prototype / For what it's worth

2-3 of ?

June 8 - June 11 2004

prototype / For what it's worth

prod. by @coolemokid :0
mixed by @bakurwd <3

neverwin 

(lyrics)
does it matter to you like you say that it does
when i kiss you goodnight and you leach on my blood?
am i lonely enough not to say what it was
when you use me and tell me that i am enough

i’ve been sinking, my temptations drive me overboard 
he wants a wedding, but he’s only getting half my word
she says i’m overthinking everything, i'm not so sure 
fuck, i’m still shaking over all the things i overheard 

& baby i know things that you don't know that make me feel like shit
i'm so sick of losing but i know i never win

i haven't been too motivated for the past few days
and all my friends just wanna kill me cause i'm not the same
and i just sleep through all my thoughts until i wake up dazed
just thinking, fuck, i’m still 16 i think i need a break
and baby i don't wanna ask you the confusing shit
three bullets in my clip, i'm still defusing it
and i'm so shallow and my shadow loves abusing it
your boy hit follow on my insta, not refusing it

please that’s enough of that, 
i can’t escape this shell, i can’t just tell you who you’re looking at 
you said I looked the same, i'd say i've changed but no you never asked
i've disappointed everyone but still i’m never looking back 
if you were me, you'd never wonder why i'm never coming back

i’ve been sinking, my temptations drive me overboard 
he wants a wedding, but he’s only getting half my word
she says i’m overthinking everything, i’m not so sure 
fuck, i’m still shaking over all the things i overheard 

you’re always thinking bout the ways you can get ahead
you keep me stuck on all the things i know you never meant
and all the pressure made me think that it was in my head
and i was perfect till you crossed me, now you're lying dead

i know things that you don't know that make me feel like shit
i'm so sick of losing but i know i never win
always second guess my intuition, lose my grip
do i bore you out? like, baby, sorry if i did

neverwin (prod. junk)

@prodbyjoshwa
@yehon

[intro] 
love me, love me
say that you love me-
fool me, fool me
go on and fool me-
love me, love me
pretend that you love me-
leave me, leave me 
say that you need me-


[verse: liza]
you say it's funny, but you just don’t know
if i am on your side, or if you’re on your own 
come to me, don’t shy
i’d never keep a secret, never tell a lie 
(i keep forgetting but i)
can't say i'm sorry for the way i act
you tend to break me down, i just sit back and laugh
dont you see, i try
somehow i'm slowly feeling hopeless everytime

[chorus] (x2)
so are you falling in love?
is this not something you want?
i thought i figured you out-
but maybe it's not enough, 
i'm so obsessed with your gaze
but you won't look in my way
i take the things that i want-
but you’re the one i can’t break 

[verse: yehon]
you’re the one i cant break
cause i spent too long
tryna thread through the needles
where i dont belong

was it worth all the time that i wasted now?
winter’s never coming back so we should talk it out
spend your day picking flowers, right before april showers
i wake up at noon, but you’re right on the hour

small talk might be nice, but we should take it farther
tell me that you been falling in love

[chorus] (x2)
so are you falling in love?
is this not something you want?
i thought i figured you out-
but maybe it's not enough, 
i'm so obsessed with your gaze
but you won't look in my way
i take the things that i want-
but you’re the one i can’t break


(intro from lovefool by the cardigans)

secret w/ yehon (joshwa)

from ellie

prod. iof 

(lyrics)
i cut my hair and i douse my eyes 
of any lasting signs of light
i burn my ribs and oxidize
i keep to myself reasons why
why is it always me?

