prototype / For what it's worth

2-3 of ?

June 8 - June 11 2004

prototype / For what it's worth

covenbrook₁  — (Annie's dagger

1 of ?
Dec 13 2003

the only way
out from the pain
is through your door
and out through the gate

but you can't relate or reciprocate

but annie says she'll be okay
cause she's off to better days

out through the door and right into the haze

“i’m glad you want to be real, but,
please don’t be too real, i mean,”
annie gave me a funny look and said-“

well, that girl gets ahead of herself too well
she's got a one-track mind down the wishing well
and 'fore you ever even know it
she'll be wishing you well
out of covenbrook, with a devil's tail

well, that girl gets ahead of herself too well
she's got a one-track mind down the wishing well
and 'fore you ever even know it
she'll be wishing you well
out of covenbrook, with a devil's tail


ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉˡⁱᵉᵛᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ˢʰᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜⁱᵗʸ ᵃᵍᵉˢ ᵇᵉᶠᵒʳᵉ ⁱ ᵍᵒᵗ ᵗᵒ ʰᵉʳ ᵈᵒᵒʳˢᵗᵉᵖ. ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵉⁿᶜᵉ ʷᵃˢ ˢʷᵘⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵈᵉ, ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵉʳ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ ˢⁱˢᵗᵉʳ ʷᵉᵖᵗ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵒᵘⁿᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ˢʰᵒᵉˢ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵒᵒʳ. ˢʰᵉ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ʰᵉʳ ˢᶜʰᵒᵒˡᵇᵃᵍ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵉˡˡᵃʳ ʰᵃᵗᶜʰ, ᵐᵉʳᵉˡʸ ⁱⁿᶜʰᵉˢ ᵃʷᵃʸ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵒᵘˡ ᵈʳᵉⁿᶜʰ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵒˡᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵗⁱˡˡ ʷᵃᵗᵉʳ. ⁿᵒ ᵏᵉᵉᵖˢᵃᵏᵉˢ, ⁿᵒ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ. ⁱᵗ ʷᵃˢ ʷʰᵃᵗ ⁱ ʷᵃˢ ᵉˣᵖᵉᶜᵗⁱⁿᵍ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ʰᵉʳ. ᵇᵘᵗ ᵍˡᵉᵃᵐⁱⁿᵍ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵗᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒᵘⁿᵗᵃⁱⁿ, ᵃⁿⁿⁱᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ˡᵃⁱᵈ ʰᵉʳ ᵈᵃᵍᵍᵉʳ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜʰᵉʳᵘᵇ’ˢ ᵛᵃˢᵉ, ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵃ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ ⁱⁿˢᶜʳⁱᵖᵗⁱᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵉ...

covenbrook

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

Spotify

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

today it is the way it is
my skin feels like silk thats about to rip
replay ur kiss all against my wish
u display and dismiss while i cant resist

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so

the bruise left on my neck, the scratch left on my chest
open the door and check, no ones home

abandoned my mirror, im 2 weeks in
and i cant be near her, im getting too thin
and ive been so bitter since that kick in my chin
u cant find a place that ur always safe in
ill cough up my lung while i feel it cave in
im not gonna do this again

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so
ever since i got a taste of that ethanol, ive been stuck in a lull
and i got so used to following ur protocol and now im too dull

Pivot

@osoarin
prod by me
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6zpZxjbIRakhJmLzQJ4wnH?si=326ec8f3acd245c0

<3

for my valentine

for my valentine +osoarin

written by me and aras
influenced by helene <3


[july.]

[intro]
only for the exception of the fact
that my heart and my soul are intact
that i no longer need to redact 
that when

when I'm close 2 u
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 
when I'm close to you
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 


[chorus]
cause when I'm close 2 u
the world doesnt spin like how its supposed to do
there's something in the air I feel exposed and nude  (ew)
I sit inside the room
I've accepted as my tomb
Only leave to get some food 
But when I'm close 2 u
the world doesnt spin like how its supposed to do
My eyes can't detect any sudden moves (don't move)
I sit inside the room
I've accepted as my tomb
only leave to get some food 

[hook]

cause when I'm close 2 u
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 
when I'm close to you
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 

[verse] 

I rather pass away then pass you on
Cause i don't wanna treat u like ur just some baton
And i'm scared that you won't like me when I'm off the pills
But when I'm close 2 you feels like I can't do wrong 


[Harass Moon] 

when i'm inside of ur radius 
i feel so damn connected love
intrusive thoughts invading us
but ur lips r so infectious oh I
I keep on coming back for more
heart beating so eclectic
shocking but babe i kno 4 sure
this surge feels electric when i'm (close to u)

[chorus]
cause when I'm close 2 u
the world doesnt spin like how its supposed to do
there's something in the air I feel exposed and nude  (ew)
I sit inside the room
I've accepted as my tomb
Only leave to get some food 
But when I'm close 2 u
the world doesnt spin like how its supposed to do
My eyes can't detect any sudden moves (don't move)
I sit inside the room
I've accepted as my tomb
only leave to get some food 

