consent
got some killers with me ya i brought em in my pocket
i just sniffed the twisted got me blasted like a rocket
know that they fuck with me ya they love the way im rockin
and if im lookin sad, its just because i feel sad
know im fly as hell but somehow i still feel bad
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
and im obsessed baby with doing my best
its your boy lil death wont someone lay me to rest
in a year imma be poppin or dead
i said im bout to be ballin you heard me thats what i said

Untitled EP

Precautions are for the Weak & Living w/poloralphmacchio (feat. SMRTDEATH) (prod. haruhi)

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

the life we had
and the life we want is
too far gone
I can't hold on for too long
you said that it was easier this way
you said it felt easier today
since we haven't spoken at all
I wonder how your hearts not broken at all
I guess it was all my fault after all

and is it over
never been closer to what I want
all I've got is another wound
open it again
and see you soon
meet me where it ends
the life we both lived
the life we had
and everything is hopeless
but you tell me its not so bad
holding hands while we watch it die
fall apart at the finish line
then think

and is it over
never been closer to what I want
all I've got is another wound
open it again
and see you soon
meet me where it ends
the life we both lived
the life we had
all my cuts have opened
fuckin heart of broken glass
why does this hurt so much
should have learned from the first time
its hopeless

is it over (feat. HORSEHEAD)[prod. Charlie Shuffler]

Fantasy Camp & Lil Zubin collab EP 'Another Heart 2 Break.'

Mixed by Nick Colletti. 
Cover photo by Matt Wren.
Cover text by @vesthetiic.

Another Heart 2 Break

backseat w/ zubin + cold hart (foxwedding)

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

lyrics:

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

outsider, out
i remember waiting outsider your house
i still think about that time on your couch
when we waited for the sun to come out
dont try to call me imma no show
sick of all you jakes, snakes, fakes, ogopogos
talkin watch your nose grow
mom was always worried i was different, wouldnt fit in
well, god i fuckin hope so

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

and i can tell im at the bottom when hell is all that's above it
demons out to get me i let em i swear i love it
i dont give a fuck bout your discussions
never took the road traveled by the public

 (repeat)

so come on baby light my fire
life line my, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy imma, boy imma
didnt know, know you were a, know you were a, know you were a

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

outsider - single

outsider w/poloralphmacchio (prod.  jayhmez)

familypet - hurt ur feelings

@smrtdeath - "you could bust out my heart if you want to" is the 21st track on “SOUND BITES,” a limited-edition CD compilation released with Blackhouse Records on December 17th, 2018 in support of the RAINN Foundation, a non-profit which carries out programs to prevent sexual violence, help survivors, and ensure that perpetrators are brought to justice

Limited to only 250 copies available, this CD compilation features 26 previously unreleased songs from some vital and prolific underground artists.

100% of the proceeds from CD sales will be donated to RAINN. Limited copies still available at: https://blackhouseinc.storenvy.com/products/25203801-underground-underdogs-sound-bites-cd-a-benefit-compilation-for-rainn

SOUND BITES

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smrtdeath - you could bust out my heart if you want to (prod. yung flex)

*STARZ* (acoustic)

All My Little Scars, Vol. 1

I Don't Even Like U

here is all my emo playlists and favorite songs.

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

LIL LOTUS

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