isolation, my tempers so different
for any swell reason i guess i never listened
and this is the habit of being your best girl
this havoc's inherent, i watch as you let go

the wreckage in the corner of my eye
don't reappear to my demise
i should have listened on that night
oh, how i'd hate to spend my life
oh, how i'd hate to be his wife

for now i'm sitting at your tapestry
i stare at all the angels and their faces
what god has made me so complacent?
i fall behind, i fall so vacant
i pray for cheeks so thin and aching
hah, thats when i'm worth more than the same shit

why?
cut yourself the life you thought you knew 
yes, i love you, it's just no use
that funny truth slips somehow loose
lie
cut yourself the crime for one last truce
i follow through, bruise black and blue
that funny truth crawls back to you

i cut my hair and i douse my eyes 
of any lasting signs of light
i burn my ribs and oxidize
i keep to myself reasons 
why

everything by me, thanks for listening x
special thanks to @yehon

yes i reuploaded it unpitched <3

(lyrics)
i cut a line for a spot down by the creek 
i signed a waiver, broke a deal 
but now i’m working by the beach 
& i never learned just how to swim, didnt read the fine print
but i'm teaching myself how to stay afloat on my own
on my own

and ever since i took off it's been such a scandal,
you're saying i'm “just a woman," and i don't know what to handle
sat laughing with your teeth in my neck 
and you broke all the bones in my spine as i slept
babe, it takes one to know one, as you're slamming the door shut
at the back of the tour bus, you're packing your bags up
so i watch you, cause you think that i'm bad luck
spoiling your plans, for walking out for another man

starved to death and late on rent
woke up face down tied by the limbs
bending over your bathroom sink, you caught me swimming through amphetamines
you don't know how much this means to me
holding my hair while i'm on my knees,
retching the rest of my guts like it feels so free
i broke down sobbing on the tile floor, when i finished you were out the door

feet in the sand, head in your hands 
terminal two to take off or land
drive you out next to john wayne, you'll fly out now, on the next plane
picking fights with a force that you can't blame,
no you can't blame, no you can't blame, no you can't blame

woke up from the rubble of a crushed-up semi truck 
crawling out from the wheel and i couldn’t help but think, like, fuck
has it been six weeks? was it just six months?
being touched in the wrong way, and you’re no fun on a bad day, 
with your hands on my waist, it's a sad thing
slamming hard on the brakes in the fast lane, in the fast lane

caught over the county line, you know what to take if it was mine
it's all your proper possession, you'll always get what you mention
so when i'm coming on back, be the first at my pension
chasing god on the wrong train, guess i'm no fun on a bad day
carving scars in a girl that you can't change, 
but i know, babe it takes one to know one, to know one

it takes one to know one

covenbrook₁  — (Annie's dagger

1 of ?
Dec 13 2003

the only way
out from the pain
is through your door
and out through the gate

but you can't relate or reciprocate

but annie says she'll be okay
cause she's off to better days

out through the door and right into the haze

“i’m glad you want to be real, but,
please don’t be too real, i mean,”
annie gave me a funny look and said-“

well, that girl gets ahead of herself too well
she's got a one-track mind down the wishing well
and 'fore you ever even know it
she'll be wishing you well
out of covenbrook, with a devil's tail

well, that girl gets ahead of herself too well
she's got a one-track mind down the wishing well
and 'fore you ever even know it
she'll be wishing you well
out of covenbrook, with a devil's tail


ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉˡⁱᵉᵛᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ˢʰᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜⁱᵗʸ ᵃᵍᵉˢ ᵇᵉᶠᵒʳᵉ ⁱ ᵍᵒᵗ ᵗᵒ ʰᵉʳ ᵈᵒᵒʳˢᵗᵉᵖ. ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵉⁿᶜᵉ ʷᵃˢ ˢʷᵘⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵈᵉ, ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵉʳ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ ˢⁱˢᵗᵉʳ ʷᵉᵖᵗ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵒᵘⁿᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ˢʰᵒᵉˢ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵒᵒʳ. ˢʰᵉ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ʰᵉʳ ˢᶜʰᵒᵒˡᵇᵃᵍ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵉˡˡᵃʳ ʰᵃᵗᶜʰ, ᵐᵉʳᵉˡʸ ⁱⁿᶜʰᵉˢ ᵃʷᵃʸ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵒᵘˡ ᵈʳᵉⁿᶜʰ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵒˡᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵗⁱˡˡ ʷᵃᵗᵉʳ. ⁿᵒ ᵏᵉᵉᵖˢᵃᵏᵉˢ, ⁿᵒ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ. ⁱᵗ ʷᵃˢ ʷʰᵃᵗ ⁱ ʷᵃˢ ᵉˣᵖᵉᶜᵗⁱⁿᵍ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ʰᵉʳ. ᵇᵘᵗ ᵍˡᵉᵃᵐⁱⁿᵍ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵗᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒᵘⁿᵗᵃⁱⁿ, ᵃⁿⁿⁱᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ˡᵃⁱᵈ ʰᵉʳ ᵈᵃᵍᵍᵉʳ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜʰᵉʳᵘᵇ’ˢ ᵛᵃˢᵉ, ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵃ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ ⁱⁿˢᶜʳⁱᵖᵗⁱᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵉ...

