lyrics:

it's not a competition
but maybe it is
and I think I'll win when you least expect it
slip off your socks and then
take her to bed
I will show up when you least expect it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

it's not a competition
but I moved on first
and you must have something to say about it
tell all your friends that I hurt you worse
cause you know I'll have something to say about it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

I thought I found someone to buffer the pain
but it didn't last and it wasn't the same
still I'll never lose
but he's never you
I lie every day

I thought I found someone, or that's just what I say
to help keep the devil and his dogs away
it's an ego thing, true
but it's time you knew
I die every day
cause I will always wait for you

it's not a competition (voice memo)

a demo given out as a pre-save bonus. all rights belong to lizzy. 💜

i don’t really understand (demo) - lizzy mcalpine

extended audio based off the minute long demo lizzy posted

you’re no good at being sober - lizzy mcalpine

Lizzy McAlpine unreleased song from instagram live
‘Feel Again’

Feel Again - Lizzy McAlpine (Unreleased)

five seconds flat 

lizzy mcalpine - learning/unlearning

lizzy mcalpine - The Long Haul

Maternal Spare Time

rlly proud of this one :)

lyrics:
i couldn't stand in a room with you
and not think about that night
i had to cross the street if we were
walking on the same side
it just hurt too much
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i had to block you on instagram
so i wouldn't feel impatient
i had to stop myself at least once a day
from thinking how her haircut makes us look the same and
it hurt a bunch
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

we had a party at our place
and you showed up with your best friends
it wasn't weird it wasn't awkward
it was just like seeing an old friend
after 4 whole months
i don't remember ever seeing you so happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

it's been 4 whole months
i don't remember ever being this happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

okay again (voice memo)

lyrics:

it's been 30 days since i last saw you
30 days since we had nothing to fear
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting how you feel
30 days is way too real

it's been 4 weeks since i last saw you
4 weeks since we made plans to go north
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting you
i feel all out of sorts
4 weeks and i'm not yours

i've been reading books
i've started puzzles
i've been listening to all the greats
i've been trying new foods
i've been buying new shoes
but i can't seem to forget that it's been 30 days

it's been a month since i last saw you
no matter how you say it, it still means the same
it's been too long now
i think that i've forgotten how long it takes
for me to fall, i'm afraid
this time it wasn't long at all
and why it wasn't, i can't say
in fact it just took
30 days

30 days (voice memo)

Hey, How Have You Been (Tiny Desk Contest Entry) by Lizzy Alpine

lyrics:

my brain feels heavy
like too much tv
it's weighing on me like a pound of concrete
i know he wants me
and that makes me happy
so why do i feel so weird?

it's foggy in my head
like clouds in a storm
the winds picking up
i'm bolting my shit to the floor
but when i'm with him
my shit gets ignored
is that why i feel so weird?

i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

i don't like
getting attached
it makes me feel like i've
done something bad
cause i'm not dependent
and i know that
so why am i scared i'm
reliving that part of my past?

cause i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

is this what it's supposed to feel like?

i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found