Heart & Soul 2

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

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co-wrote by @lilxlotus

Life just leads me to the bottle
Guess im tryina drown my sorrows
Conversations getting hollow
Can we just talk tomorrow 

Never knowing why I feel like that
Guess I'm better in a body bag 
Rigor mortis were just stuck like that 
With your words constricting round my neck

And I know.. I'm not worth saving.. but I'm waiting 
And I know.. I'm not worth saving.. but I'm waiting 

And I'm just trying to sober up
And I hope you feel I do enough 
I'm loving you that's all I ever do
Just fighting everything in solitude 
x2

*theres a hole in my chest
Bleeding veins from my wrist
Just tell me what you need
And I can be that*

And I know.. I'm not worth saving.. but I'm waiting 
And I know.. I'm not worth saving.. but I'm waiting 

Life just leads me to the bottle
Guess im tryina drown my sorrow
Conversations getting hollow
Can we just talk tomorrow 

Never knowing why I feel like that
Guess I'm better in a body bag 
Rigor mortis were just stuck like that 
With your words constricting round my neck

life just leads me to the bottle

*lyrics*

Now im in my head ima let you down 
and you're the only one i care about
when im driving all alone back from your house
ima ghost on the wall but i dont make a sound
i feel it in my bones you're begging me 
to stay another night but this is killing me
leaving ash on the floor will you remember me
when you've moved on and I've moved to another city

all these fights set aside i still need you here
said youd be by my side im still waiting here
all this weed in my pipe burns into the air
it was lie after lie thought this was our year
smokey nights in july all my pants are seered
i still hear all your words whispered to my ears
all the love in my soul was replaced with fear
hands are wet from holding on i think my time is near

All these burns on my lips i cant help but show
always knew i had have these problems with letting go
my feet crunch on the ground as they touch the snow
always knew id have some problems with being alone

remember me ft. 9TAILS (prod. jewfy)

are u ever coming back w/ @lilnarnia x @alliknowispain
MASTERED BY @lilnarnia

are u ever coming back w/ lil narnia & lil thuey (prod. relevantbeats)

Ur Dad Has A Gun w/ Shinigami (Prod. Shinigami)

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

flossing acoustic (6 dogs cover)

follow me on twitter @jakkystealurgrl
prod/mix/master by meee

i’m blind 
why’d i get attached like last time 
she been on my brain now i’m tongue tied
ya i’m tongue tied
I don’t even really know why i go try ya
  
and i’m like why  
why is she still on my mind
tried to get her off my recent search but there she fuckin lies again

hey i know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now i want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain ya
give a boi a break like wait 

i’m okay despite of everything
tell her i’m okay despite of everything 

Pull to the side I don’t think you wanna know
how I feel I’ll shut before u wanna go 
I been thinkin’ bout the rest   
I’ve been doing better drugs i’ve been blownin up a check ya 

I don’t even need this now
she just make me feel a type of way somehow 
I don’t really wanna give in quite yet but god i kinda know 
she don’t even love me so I gotta go… whoa

hey I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait 

I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait

Give a Boi A Break

Sample Credits: Drag by @Day-Wave

Prod @SinWithMe

First Kiss (Prod. SinWithMe)

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good

or am I wasting my time
thinking you might come back 
and make this right
tasting blood when I bite down
miss you so much right now
wish I didn't find out 
all the shit you did
all of our promises are you heartless
I find solace in memories against the truth
me and you we weren't meant to be
god damn I wish the memory would leave

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good
(jon)
about to take it all
just too far now
show the whole world who you are now
I remember how you raised the bar now
with all that hate laying in your heart now
I let you get close to me
you're not what you're supposed to be
wish you never noticed me
are you gone for good or am I

heaven didn't seem so far (feat. jon simmons)[prod. BlingBlou]

funny back story on this song  i was gonna make a joke song on this youtube beat for dying in the cut but then it became serious smh lol


lyrics:

you can call me courage cause i’ve been so cowardly 
i can tell you i let you down, mom ain’t proud of me 
son dropped out of school, man what a tragedy 
sorry i couldn’t be all the things you want me to be 
but it’s alright 
yeah it’s okay 
with my bros now getting paid 

i’ll be your stupid fuck up baby 
how can you not hate me?
you know your son is crazy?
i guess you still see something 
i guess i don’t see nothing

sorry mom, i love you lol w/ demxntia

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

Produced by @nedarbnagrom 

Mix/Master by Travis Ritcher 
https://twitter.com/TravisRichter

Over It (feat. Nedarb)

Lil Lotus- Nothing Left (feat. Scum) (prod. 5head)

*STARZ* (acoustic)

make up [prod. greaf]

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

STARZ (acoustic)

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