[hook] 

cause when I'm close 2 u
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 
when I'm close to you
there's something there
there's something there
there's soemthing there 


it's merely parasocial ft. Aras Moon

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/tigerstar/yea-cus-yea
STARPOWER! July 20

Hey!
What unleashed this side of you?
You're not usually speaking
'Bout what you think I should do,
I should choose

Hey!
Whatchu think about all this change?
Haven't let go of me all day
What were you gonna tell me?
That you're scared to say

All my faith is almost gone
'Cus when I think about what I want
I'm sorry but I don't know
I have no response!
And then it's May, we graduate
You always say
You'll do anything to go where I will go
I hope it's worth the wait

When in doubt, I'll be your cheerleader
But I doubt that you'll even need a clutch
To be there when I won't
Yeah, you'll be fine okay!

Things were good so why'd you go away?
Have to let you know
I don't count on anyone to say this stuff
But you say things the best in every way

I'ma get stuck in this time
By taking pics of us left and right
And nothing's gonna last forever
But with you, it might

Coming clean I need to lay it out
and tell the story so far
There's not much I can do to fix it
Before things fall apart
You think I would've learned a lesson
Beyond the past that we shared
It's not fair, it's not fair

All I need, like vapor
Like I breathe you
And I'm cleared and I'm charged
Addictive energy I'm trying not to need
But it's hard
Still convincing myself that I need to go home
'Cus I've burnt out on my own

So I try to get some sleep
But I don't have you to hold
And when I cry I don't want you to see
Tears on my pillow
And I have too many ways to say
How I feel alone
I'll sleep on the left side tonight
But it still feels cold

When you switch up you got me down
Down, down
When you switch up got me

Oh, what's the point of being anything?
Other than with you head to feet
I don't care what I need I just want you
I'll wear your jersey with the nine
I'll write you a lullaby
Remember me by your side, what it was like

I wish it was simple, but it's not
I'll keep missing the way it was
'Till the end, don't pause
'Till the end, don't
Maybe we should skip to when
We're together again and move on
'Till we're in the same spot
(If and when)
I wish I was with you, but I'm not
I'll keep missing the way it was
'Till the end, don't pause
'Till the end, don't
Maybe we should skip to when
We're together again and move on
'Till we're in the same spot
If and when it comes

if and when

yea cus yea

i miss u
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7KZm0nQJ0zlNnutRrh10du?si=61aZH4OLS_mrmPIrY87wmw&utm_source=copy-link

lyrics:

and just this summer
i realized
whats the point of crying
when u never want
to come back

these photos, these words, these messages i read
the bracelet i got, and the money i spent
is something ill never forget

oh u never realized the things that i did
neither tried to make me feel okay when i did
everything
you asked me for

i cant go outside or think about something else
when ur on my mind
girl u took away my heart
crushed it with ur hands
and made things worse

the time i consumed into writing these texts,
the things that i did,
even planned all those things,
for u
just to always say no
or planned on leaving after
i expressed my feelings

(its okay i still think that u are the best
ill never get over this
never forget
how i felt
when u were there
my love for u girl its crazy how its there)

i tried i tried
im sitting in my room once again
and i cry
u made me who i am but i hate all of it,
all these songs that i wrote for u theyre still there
and im weak
and i hate
but i love the way u act
even if u dont care
im scared of the future cus u are not here
the love of my life disappeared like u were
never there

the past 8 months i tried
to make u realize
i never tried to hurt u

i know u werent happy
but its okay my dear
ur better now
and aslong as ur here
im fine with that
cus my life is nothing without u

and just this summer
i realized
this was the best time of my
life with u being mine
the love that i sent
and the one u gave back
is something ill
never try to hide again
cus why should i leave it all behind
i never got to hold onto ur hands
or get a taste of ur lips once again
before u left
what happened to the part where u said
we'd both grow old together
and get a bunch of cats
live a happy life

this summer, i realized

covenbrook₃ — (A girl, a cherry-colored tahoe

3 of ?
June 11 2004

you came to me easy
head in a lock while i’m screaming 
saw you in my dreams and sweat through my sheets 

if i can’t climb up to you 
i’ll crawl down to her 
for what it’s worth 

i’ve got a kind soul but not a good heart
it leaks when i talk and it burns till i’m hot

For what it's worth

covenbrook₂ — (Graduation day
+additional composition by @caleblrt 

2 of ?
June 8 2004

a difference of interest in gender and sworn-off politics 
but you make an easy target
a perfect ball for the batter to hit

so what's happening now
do you feel the motion that's weighing you down

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype
oh when you say it is, i hate you

if i went down south would it change your mind
could it be yours if you needed
head split on the ground
dig my grave for the day that i drown

begging you to hold me, hold me
don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
can't you see there's something that you owe me, owe me
so don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
don't you know

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype

come to me
i'd make you sound so sweet 
if you'd let me

prototype

Overdub instrument at Home Recording - 6/09/2024
Performed on Yamaha DTXtreme III Drum Kit with a Yamaha M12 Percussion Drum Pad

For what it's worth

liza blaise

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