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molly - jordy searcy cover

Thursday Night Confessions by Anna Bates

molly - leith ross (jordy searcy cover)

handgun - jake minch

afternoon guy - kevin atwater

a song about changing yourself to make someone notice you

kevin atwater -

religious trauma song anna bates

just be your friend - jake minch

i am so much older than i was last year and my face looks different and kids that i thought would be in my life forever stopped reaching out and there is a part of me that will always live in my hometown, but i am leaving for good this time. this is a thank you, and a love letter, and a goodbye.

i don’t plan to put this song out, but i really wanted to say it

warm light demo

to know him is to love him

Unreleased Lizzy Mcalpine Instagram Live 2/17/23

Lizzy McAlpine Unreleased (If It Matters)

jake minch - sleep on the floor (cover)

beabadoobee - The way things go (full version)

till i know no risin sun by anna bates

bitches broken hearts - billie eillish (slowed and reverb)

This song is pretty much how I think when I enter new romantic encounters. I always hope for the best but there’s this nagging in the back of my mind that says that everything is going to end and I’ll be disappointed. This is like that rant you want to text your crush or your ex or whoever, but you know it’ll get you nowhere so you type it out in your notes and then delete it in the morning. It’s a sort of catharsis I guess. 

Lyrics: 

Be my first first 
Be my last be my worst
Be the best make it hurt
When you leave me inevitably 
Take it slow
Please don’t rush to go
Even though I know
That it’ll come when I most expect it

I don’t want to be afraid 
That every phone call will be 
The last time I hear your voice

It’s in my blood it’s in my bones 
It’s in my past that’s how I know
That I don’t really have a choice

It’s okay 
I saw it coming anyway
You don’t even have to say
That you’re sorry I know you aren’t
You’re just fine 
You don’t have to lie 
I’m a big kid I won’t cry 
I'll disappear and you’ll never see me

(You’ll never see me)
I’ll make sure you never see my face
(You’ll never see me)
I’ll make sure you never see my 

Hey it’s me
I just had the nicest dream
You were sitting next to me
And that was all it’s so stupid I know
Well... okay
This was all just to say
I’ll delete it anyway
In the morning

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Lily Piccolo