The Upload 70

sweet ki$$

feat. 
@anthonysidoti
@imgeist

death wish

death wish feat. Anthony Sidoti & I'm Geist

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

Prod. weepings

yes I'm shooting for the stars 
but from the start I always knew
had to change my life up
get my drive up
do what I wanted to do
cause I'm the only one that cares
you don't know the weight that bares
imma run from, my own purpose in life
making music
watching how I do this
sing another song tonight to heal up all the bruises
waste away
grind another day
lying to my face
hope I can escape
~
hold the phone
back in my zone
got some backbone so I left for the throne
had to postpone all the plans for the fans
got my fate in my hands
gotta chase all these bands
smoke all these jams
spread all these grams
working at night while y'all counting these lambs
~
New moon working on myself, i'm getting in tune
Too soon, slow but steady ready for the new you
new views, take all that you know
never trust no hoe when you're in a state of flow
x2
~
i said it's new starts and new beginnings
red hearts and gucci linens
hitman, I'm on a mission
I got a vison, I'm only winning
I killed that
think that i'm reaching my skill cap
mixing producing and rapping I finese with passion
I'm making the music I couldn't imagine at 19
flow is so dirty need hygiene
killing the beat, it's a crime scene
raising my vibes. then I go for drive and my purpose is clear like some visine
oh I'm love with this shit, live for the music I'm never gon quit
thankful for you, got something to pursue on
~
white lines in the night time, got me floating in the clouds at the right time
but I'm done with that, make my mental wack
when I hit her on the phone I hope she hit me back

New Moon

[hero]

you don't know who i am
but i know u
all the monsters are talkin talkin talkin
bout that a grade stew
they wanna drag u in the bushes
how do u do

cause they won't suspect a thing
and they'll think it's just a costume
bathe like a human
hide the bodyrot oo
i fucking blend in so well
u wouldn't notice me chew
the fuckin bones of your friend 
oh the crunch is so crude

they'll forget all about em
it's just how humans are
i'll take any outcome
where i don't have to starve

[ekeon]

Imma follow u down that road
Looking stalking bitches that don't even know
Cause my heads red spinning out of control
Is there anybody out there cause i'm coming for your throat
That monster inside my head said that I always do the most
Grab my fucking blade and follow you down that dark fucking road
See my eyes i'll see your lies and you'll turn into fucking stone

And i can't fucking take it
I don't wanna see you smile
Just wanna fucking put you to the pavement
Make you bleed for a while

[hero x ekeon]