covenbrook

covenbrook₃ — (A girl, a cherry-colored tahoe

3 of ?
June 11 2004

you came to me easy
head in a lock while i’m screaming 
saw you in my dreams and sweat through my sheets 

if i can’t climb up to you 
i’ll crawl down to her 
for what it’s worth 

i’ve got a kind soul but not a good heart
it leaks when i talk and it burns till i’m hot

For what it's worth

covenbrook₂ — (Graduation day
+additional composition by @caleblrt 

2 of ?
June 8 2004

a difference of interest in gender and sworn-off politics 
but you make an easy target
a perfect ball for the batter to hit

so what's happening now
do you feel the motion that's weighing you down

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype
oh when you say it is, i hate you

if i went down south would it change your mind
could it be yours if you needed
head split on the ground
dig my grave for the day that i drown

begging you to hold me, hold me
don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
can't you see there's something that you owe me, owe me
so don't you know i get a little lonely, lonely
don't you know

it's really never enough 
but when i say it is, i hate you
so unrefined, a prototype

come to me
i'd make you sound so sweet 
if you'd let me

prototype

faye webster cover

you're holding me and holding back
i don't really care for that
just you
there's a pause between every minute
feelin' like i need something
it's just you

i know you

i'll quiet down if it's what you want
i understand i'm not the only one
for you
so tell me what you're looking for
is it a picture-perfect girl
for you?

i know you

i'm here regardless of the pain
don't ever tell me to go away
from you
when we're old and have to leave the earth
i'll still remember all i've learned
from you

i know you

i know you

covenbrook₄ — (mojave, I missed you!!
landers, ca 34°19′58.1988″N 116°23′19.5066″W

+love&thanks to @vanda100 for intro/end ambient textures!

4 of ?
June 15 2004

sleep with a gun on the other side of the mattress 
mean you no harm: when it comes back down, will you catch it

bring me a spaceship to jakarta
somewhere faster, somewhere farther
shuttered lens and muddy water
string the words out to your father

i made you a pact
streak across your face and i ended up worsening the damage
bite my calluses off 'till they bleed
if it takes god just a little
then let me know when he's coming around
i had a vision that you kneeled in front of me on the ground

i take it that you'll fend for yourself (came to you easy)
her flags raised high, 
hitched the i-5 for the touchdown of her life

dust you're kicking behind 
just put the pedal to the metal
make it last however longer you'd like
it's only time until i'm following your trail from behind

got no reason to bruise,
lose my faith or blow it on you
whatever you wanna choose
go your way or walk in my shoes

so have a nice start, wait for your car
play the right cards
but don't tell me i'm easy for you,
or you're going to california
easy on me, annie, won't you?

you came so easy
so why don’t you need me?

landers

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covenbrook — frontage
joshua tree, ca 34°8'4.83"N 116°18'43.5924"W

the glass in hell bled back to sand 
heaven mailed you a silver sling 
gave you my word like the dog on your leash
when i begged then to be your man

the six-string noose and spanish boots 
i used to boast to the troubadour 

but we’re not so young anymore 
not so young anymore

liza blaise

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