bigflower presents the latest selection...a moody ballad that reflects on what could have been.. peace x

The Wish List

IWASWAITINGINVAIN

drive home
with lights too bright to see the road
drive slow
last exit before the toll
i know
the tires turn but on their own 
another change of pace
another brand new face
and you cant say 
these things will change 
too far gone
sorry never helped
cant make up for the time
for never making up my mind
change comes and goes
so easily
everything i felt
never ment 
a fucking thing 

ill make the same mistake 
every fucking day
of waking up again 
im doing fine just great
im ok


drive home

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@drip-133
@falls-2

don't be like me (prod. drip - 133 & falls)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khUV37yUumQ


dont tell me fucking shit
stop pulling on my strings
tried telling you before
but you just wont seem to quit
im not throwin in 

im making myself known
and im ignoring inside tones
the race just started here we go
im not stopping till we dead
im fucking in

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

lyrics:

(scum)
can you tell me where the time went
cause i feel like it wasn't well spent at all
i've been staring at the clock 
screaming why don't you stop
you're moving way too fast now 
and i don't think i could ever catch you
cause you move way too fast and i know i won't last
you move way too fast and i know i won't last 

can you please slow down?
can you please slow down?

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
i'm not sure what to believe 
sometimes i'm not sure you even know me 
i won't pretend to know how you feel
just try to say exactly what you mean

i'm not sure where i've been
you're permanently on my skin
i'm not perfect, never been
least i'm trying to do this
least i'm trying to do this 

cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last 
cause you move way too fast 
i just wish this could last

too fast w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. fats'e)

@prodreaper

lyrics:
i've been scared all my life
i've been scared all my life 

i've been scared all my life
tell me that i won't die 
tell me that i'm okay 
i've been wasting my time 
wandering in my mind 
i'm not who i was 
all out of my luck
god damn it i'm stuck 
i don't where i should go from here
i've been scared all my life 
i've been hiding inside 
i don't show you my face
this is my safe place
inside, inside

and i know i can't hideaway forever
i know that, so don't look at me that way 
i know that i'm hurting me 
but i'm scared to see the world 
i am scared to live my life
i am scared of everything that's not here 
i am scared

scared for my life (prod. reaper)

new benz (feat. house key)[prod. by killedmyself]

@prodreaper

lyrics:
i hope it hurts
i hope you learn
gazing at bridges that you burned
i wish i knew the first time 
i wish i knew the first time 
you were my mentor
you were my friend
now when i see you it burns 
now when i see you it burns inside

my head is fucked i've had enough
because of you now i can't trust
i am scared to show my love

i hope it hurts
i hope you learn
gazing at bridges that you burned
i wish i knew the first time 
i wish i knew the first time

you were my mentor
you were my friend
now when i see you it burns 
now when i see you it burns inside

and hate is all i give to you
holding secrets i never knew 
do what you gotta do 
but i can't show my love to you

i hope it hurts (prod. reaper)

https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

whip broke again and i still aint shit
you don’t what id do to fucking make this
you don’t know the road I’ve been down
just to stay here
pick it stick it flip it then erase it
check back try to relax 
dont mistake this as me coming clean
i aint sayin shit filler for an empty room

just to ease the pain in
roll a couple light em get up
for a minute now I’m changing
every line i right
i despise em all
i can’t stand this
delete another song
write another bar
just to hate it
work another day just to make enough
to get what little i want
that aint doing shit but rearranging
every fucking  thought 
i should have pushed way back
I’m just hanging by the thread 
we’ve sewn together
to make this bed
that we now lay in
have you even been
listening to a word I’m saying
so many delays
I’m losing count
tractions fading
I’m blasted in the black
lustful wishes
giving me a fucking
heart attack
this the tenth joint
I’ve smoked
in the past hour and
a half
fuck a fucking show
i just want my money back  

hop up in it
oh we back again
round for round
i be smacking hits
know you lames
all fuck with this
y’all be dropping duds
but they fuck with it
don’t you care a bit
change things up
maybe try to switch
sticking to the script
seems to work the best


putting my heart in to be washed away
waking up checking the fucking plays
lets see who aint gone respond today
another blog posting all the shit that i fucking hate
what the fuck is it gonna take
i love it and hate it all so much
i need a fucking break
watching the people move up 
who i want to cave
negative energy is all i can muster myself
to fucking bring
i don’t see why i can’t even think
a positive thought long enough
to keep me sane

IWASWAITINGINVAIN

lindenpearce.