you don't know who i am
but i know u
all the monsters are talkin talkin talkin
bout that a grade stew
they wanna drag u in the bushes
how do u do
you don't know who i am
but i know u
all the monsters are talkin talkin talkin
bout that a grade stew
they wanna drag u in the bushes
how do u do
```

You Don't Know Who I Am

You Don't Know Who I Am (Ft. Hero) [Prod. jisatsu]

Someone Else W/ Unknxwn

nothing is enough

thank you for listening 
w/ @imnotenvy

lyrics 
// envy 
cause the feelings come and go i swear just like the wind
it’s only torture on my mind til i hear your voice again
oh no i
took a couple shots straight through my skeleton
oo oh oh
thoughts keep haunting me
and all the shit you said my heart is vacant

baby i can’t save myself
but i can guide you in
i think i’m
selfless not by choice
but cause i never win
oh ho oh
told myself i’d never fall in love again
but now you’re right in front of me
and i can’t let this end no

cause these thoughts of mine
always fight back and
step outside just to come back in
i don’t really mind at all
break my heart long as you’re happy

cause i can’t even speak my mind my breathings fucked up
i think i’ve reached my peak im dying my heartbeat finally stopped
and you know what it’s like baby
fall apart but it’s worth saving
oh don’t you go i need you baby for the thousandth time

// geist
cause these thoughts of mine
always fight back and
lately i just cannot win
poison in my mind oh love
you’re the antidote i need

so swear that it’s you and me
we’re running out of time baby
i wanted to trust
wanted to love
wanted to feel something
oh no oh
don’t let this fall apart just remember
that you have my heart, and it’s yours forever

spotify

selfless w/ notenvy [kenda]

tuxx - strings [prod.waytoolost]

Make a wish - JaeyBxrd

SEND ME A SIGN... (Prod. by iceblink x jkei)

lyrics


do you want me?
would you love me once more?
please stop running
he cant hear us behind the door
burn me make me feel something
touch me and feel me melt in your hands
call it wrong
or say that its not real
i still wish i was dead
so i couldn’t feel

this is what it takes
to wrap my head around it
this is what it takes
to fake my smile
like theres no pain at all

please get out of my head
get out of my head
get out of my head

i’ll bring the pills
you bring the games
its all the same
its all the same
i’ll bring the pills
you bring the games
its all the same
its all the same

with a noose on my neck
i’d fall for you
with chains on my feet
i’ll follow you

this is what it takes
to wrap my head around it
this is what it takes
to fake my smile
like theres no pain at all

please get out of my head
get out of my head
get out of my head

you created a monster

what it takes

Prod Kado!

I live 
In a timebomb 
Hear my heart tick tick 
All night long
Got it all now 
Still lonely 
 So lost nothing could console me 

I live 
Somewhere deep inside of my head space 
I don’t care 
Probably hold you down like a deadweight 
Never be set straight 
Never be let down 
Cause I don’t believe anything that anyone says now 
If you don’t believe in me 
Than why are you still here? 
I heard everything 
Could you please stop screaming in my ear  we

What could ever be worse than 
Thinking you can be something 
Then finding out your wrong 
What could ever be worse than
Never finding your purpose 
Did you know I used to think you were perfect?

I was never gonna be what you wanted 
I did everything I could and I still failed regardless 
 if I’m being heartless ,  it’s only because 
I already gave it to you and it wasn’t enough
Now I’m fucked up 
And it’s not fair 
But nothing matters anyway, why would I care? 
I wouldn’t have a thing to say if you were right there
How could I explain this year it was a nightmare 
It feels like I’m losing my mind
It feels like you’re wasting my time
I’ll probably just lie and say it’s alright 
You that I’m lying when I say I’m fine

Stop this fucking car
I need to get out 
We’ve gone way too far
I need to go now 
I don’t want to hear you say 
Everything will be olay  
It won’t
You say you care but you don’t
Delete the texts that you wrote 
I don’t want to hear you say 
Every thing will be okay 
Cause it won’t

What Could Be Worse

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

follow still vanishing

suffocate (still vanishing)

staring at the ceiling where did things go wrong
searching for a reason jokes on you they're gone

formication don't feel right
that shit keeps me up at night
maybe im just losing my mind
or maybe i just need some rest
a quiet place, a different bed
and fuck it if i leave i won't come back

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

im so sick of isolation im so sick of being sick
down myself another bottle grab the bong and fucken rip
you ain't ever had the feeling like your bones are caving in
the voices contradict my doings guess my times just running thin

so go watch me burn let me bleed till im dead and gone
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and my graves been dug
i'll still wait for you counting days moving one by one
till there's nothing left but 'here lies' and 'goodbye, so long'

here lies

fun while it lasted.


if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
get knocked down try again, get so nervous that I up chuck
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

You know I have no self control no need to fabricate the truth
then we can talk about the good times and all the evil things you do
Made a world full of your bullshit tried to fill my head with lies
so when I tell you that I’m leaving it should come as no surprise

no surprise, why’d i try? just to end up here again
fooled me once, fooled me twice, fooled around with all your friends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
Get knocked down and try again, but get so nervous that I up chuck 
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

maybe i could learn to skate 
or play guitar to compensate
for all the little secrets that i keep
cause my dreams warned, be on the ball.
i took advantage of it all 
she was my girl, lights in my world, my everything.
then life said sike, why’d you try? 
just to end up here again?
fooled you once fooled you twice, please don’t tell me it ends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

lame

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