s/o my homie finn who made the tag its his birthday 
prod me and also whoever did this guitar for mean girls

sometimes
i get too sentimental
i feel like i-
a dog stuck inna kennel
ur luv hits like adrenaline
i cant disclose all my sentiments
back when u were just a friend of mine
i fucked it up but it felt so right !

i think i felt it
yea im built this way
my heart is meltin
dont wanna feel this way
because im selfish
take all my fears away
i learned my lesson
u got me in dismay
dont think im lastin

i cant believe i
i cant believe i let it pass me by
and to think i
i was gonna live in a goddamn lie
dont need ur shit in my god damn life
i swear to god u jus caught me high 
to think that i wouldve dropped it all 
only a fool would begin to fall

i won’t last

disco

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/expiry

am i different
do i seem the same as before
the clouds fall over and look down on me
i thought i drifted 
found greener pastures of my own
but i do the same things i always thought were weak

can't even look at you 
as if id deserve that pleasure
quieter than usual but im screaming inside forever 
that this love wont break by me
as long as u accept, im free

so many apologies
so afraid of their expiry
im a record beyond broken 
just wanna make u try n see
another day ive tied this knot
and u know ur all ive got
lost my voice
all these words im spoilt for choice
really have lost the plot

i know i did u way too wrong
what are u still w me for
close my curtains im not worth it
self-loathing is my calling
cant stop brick walling
now u think im distant
just wanna prove im intimate when i

can't even look at you 
as if id deserve that pleasure
quieter than usual but im screaming inside forever 
that this love wont break by me
as long as u accept, im free

so many apologies
so afraid of their expiry
im a record beyond broken 
just wanna make u try n see
another day ive tied this knot
and u know ur all ive got
lost my voice
all these words im spoilt for choice
really have lost the plot

expiry

stream on spotify

faye webster cover

you're holding me and holding back
i don't really care for that
just you
there's a pause between every minute
feelin' like i need something
it's just you

i know you

i'll quiet down if it's what you want
i understand i'm not the only one
for you
so tell me what you're looking for
is it a picture-perfect girl
for you?

i know you

i'm here regardless of the pain
don't ever tell me to go away
from you
when we're old and have to leave the earth
i'll still remember all i've learned
from you

i know you

i know you

Someone Like You ft Kurtains

w/ @tansea

i cried out
but i cant look away
im fine now 
but im never the Same

i can't look away w/ tansea

written & produced by valetical

lyrics:

(fuck)

i know it's hard, i know it is
i played my part, i lost my grip
until next year, i'm off that shit
want something new, i'm bored of this
and if you find the answer to my question
then let me know, i'm tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me i'm a waste, and everyone tells me the same
yeah, maybe there's a reason why they left me
my biggest enemy is someone i don't know
i'm fighting for you back, don't think about me

now this is a story i don't wanna tell
it's like the end of a movie i haven't seen before
i've always lived for attention, why can't you see that?
i'm on my knees, begging for more

i know it's hard, i know it is
i played my part, i lost my grip
until next year, i'm off that shit
want something new, i'm bored of this
and if you find the answer to my question
then let me know, i'm tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me i'm a waste, and everyone tells me the same
yeah, maybe there's a reason why they left me
(was it something i did?)
my biggest enemy is someone i don't know
i'm fighting for you back, don't think about me

(195.569)

war within

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4I9bp9alDC4m9MT4GNLtOY?si=b589387c7a0a444c
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/able

produced by jonah bru
mixed written performed by me
cover art by yinon

valentines day song
hope you enjoy, more stuff soon :)
thank you for listening as always

///
show me how
show me how you love
tell me how
tell me how you feel
stop it love I'm exhausted
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I-

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

tread fine lines
when I'm with you it feels like there's no wrong or right
sworn by you, we'd grow older
my feelings attached
now I sit like a loner
oooh
I'll make sure that I'll
dooo
everything that you want me to
dumb ear had me in loop
what's there for me to do
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I loved

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

able

[Chorus]
Girl, I call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

[Verse]
I made it out the rough
I'll make it out again
This time I know my stuff
I said, "This time I think I'll win"
My mind was in the dump
My thoughts went to the bin
They told me something crazy, now
I know I just can't quit
And I know I made it tough
I know it wasn't fair
That I wasn't 'round for you
And I acted without care
I brought it up in reefer
I hope you understand
That I wrote it down for you
And I told you how I feel

[Chorus]
So I'll call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

night at work

Finale

For what it's worth i knew you'd leave
If i were strong i'd go to sleep
But God tastes like shit and i've had enough 
Oh, you would always call my bluff
  
I can't fall asleep
You pique my curiosity
Pretend i'm someone else
To make you think of me 

Take me in 
Don't take me off
Don't fake me out
If i can't win
My head comes off
My head comes out

To see it through, i can't confess
I thought you'd rave my present tense
Oh, you were right all along
Travel overseas or far beyond

I can't fall asleep
You pique my curiosity
Pretend i'm someone else
To make you think of me 

Take me in 
Don't take me off
Don't fake me out
If i can't win
My head comes off
My head comes out

I'll reel you in
Intrigue you and
To leave him out
I feel your skin
I'm almost up
Time's almost out

04 Jester crimes

1-Off

welcome

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/heavyweights-feat-spoder--cambi0

written by us 3, 
produced by me, 
mixed by me n spo

words:
heavy weights
messy days
there's no place to let this go
walls get closer, trapped at home 
crowded streets
now it's me
to find my own way out
to like my own self now

i see the trees all going by
the things i'd do to grow as much
i think to myself: "why can't i try?"
could i relieve my burden, grow w u
long for your hand, my humble abode
to leave with u than live alone

@1spoder
i walked into a corner store
the boy he worked, and worked some more
i had a twenty in my pocket
gave it cause his legs were sore
said, "do you want this for your life?"
he told me, "i'm just passing time."
i took the gum and walked right out
i knew he knew my hands were tied
he faked every moment
he loved you, i know
in the heat of the moment
those heavy weights crushed down on him
 
"i loved you, i'm sorry,
i hated my body,
i'll fix my whole life... yet i'm treated like a zombie. "

these heavy weights, they're killing me
wash me away, wash me away
x2

@1cambio
jump before i look
i hesitate to fall
i keep on going faster 
as everyone else stalls
everybody’s crying
but i know we’ll be alright 
if everything was worth it
why second-guess your might 

skin the moment bare
i'll put it in a locket 
to hold when i'm not there
wish that i could stop it
feeling is a burden 
i sense it every time
they speak, but i done heard it
i'll end it with a line

i'll end it with a line

i know you

liza blaise

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