wrote this song from the perspective of joel in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind :) new favorite movie

lyrics:

i'm watching everything go sideways
and i can't do a thing to make it stop
i won't remember this tomorrow
but i'll be sad when i wake up

i wish we were back in your apartment
i want you to sing me to sleep
i'll forget my wallet so i'll have to come back
and you won't forget me

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

i'm watching everything go sideways
feels like someone's messing with my head
i'm not prepared to never know you again
i'm sorry, can we stop this instead?

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

when this is over
i'll never know that
i ever missed you at all
i'll be a stranger and
you will be kissing somebody
that i don't know
i'll take the train to the beach
and i'll sit on the sand
and i'll never know
i had a life before this
i don't want this

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

clementine (demo)

Lizzy McAlpine